This is a response to mayuki_daisuki's fic that she wrote for me. It was a sad ending so I decided to give a different point of view giving you guys a look at the other side. I hope you like it! Oh and mayuki_daisuki, think of this as my gift to you but with a different ending with a deeper meaning~ Enjoy!
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Mayuki: Far Away
April 5th, 1999
Dear Diary,
My mom gave me a notebook to let me write down all my feelings whenever I'm sad. It's really cute too!! It's pink with bunnies on the corners and my own name printed on the front cover :3 I love the notebook and I plan on filling in a new page everyday until every page is gone! It's gonna be filled with all kinds of daily adventures of my life~ Ja it's late and mommy said I need to sleep if I ever wanna grow! I can't wait to see what awaits me for tomorrow! For now, oyasumi~
April 7th, 1999
Dear Diary,
Well I couldn't update my diary yesterday because I became sick and I slept through most the day and night! I couldn't believe how hot I was under all the blankets my mom had wrapped me in. But then when I started to get cold, I was glad I had all the blankets ^^' I rested all day today and oh something great happened! My friend Mayu (I call her Mayuyu~) came by and fed me rice porridge! It was really yummy and I thought I was starting to get better already~ Then Mayuyu told me stories about the ocean and I asked her, "what lies beyond the sea?" she told me "I don't know because there is an endless world beyond the sea." She was right about that and I just agreed before falling asleep again. I remember Mayuyu had tucked me in and it just felt so good~
November 19th, 2003
Dear Diary,
It's been a while nee? I lost the notebook for a long time and just found it hehe my bad~ Well I'm 12 now and I've already entered middle school! It's tough but with Mayu's help, I'm able to get passing grades~ I have an illness that requires medicine everyday and to be honest it's troublesome but hey it keeps me alive. Mayu has been helping me a lot these past couple years and without her, I wouldn't be here. She's so kind and so nice to me~ We've known each other for a long time now and well I'm starting to think that maybe I'm feeling more about Mayu.. I'm thinking maybe I've.. maybe I've fallen in love! Kya~~~~ so embarrassing~ >/////< I mean, Mayu is a girl and I'm a girl so it's kinda wrong right? But then again.. whenever we're together..she just makes my heart beat so fast.
November 25th, 2003
Today something terrible happened.. Mayu had just gotten back from bringing me my medicine and she suddenly went blind. Her beautiful blue eyes could no longer see the world.. I tried everything I could do to help. I did all the research and talked to many professional doctors and they couldn't figure out what caused Mayu's blindness. Before she went blind, she said "I don't want to see anybody's face again.." Seeing she was depressed, I tried to make her feel better by making her a little charm. I tried to help but then she went blind.. Nee.. was it my fault that she went blind???
December 3rd, 2005
Dear Diary,
For the past couple years I've been helping Mayu get around with her blindness. I'm kinda like her seeing eye dog

This is the least I could do for all the times she took care of me when I was a kid. I help her get around the house and if she wants to go out I go with her. She has me describe things so I try to make them as realistic as possible. I even started reading out of a dictionary to try to sound more descriptive ><' Even though Mayu is blind, she still manages to smile. That beautiful smile of hers is one of the many things I love about her. Everything about her I love and well I want to tell her so badly but I'm afraid... I'm afraid she'll reject me and won't want me around her anymore. Therefore I have to stay strong and wait for the right moment. I want it to be perfect that way, we can both have a happy life.. maybe even together ^^
January 13th, 2006
Dear Diary,
I have terrible news.. My family is making me move to Akihabara in the city. My father got a new job and so we have to move. It's so far away from Mayu.. I don't want to go!!! I want to stay with Mayu!! Sadly, I'm only 15 and not old enough to live on my own. What hurt most though was telling Mayu that I was moving away. She told me she was going to miss me but wanted me to be happy with my new life. Though in her eyes, I could see her crying on the inside. I cried in front of Mayu but managed to keep my composure. I didn't want Mayu to see me crying so I tried to hold back the tears. In reality though, I was ready to break down right there. I didn't want to leave Mayu. I would rather die than be separated by her. Yet.. my father is making me leave and so I being forced to leave the one I love the most.. God.. why did this have to happen to me?
