HELLO EVERYONE!!!
I'm sorry that I haven't been posting any new WMatsui OS here. I've been busy with other stuffs. But the past few days I've been thinking of writing a new OS, so here it is! It's not too long but I hope it's enjoyable for you guys.
I HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT!
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You Took My Heart Away (WMatsui)
“Rena, I’m sorry…”
“No, Jurina!”
“Ren—“
“NO!”5 Years LaterI realized that what I did was wrong. I always say that I love her and care about her, but I guess what I said was just some stupid lies. I never want her to call me a liar, but maybe she’s right. I am a liar. Now she’s gone, and I feel really lonely without her by my side. Why can’t I just be that girl again? That girl who always give her my attention.
Knock Knock“Coming!”
I opened the door and found out that Churi came to visit me. It’s not often she comes to visit me, that’s because I’m busy with my carrier as a singer. So I don’t have any time to hang out with my friends and family. I missed her a lot so I just had to hug her!
“CHURI!”
She almost fell because of my action, but I don’t care I really missed her. She hugged me tighter.
“Hey, Jurina! I can see that you really missed me, huh? Guess what! I missed you too, girl!”
“Oh my God, Churi! We haven’t seen each other for a very, very long time! What brings you here?”
She let go of me and gave me a smile. A week smile, actually.
“Umm… I just wanted to give you this,” she gave an invitation card. I took the invitation card from her hand and read the names. At that moment, my heart skipped a beat I don’t actually know why but it did. I don’t know if it’s because I’m shocked or something else.
MATSUI RENA & TAKAGAWA KEIJIRena’s getting married? It’s a wedding invitation card, Rena’s wedding invitation card. I… I can’t believe this. My heart just stop, I can barely breathe. Is this a dream? Is this really happening? I lost my balance for a second but Churi grabbed me and brought me inside to sit on the sofa.
“H..hey! Are you okay? What’s wrong, Jurina?” I don’t know how to answer her question. I wanted to but I just can’t, somehow my tongue has it mind of its own. I’m in the position of breaking down, I might cry right here and right now. I felt my eyes a bit teary, and I realized that I started crying. Why am I crying? I should be happy for Rena, because she found herself a partner who will always be there for her for the rest of her life. Why should I be crying? Am I… jealous?
Churi panicked and put her arm around my shoulder, “Jurina, are you okay?” Churi actually knows what’s wrong with me. She knows that I still have feelings for Rena until now. It’s hard to move on, and I didn’t want to because she took my heart away and my heart is still with her. I still can’t get it back. Not now and never. I couldn’t stop crying, I’m really glad Churi is here right now. I don’t know what I will do if someone else gave me this invitation, I might ask my guest to leave immediately.
Churi whispered, “Jurina… I know that you still have feelings for her. I know it’s hard to move on from her, I’ve experience like this before,” she wrapped her arm tighter and she continued, “but listen to me, Rena’s boyfriend is actually my cousin and he wanted me to ask you if you will sing at their wedding. This is the reason why I came here, I wasn’t trying to upset you or anything. It was hard for me to come here but I don’t want to let my cousin down,” she explained.
I just sit there, still sobbing. I don’t know what should I say. I really want to sing at their wedding, I mean I’ve done that kind of thing a lot of times. But singing at Rena’s wedding might be the hardest thing that I have to do. I made my mind, “okay, I will sing at her wedding.” Churi gave me hug and thanked me. I do remember when Churi had a hard time moving on from her past girlfriend. She was really depressed at that time, just like me. Maybe… maybe if I try harder I might move on from her. If Churi can, I can.
Churi stayed with me quite long. She waited for me to stop crying and calmed myself down. Once again, I’m really lucky to have her in my life. I stood up from the sofa and smiled to her,
“Thanks for accompanying me, Churi. You’re the best!”
She stood up and smiled back, “you’re my best friend Jurina, I’m always going to be here for you. Not only me but your other friends, too.” I walked her to the front gate and just like that she’s gone again. And I’m all alone again.
It’s already midnight and I still can’t sleep. I can’t stop thinking about the whole Rena thing. Should I really sing at her wedding or I just tell Churi that I can’t because this is just too hard for me to handle. I really should move on from her since she’s going to get married soon. But how can I do that? The whole she took my heart away thing is true. She did and I still can’t get it back, and I don’t know how.
“Dear God, help me!!!” I punched the wall so hard, I didn’t realized that my hands are all red and swollen. I’m really depressed and confused with all of the shits that are happening right now. Does Rena still care about me? I know she doesn’t, since 5 years ago obviously. Since the day I dumped her.
