I haven't uploaded a OS in a long time ahh
Well truth be told, it was just pure laziness. I'm very lazy, I'm sorry about that..
Anyway here an AtsuMina !!
Note: Atsuko is a ordinary girl but Takamina is an idol yep yep, a very cheesy story but yep.Zutto ZuttoSpringMinami paused at her door. She had a feeling that if she entered her apartment, something bad will happen though she didn't know why. But it was late and she was tired so she pushed the feeling aside and stepped through the door. She was taking off her shoes in the hallway when she heard a voice coming from the darkness.
"You're late again, Minami." Atsuko's quiet voice stated and Minami nearly screamed in surprise. Minami quickly fumbled for the switch and flicked it on, revealing Atsuko who was sitting on the couch and staring at her with a blank look. Minami swallowed, knowing that under the look, Atsuko was pretty pissed off.
"I'm sorry. We ended up practicing and I lost track of time," Minami replied, though not really sure why she was apologizing. She felt she needed to apologize for being late though she hadn't really recalled Atsuko asking to meet her at her apartment. Then again, the girl would come and go as she pleased, seeing as Minami gave her a copy of the key.
"Why are you here, by the way?" Minami asked curiously and cautiously. She wasn't sure if the question would make Atsuko's temper flare but there was a high possibility it would. And it did.
"Why am I here? Oh I don't know. Maybe it's because I wanted to make a surprise dinner for our one year anniversary or something. But obviously it didn't go according to plan and I ate the dinner all alone," Atsuko's sarcasm was in full-force and Minami winced when she realized that it was indeed their one year anniversary and she had stupidly forgotten it.
"I-I," Minami struggled to find an explanation which of course wasn't going to work. There was no explanation for all this. She had forgotten their one year anniversary and she couldn't really make up an excuse for it.
"You know, Minami. I'm getting sick of being so lonely these days," Atsuko said and stood up from the couch and stared at Minami and continued. "You don't make time for me anymore even though I always find time but you're always too busy with performances or guest appearances. And it doesn't feel like we're even dating anymore."
"W-what are you trying to say?" Minami asked, feeling her heart starting to race as a possibility of something she never thought would happen, might happen right now. on their one year anniversary no less.
"Minami, you know what I'm trying to say. If you can't make time to be with me despite how much I'm trying, there's no point in us being together. I love you a lot, you know that Minami. And I know you love me but love can't just magically become glue and fix this distance between us, you know that." Atsuko didn't want things to end up like this but it was inevitable with the way things were now. She had hoped to patch things up and rekindle their relationship with the surprise dinner but as fate decided, it wasn't meant to be.
"Atsuko, you can't do this." Minami stubbornly said and immediately walked over to cradle Atsuko's hands in her own. "I know I haven't been a good girlfriend but you know how AKB is important to me plus I have to lead the group. That's why I haven't been spending time with you but please, you can't do this." Minami had tears in her eyes now and she wanted to just curl up and cry at this very moment but she couldn't.
"Am I not important too? I know how important the group is, but I can't come first? Minami, you have to admit it. We're drifting away from each other and we hardly even talk on the phone much now as compared to how we were when we first started dating. Minami, I'm sorry but let's break up." Atsuko finally choked out the words she once thought she'd never say to Minami. At this point Atsuko had started to cry because of Minami's crying but she told herself not to get distracted.
Atsuko then took her hands out of Minami's hold and grabbed her bag and headed for the door. But before she could take another step, Minami shouted.
"Am I the only one at fault here?! You're at fault too! You can't expect to just be number one at
everything in my life! I have a career that takes up a lot of time, yes, but the least
you could do is understand me! I thought you were better than this, Atsuko. In the end, you're nothing but selfish." Minami blurted out in anger.
"I'm selfish? Well sorry for being selfish because I want to spend more time with you." Atsuko spat out, furiously wiping away the tears that had welled up in her eyes because of how hurt she felt by Minami's statement. Atsuko then quickly walked and reached for the door handle and paused for a moment.
"I'm sorry." Atsuko whispered to Minami who was watching her back, then she grabbed the door handle and walked out before gently closing the door behind her.
Minami's legs gave out immediately and she sat on the floor and just wailed into her hands. She knew it was mainly her fault for this break up but she can't help but feel an anger within her because of Atsuko. The fact that Atsuko can't see now, how important Minami's role is and how much responsibility she has and just takes for granted that Minami would be by her side 24/7.
But yet, what she had said in her anger to Atsuko was not fair. There was no way now to turn it back, she could only wait a few days, hoping that possibly the tension between the two would dissolve and she could apologize to Atsuko.