February 12, 2007
Dear Diary,
It's been a year since I've moved to Akihabara and well it's not bad. My new school is nice and I've already made lots of new friends. I'm glad I was able to fit in well with the others and so were my parents. However deep inside, I missed Mayu deeply. I would sometimes dream about her being here with me and we'd do all kinds of fun things together. I dreamt of us going to karaoke bars together and eating ice cream together at cafes. We would hold hands and sing songs together while gossiping over the latest celebrity news. Then I'd wake up and realize she wasn't here so I would cry. I miss Mayu so much.. If I had wings I would jump out the window right now and fly to her. I hope she's doing alright.. I sent her a letter but I have yet to receive a response so I worry. I hope Mayu is alright.. I miss her.. I miss my Mayu.. so much..
April 7th, 2008
Dear Diary,
Today was the day I first met Mayu :3 All those years ago we're still together even now. Mayu writes to me everyday and I always write back as soon as I get the letter. I tell her everything about my life and all the things I've done. I tell her all the things here that she has to come and see someday. I want her to come so badly but she's recently fallen ill and so she can't leave anywhere. I still can't believe it's been so long since I've met Mayu. Makes me realize how much more I miss her. I want to be with her so badly but I can't!!! But.. one more year and I'll be 18! I can go wherever I want and the first place I'm going to go to is back home where Mayu is waiting for me. I'll give her a great big hug and a big kiss on the lips. Then I'll finally be able to tell her the words I was so afraid of telling her long ago.. I'll tell her that I love her.
May 16th, 2009
Dear Diary,
I'm 18 now so that means I can do whatever I want! I was planning on going to see Mayu but then I got distracted with studies and school. I'm studying musicals and I hope to one day make on of my own. It'll be about Mayu and I and all the things we did together up till now. I want it to be so popular that even Mayu back home will hear about it. The great musical write Kashiwagi Yuki!!! Hehe it's a big dream but I'm shooting for it! I want to do something that will make Mayu proud of me. I want to create something that will bring back the Mayu back then. So far I've been doing well but because I've been so busy, I haven't been able to write to Mayu. I'm either buried in work or my friends drag me out for stupid things. I want to write to Mayu!!! My Mayuyu needs me!!
July 8th, 2009
Dear Diary,
I sent Mayu a letter today finally after months of work. I told her how I made a rough draft of a musical I came up with. A director is looking at it as I write and I'm hoping they'll love it! Then my dream will come true and I'll make Mayu happy~ I can't wait to get the response back from Mayu. She'll probably tell me not to get too excited and not to get a big head XP The teaser always has some smart remark to say to me but hey can you blame me for being excited?! I could be a musical writer and make it big!! Now all I have to do is wait for Mayu to reply. I wonder what she'll say?
August 15th, 2009
Dear Diary,
It's been a month since I wrote to Mayu and she hasn't written back.. I check the mailbox everyday and all I get is bills or junk mail but nothing from Mayu... I wonder if she's ok..
September 1st, 2009
Dear Diary...
Today.. I just found out.. Mayu died...
March 26th, 2012
Dear Diary,
It's been three years since Mayu's death.. I still can't get over the fact that she's gone.. I cried many nights over her and even thought about killing myself.. But something inside me told me that if I did that, Mayu would never forgive me. Today is her birthday so I plan on visiting her grave just like I always do. I plan on bringing her something she would have loved today. I'm gonna bring her a cute charm I saw at a store. It was a little robot that reminded me of her.. I think she'll like it. Ja I better get going then because visiting hours are almost over.
April 7th, 2014
Dear Diary,
Another three years have gone since I've last written in this thing. It's all old and stained but somehow its survived all the years of abuse. Looking back at my old entries, I saw ones that talked about Mayu all the time. I'm 22 now and so I need to be a big girl. Big girls don't cry but yet I always do when I think about Mayu. I miss her more than anything in the world but I manage to keep it all together. Though inside, my heart aches knowing that I was never able to tell her that I loved her. I loved her so much that I would've done anything to save her life even if it meant giving up mine. She was my light and my muse which brings me to today's writings. My musical that I had written a long time ago has finally made it to light. A big director found the story touching and brilliant so production will start soon. I'm so happy that my dream as finally come true and I've made it this far. Mayu would be proud to see me like this.. I just wished she was here to share the happiness with me... Today the director asked me what was the name of the musical since I had never really came up with one. I don't know why I came up with that name but I thought it was the best since it suited it. Therefore, the name of the musical is... Far Away.. Because I always loved Mayu now matter where I was. My heart was always for her and still is today. I love Mayu even we are so far away.
Mayu.. Aishiteru.. zutto zutto.. Aishiteru..~
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