I cried and cried. Without my notice, I fell asleep.
I woke up with bags under my eyes. I can’t believe I fell asleep while crying over her, such a stupid thing. I checked my phone and I have 5 missed calls from Churi. Dammit, what’s with this girl!?
I dialed her number and waited,
“JURINAAAAA!!!”
Holy shit!“Ohayou gozaimasu, Churi. Why did you call me?”
“Don’t tell me you forgot, baka!!! Today’s her wedding day and you’re asking me why did I call you?! Where the hell are you?!”
Did I misheard Churi? Today’s her wedding day? Oh fuck! I forgot to read the dates since I was too shocked with the whole Rena’s getting married thing.
“I guess you did. Okay! Whatever, just get your ass to this place! The ceremony just ended, you’ll perform later around 1 o’clock so you better come here early to get ready. I have to go now, see you later!” She hanged up. I better get ready now if not Churi will kill me.
The wedding is being held at the church near my house. I arrived just in time, so I can still get ready for this afternoon performance. I’m actually nervous. I went to the dressing room and found Churi is setting up my make-ups. I poked her shoulder and she turned her head to face me.
“Ah! You’re here, finally! Please sit down and just relax, I’ll do all the make-ups for you! Btw, nice dress!” I sat down in front of the mirror while Churi’s busy doing my make-up. Churi is a professional make-up artist so I trusted her to do my make-up. While waiting, I felt my hands are sweating and my heart is beating really fast. I checked the time and it shows it’s almost 1. I don’t know if I can do this. I don’t have a problem singing in front of the audiences, but singing in front of Rena? It feels like the first time I had to do a performance at my school.
“Done!”
I looked myself in the mirror and I surely look different. Churi is truly the best make-up artist that I’ve ever known.
“Oh man, you look gorgeous! Now, you better get going now. Already know what song you’re going to sing?” Churi asked, and the answer is ‘yes’. I thanked her for doing my make-up and I walked off to the room where all the guests are there. I saw Rena and her husband talking with one of the guest. She looks really gorgeous, she’s getting more and more beautiful. My heart skipped a beat once again. I really should focus with my own thing. I came here because Churi’s cousin needed a singer to sing at his wedding, I wasn't actually invited by her. I didn’t even get their invitation.
“Jurina, it’s time!”
Churi came and told me that it’s time for me to sing. I nodded and followed her to the stage. The sound of the piano playing could be heard. I took a deep breath and started singing slowly.
Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream
But you saw me through
Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
You take my hand to guide me home
And now I’m in loveI stared at Rena, maybe she doesn’t recognize me. I could see it from her face. This song is not from your husband to you, but it’s from me to you. This is the truth, Rena.
You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it’s cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life
Living in a world so cold
You are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start
And now I’m in lovePlease don’t stop looking at me, Rena. Don’t stop looking at me with those eyes and smile of yours. You don’t know how much I missed you, how much I missed seeing your beautiful smile.
You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it’s cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life
Holding your hand
I won’t fear tomorrow
Here where we stand
We’ll never be alone
You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it’s cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life
You become the meaning of my lifeEveryone cheered for me, even Rena. I took a big flower that I bought earlier before I went to the wedding. The flower is a gift from me to them. I walked to Rena and Keiji and gave them the flower.
“Congratulation, guys!” I smiled even though it hurts. I gave Rena a hug. I really wish that I could hold on to her forever, but sadly I can’t. After I congratulated them, I walked back to Churi and Churi gave me a big hug. “Oh cheer up, girl! Thanks for doing this, Jurina. I appreciated it!”
While me and Churi are talking, Rena and her husband came to us. Keiji asked Churi what’s my name and Churi told Keiji that I’m Jurina.
I smiled at him, “I’m Matsui Jurina.”
Rena was really shocked, she was absolutely surprised that I’m the one who sang earlier. I looked at her and gave her a weak smile. I don’t want to stay here longer because I don’t want to make Rena feel uncomfortable. I told the new couple that I have other works to do, even though I don’t.
“Matsui-san, Takagawa-san, I’m going now. Once again, congratulation!”
Keiji thanked me again before I leave but Rena didn’t say a single word. I didn’t want to leave but Rena always told me that she feels uncomfortable when she’s with me, so I’ll keep my promise that I’ll stay away from her. I felt someone is poking my shoulder, when I turned my head I found out that it was Churi. What does she want now?