With that, Minami wiped her tears and got up from the floor, heading over to her room and without bothering to shower, simply changed into her pajamas and headed back into the living room to watch some TV to hopefully ease the pain for now.
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It didn't help at all that a lot of things in Minami's apartment reminded her of Atsuko. Such as the numerous framed photos of the two, or magazines and books that Atsuko had brought over and read while waiting for Minami but had left it there. It was even worse when Minami opened her closet to change and she'd found some of Atsuko's clothes when she would stay over on the nights they had movie marathons.
All in all, Minami was regretting it. Regretting that she had the leader position, that she didn't do enough to spend time with Atsuko. That she had allowed Atsuko to come to the conclusion that distance was too big of an issue now. That she made Atsuko doubt they could still be together despite how busy she was.
Minami laid in her bed, cuddling Nyaachan to her chest. She was reminded of how she had met Atsuko, the somewhat awkward, clueless girl that somehow eats a lot.
Minami had met Atsuko at high school actually. The two were classmates but due to their different personalities, had never spoken to each other. Minami had then gone on to be a full time idol when they graduated while Atsuko worked at a pet shop. They had only talked to each other for the first time years later at the pet shop Atsuko worked in when Minami was looking for a pet. Somehow the two clicked and got closer. Soon after that, they both confessed to each other and then dated. It was a pretty cliche way to have fallen in love, but Minami loved it.
Minami now felt no motivation to do anything. She didn't want to go to practice, she didn't want to be an idol anymore. At the moment, she just wanted Atsuko by her side, telling her that she liked how Minami danced and sang and such trivial things that somehow meant a lot to Minami.
Minami wanted to pick up the phone and call Atsuko and apologize, but yet stubbornness and pride stopped her. Why should
she apologize when Atsuko was the one who broke things off and then walked out on her. If anything, she felt Atsuko should call her up and apologize.
With that thought in her head, Minami got up and decided to get over Atsuko with a new and old love, Katsudon.
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End of SummerWeeks had passed since they broke up. Somehow, through some
sources, Yuko had found out about it and told her friends. And though Minami assured her friends that she was fine and never felt better, they didn't really believe it. They've noticed that Minami seemed distracted during practice, and constantly checked her phone and she seemed disappointed whenever she put her phone away.
Today they decided to go to a nearby restaurant after practice for lunch, something they hadn't done lately.
Once they settled in their seats, they once again watched as Minami pulled out her phone and type something before shaking her head slightly and then start scrolling.
"What are you looking at, Minami?" Haruna asked without a thought and immediately Minami looked up at her, wide-eyed. And then Minami mentally smacked herself. Once again without realizing, she had pulled out her phone and checked her message inbox for any new messages from a certain someone.
"N-nothing," Minami cursed herself for stuttering and before anyone commented anything else, she placed her phone on the table and stood up. "I'm going to the toilet for a moment, excuse me." And then she quickly escaped to the toilet. Immediately after Minami went out of sight, Yuko quickly snatched up Minami's phone and scrolled through the messages.
"Yuko! You shouldn't look through Takamina's phone!" Haruna scolded Yuko and Yuko stuck her tongue out at Haruna.
"Shh Nyan nyan. This is a great opportunity to see why Takamina keeps looking through her phone more than usual!" Yuko declared and proceeded to look through her messages. She accidentally clicked unsent saved messages and she let out a tiny shriek.
"Look at this, look at this you guys!" She beckoned everyone over excitedly and immediately, Haruna shifted closer while Mariko and Miichan stood behind them.
= = = = = =
To: Atsuko
I'm sorry, I really am.
= = = = = =
= = = = = =
To: Atsuko
I want to see you again
= = = = = =
= = = = = =
To: Atsuko
I really miss you a lot. I do.
= = = = = = "What the hell? Takamina can write things like that?" Yuko said in disbelief and Haruna slapped her arm.
"It seems like Takamina hasn't really gotten over her breakup, huh?" Mariko commented and then her eyes widened as she spotted Minami coming back, they quickly sat back down and Yuko quickly dumped Minami's phone to where it was and then quickly put on a innocent smile as Minami approached.
"Have you guys ordered yet?" A unsuspecting Takamina asked the others as she sat back down and they shook their heads.
"We were waiting for you." Miichan said and Minami nodded before opening the menu, scanning through it. After a moment, she realized that everyone still had their eyes on her and she paused.
"What? Do I have something on me?" Minami asked, patting her head self-consciously. The other four looked at each other and then nodded and Yuko turned back to face Minami.
"You need to send those messages to Atsuko." Yuko said after a moment and immediately, Minami's eyes widened.
"You checked my phone?!" "Yuuchan!" Both Minami and Haruna shouted at the same time. Yuko looked at Haruna and the others questioningly and then smacked her head in realization.