“Hey! Where the hell are you going?”
“Home.” I continued walking, I don’t want to have any conversation with people today. With Churi and especially Rena. My heart couldn’t take the pain anymore, it’s too hard to control it. I just can’t stay here a little longer. Without my notice I started to cry, I tried not to make any sound but the tears still fall from my eyes. Making it hard to not make any single sound. Churi stopped me by pushing me against the wall. She’s really pissing me off right now.
“You’re leaving just like that?!”
“Why should I stay, Churi?! I didn’t want to do this since the beginning but I know if I do this I’ll make you happy! Me and Rena are over, Churi! You never understand me!!!” I was screaming the whole time all eyes are on me. I feel so embarrassed with my own words and action. I saw Rena standing in front of the door. I really should get out of here before anybody else know about this stupid fight just because I’m jealous. I pushed Churi away and started running. I ran home, good thing that my house is not far from the Church. I slammed my bedroom door behind me and sat on the floor. Crying and crying. I feel so much better that now I can scream as loud as I want with no one hearing me.
I fell asleep on the floor, I don’t actually care about it but now my whole body feels like shit. It hurts really badly, especially my back. Screwed yesterday event! If I didn’t come to her wedding, I wouldn’t be feeling like this. I really don’t want to see Churi for the moment, I don’t even know if I’m mad at her or not. She is my best friend. But when she’s wrong, she’s wrong. But I do feel really happy that I saw Rena after 5 years not seeing her beautiful face. She’s now a gorgeous woman that soon will be a mother. I smiled a little, imagining what will Rena and her future child would be like. I know that Rena will take care of her child really well since she took care of me like I was her holy grail. But knowing she’s with Keiji still hurts me.
It’s time to move on.
Ring RingI heard the front door bell ringing. I ran downstairs to open the door. I just stood there without saying a word. I feel like I’m going to cry again but my tears are all gone. I don’t know what to do nor to say. I wanted to slam the door on her face but I know that’s a bad idea, I mean why would she come here if it’s not important?
“R..Rena?”
Rena gave me her icy cold eyes which makes me scared. She always give me those eyes every time I did something wrong that upset her.
“Why did you just run away like that?! I called your name over and over!”
Her voice sounded like she’s going to cry, I didn’t mean to run away but I just had to. I mean, it’s hard for me to stay there and just stare at the couple especially when my feelings for her are still strong and couldn’t be controlled. I know that I was wrong to just go without saying a proper goodbye to her, but I just needed some air to think things through. I just have to tell Rena the truth. About everything; my feelings.
“I just couldn’t stay there a little longer, Rena. I just couldn’t. I’m sorry but my feelings for you are still here. 5 years without you but the feelings are still stuck inside of me… and my heart is still with you, Rena. You took my heart away.” Once again, I feel myself crying. And now I’m crying in front of her. At this moment I know that I looked really weak, but I just had to tell her the truth whether she believes me or not. I saw her walking slowly towards me. Wrapping her arms around my waist, pulling me closer until our nose touches. I could feel my heart skipped a beat, when was the last time we were this close? How I missed her warm embrace. I stroked her cheek with my right hand while my left hand is wrapping her neck. Her red lips are so irresistible, making me wanting to kiss her. She let go of me like she noticed that she’s doing something wrong.
“Jurina… I’m sorry. I don’t love him, not even a bit. My parents wanted me to get married with him which I did, and I regret that. To be honest, after 5 years separated from you, I still can’t forget about you. You’re always on my mind, but I kept telling myself to move on and find someone else, but I just can’t. I’m still in love with you, Jurina. I missed you,” She hugged me tightly and I heard her sobbing uncontrollably. At this point I could see that she’s telling me the truth, and you don’t know how happy I am to hear that from her. She still loves me!
She took a deep breath and continued, “I’m sorry that I let you down. I’m really sorry!”
I hugged her tighter, “Rena, you still have to stay with him. I’m no longer your girlfriend, I can’t do anything about it. Sooner or later you will have feelings for him, trust me.” I had to do the right thing. She is married, so I’m not going to be the bad guy here. I’m not going to steal Rena from Keiji. She belongs with Keiji not me. I let go of the hug and kissed her cheek. I really do still love her, so much… But I can’t just steal her away like that.
“Listen, we can still be friends. We could hang out like we used to, do you want that?” I tried to cheer her up and she gave me a smile. Even though we’re friends now, my feelings for Rena will never fade away.
We hang out for a few hours, we really do missed each other so it was fun that we got to talk to each other today. I don’t want this day to end but sadly she has to go home to be with her husband. I wish I was Keiji. I walked Rena to the front door, when we were going to say our goodbyes Rena pulled my hand and kissed my cheek. I swear that my heart stopped for a second, I just stand there without saying a thing. I can’t believe that Rena kissed my cheek.
“Thank you for today Jurina, I had fun. Hope we could see each other again,” she gave me that beautiful smile of hers and went home.
I went back to my room and I closed the door behind me. I could still feel Rena’s lips, her soft lips. Maybe if someone was here right now they’ll call me a weirdo for smiling and laughing by myself. My phone vibrated, when I checked my phone it was Rena who sent me a text message. Man, can this day get any better? We’re getting closer after what happened today. I read the message from her,
“Hey, Jurina! Keiji won’t be home until midnight so my parents will be with me here for the day. Since I don’t want to be with my parents all day long, how about you come over and have lunch with us? It’ll be cool if you come! Text me back.. xo”Without hesitating I replied her as quickly as possible. I mean, hanging out with Rena will be fun. I miss her already so I won’t reject this chance to be with her tomorrow.
“Hey, Rena! Of course I’ll come over tomorrow! What time should I come?” While waiting for her to reply me I open a box that I found a few days ago. I didn’t know what’s inside the box and when I opened it, the box is full with my memories that I had with Rena when we were still together. The small gifts that I got from her on my birthday and Valentine’s Day, the polaroid that we took together at every places we went on a date. I can’t believe that I still keep this box after 5 years keeping it in the attic. I shed tears just by looking at all of the memories we had. There’s one photo that I really like, it was taken on our second anniversary. Rena hugging me from behind and both of us had a big smile on our faces. I’m thinking that I should frame the photo and put it near my bed.
My phone is vibrating and it’s a reply from Rena,
“you can come at any time! It’ll be great if you could come in the morning so we can hang out longer!” I replied her with a cute emoticon. I was thinking that I should bring this box tomorrow to her house so the both of us could look at all the memories together. Besides, she still loves me so there’s nothing to fear to bring this.
The next morning I realized that I didn’t do anything much yesterday but today will be day I’ll spend my time with Rena. This will be the first day that we’re going to hang out like we used to. I already took a shower and had my breakfast so now I’m all set to go to her house! I’m bringing the box with me.
My house is not too far from Rena’s so I walked to her place. When I arrived there, Rena was sitting on the bench in her garden. She ran towards me after seeing me walking to her and gave me a big hug. I’m so happy to see her!
“Wow! You came early, I was actually waiting for you!”
She was waiting for me? I feel like I’m her special guest or something. I mean, she never waits for me. When I come to her house we just started talking and ended with having s… sex. Funny though, we never had a proper fun every time I come to her house back then. I hugged her back and I could smell her sweet perfume. She took me inside her house; it’s been awhile since the last time I came here. Rena’s place is always clean. She actually took me to her old bedroom where we always do all ‘that’ stuffs, but yeah we won’t be doing it again now. It’s still looks the same, nothing change. Still the same clean bedroom. Rena spotted the box that I was holding,
“What’s that?”
I smiled and gave it to her. While she was opening it I explained everything to her,
“This box is full of memories, Rena. Our memories. Everything that you gave to me and the photos that we took, they’re all in there. I brought this because maybe you would like to see it.”
We sat side by side on her bed. She was looking at all the stuffs carefully, she was actually looking at the picture we took when we went to the zoo. It’s a photo of us with a baby panda, it was Rena’s birthday and I took her to see the baby pandas. She was really in love with pandas back then. I smiled just by looking at her staring and smiling at the photo. To be honest, my relationship with her was actually pretty stable. But because of my wrong action, everything just gone. I would still be with her today if I didn’t dump her back then.
“Rena…”
She turned her head to face me. She was crying, I didn’t notice that she started crying.
“Hey, what’s wrong?” I hugged her tightly. I just couldn’t stand seeing her crying, crying doesn’t fit her at all. I just want to see her smiling every day. I rubbed her back slowly which it makes her calm.
“I... I miss us, Jurina…”
“I also miss us, Rena. But—“
She kissed me. She actually kissed me. The kiss was slow but passionate, I couldn’t believe she would actually do that. I closed my eyes, she wrapped her arms around my neck to deepen the kiss. I couldn’t control myself like something is controlling me; my feelings. I missed the taste of her lips. She let go of me and looked straight into my eyes, at that moment I feel so alive and I felt like something or someone just picked me up. I stroked her cheek slowly,
“I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done in the past, Rena. I love you so much…” I kissed her lips once again.
“I love you too, Jurina.” We leaned slowly to lock our lips once again, but then…
“WHAT IS HAPPENING HERE?!”
It was Keiji. I thought he won't be home until midnight. He might came home to get something important.
Keiji opened the door widely which I could see that he was with Rena’s parents standing in front of Rena’s room. I was so shocked so I stood up from her bed as fast as possible. On the other hand, Rena’s face turned really pale and she was sweating uncontrollably. She doesn’t know what to say. She looks at me, to her husband and parents, then back to me. When we were dating, Rena’s parents never know about it because her parents won’t accept if they know her daughter fell in love with a girl. But her parents know that we were close back then because we were best friend. This is the first time we got busted by them and what’s worse is that her husband also saw us kissing.
“Matsui Rena, explain!!!” Rena’s father was extremely mad about this but I don’t want Rena to get the punishment.
“Mr. Matsui, it was my fault! Mr and Mrs. Matsui, it’s true that Rena and I used to date each other 5 years ago but I dumped her. We dated for 3 years. I’m really sorry, please don’t punish Rena!” I begged to her parents not to punish Rena. Rena’s father stared at her with his icy cold eyes.
“Is it true, Rena? You used to date Jurina?” Rena answered him by nodding her head. She was speechless and I know that she’s still shocked that her parents and her husband saw us kissing. Her father sighed, Rena already know what will her parents say. They said that if Rena ever fall in love with a girl, she has to move out and will never be counted as a Matsui ever again.
“Rena, I give you 2 choices. One, I’m still allowing you to stay here with Keiji but you have to leave Jurina forever. Second, you leave this house immediately after this conversation and you can be with anyone you like. But remember, we won’t be counting you as a Matsui ever again!”
At this point, I know that she will choose to stay here with her husband. She really loves her parents so she will never choose to leave. I’m just a strang—
“I choose to leave this house and stay with Jurina,” we were all shocked by her decision. “I don’t care if you guys won’t count me as a Matsui anymore. I just want to be Jurina. Forever!”
I looked at her with disbelief. Is she really going to do that just to be with me? I shed my tears and smiled widely to her. On the other hand, her parents and her husband were really disappointed. They left her room so it’s just me and Rena right now. I hugged her tightly and sobbed,
“You would actually do that just to be with me?” Rena let out a small ‘yes’ which made me sob a little louder than before. After all this time she still loves me. I promised myself that I won’t ever leave her side again and I will always love her until my last breath. She sacrificed her life just to be with me, now it’s my turn to sacrifice myself to be with her and make her happy.
Rena was packing her clothes and other important stuffs she’ll be bringing to my house. Yes, she’s going to live in my house, we’ll be living together. I helped her putting her clothes into her bags. We were all set, Rena tried to say her goodbyes to her parents but her parents doesn’t even want to see her face. When we were walking to my house, Rena doesn’t even say a word so I looked at her face. She has a smile on her face which it makes me happy that she’s smiling.
I giggled, “Why are you smiling?”
She smiled wider and turned her head to face me, “I’m just happy, really happy. Sad that I have to leave my parents, but if it’s with you, I will never feel alone.”
We stopped and stared at each other, smiling. I could say that was the sweetest thing that Rena had ever say to me. I pulled her for a hug before continue walking to my house. When we arrived at my house Rena straight away put her clothes in my empty wardrobe. After we finished tidying up all of her clothes, we lay down on my bed side by side. We kept staring at each other for I don’t know how long, but I never want to look away from her. Seeing her like this brings back the memories that we had in the past. But past is in the past, we’re going to start a new life now and we’re going to fix everything that we’ve done in the past. We’re also thinking that we should start a family of our own. But that day will come, we just have to be patient and enjoy what we already have right now. Rena’s back with me and I’m not going to waste my life to hurt her.
I stroked her cheek slowly then moved to her lips, I stared at it for a while and smiled. She leaned in slowly and so do I. She captured my lips and we started kissing slowly but it was passionate enough to make us feel our love. We stopped and stared at each other once again.
“I love you, Jurina.”
“I love you too, Rena. I promise I will never leave your side and I will never repeat my mistakes in the past. I don’t want to lose you again. Thank you for trusting me again.”
THE END
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