"I wasn't suppose to say that bit out, was I?" Yuko whispered to Haruna and Haruna nodded and Yuko groaned as she avoided the shortest girl's glare. "Ooookay, ignoring what I just said like two minutes ago... You need to talk with Atsuko again. You obviously miss her and it's not good to keep up these pent up feelings. You've changed because of it, you know?"
"I-I.. I'm sorry.." Was the only thing Minami could say. She didn't know what else to say when she just felt guilty hearing from her friends that she isn't herself anymore.
"Aw don't apologize with that face, Bakamina. You'll make us sad too!" Miichan shouted and before Minami knew it, she was enveloped in a group hug along with pats on the head and Minami felt tears well up in her eyes.
"Thank you, you guys. It means a lot." Minami sniffles as she wipes the tears from her eyes and everyone laughed.
"Does this mean you'll talk to her?" Mariko asks and Minami paused for a moment before smiling and nodding. Yuko cheered once more and hugged the shorter girl again. Everyone paused when a growl broke the moment and immediately everyone turned to look at Miichan who simply smiled sheepishly.
"I'm sorry.. but can we eat first?" Miichan asked shamelessly and everyone laughed and nodded.
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AutumnMinami stared at her phone, her thumb hovering over the 'send' button. She was hesitating now, as with the past two days. Minami had promised her friends that she would talk to Atsuko, but she never really promised when.
Maybe sending a message isn't the best way to do this, should I call her instead? Minami groaned and paced around her living room. Then, with a spur of the moment courage, she exited out of the messaging app and dialed Atsuko's number.
She wasn't sure if Atsuko would even pick up, considering how stubborn the two had been at refusing to give in nor apologize. Minami didn't even know what Atsuko had been up to despite how much she wanted to know, but her pride got in her way. Now that it was a rare moment and chance her urge and want to see Atsuko won over the pride, she took it. Minami's heart raced, as she heard dial tone, she got more worried as the seconds passed, that Atsuko wouldn't even want to talk to her anymore.
"Hello?" Atsuko's voice said and Minami sucked in her breath. She had no idea what to do now that Atsuko
had actually answered her phone. "Hello?" Atsuko once more asked, confusion clear in her voice and Minami realized that Atsuko didn't check who was calling and simply answered her phone.
"I want to see you." Minami blurted out without a thought and she wanted to die at the silence that followed it. She knew the silence meant that Atsuko recognized her voice and was thinking of what to do and quite frankly, Minami was surprised that Atsuko didn't hang up the moment Minami finished her blurting.
"Umm.." Minami mumbled, she was beyond embarrassed right now, that moment of courage had flown out of the window and all that was left was sheer embarrassment and fear. But mainly, embarrassment.
"Okay." Minami paused.
"What?"
"Okay." Atsuko repeated, just as quietly as the first time. And Minami's heart started to beat even faster at the fact that she would get to see Atsuko.
"Really?" Minami asked, cringing a little when her voice sounded breathless.
"I'll be at your apartment soon, don't leave." Atsuko replied, ignoring Minami's question and hung up. Minami put her phone down, sat down and buried her face in her hand, still feeling the embarrassment from before. But yet she smiled, somehow like always, Atsuko knew where Minami was without even asking, just like before. Realizing that Atsuko would be here
soon, Minami quickly stood up and patted herself down to make herself somewhat presentable and then looked around her house to see if it was messy. However before she could even clean up, her doorbell rang and she froze.
Apparently, the definition of Atsuko's
soon was like 'I'm going there and reaching it in less than five minutes'.
Minami quickly stood up and went to get the door, pausing in front of it for a moment to pat her hair down once more and then breathed in and out. Realizing that she had zoned out a little and was still staring at the closed door, Minami blushed and quickly opened the door. She stared the taller woman who stood in front of her and Minami realized that they had been apart for a long time. The hair that Atsuko used to sport, which just touched her shoulders, grew longer till it was past her collar bone. And though Minami wished that she could've been there to watch Atsuko's hair slowly grow, she thought it suited her well.
Realizing that she'd just been staring at Atsuko for a good minute or two, Minami felt her cheeks heat up even more but somehow managed to step aside, allowing Atsuko to step in and Minami to close the door behind her. Atsuko walked over and settled herself on the couch and looked around the apartment where the last time she was in, it ended up in a argument. She avoided the eyes of Minami who sat on the armchair beside the sofa. The two sat in an odd mixture of awkward yet comforting silence for a few moments, both avoiding each other's eyes.
"You still have the things I've left here." Atsuko broke the silence and Minami looked up at her. It wasn't a question, but a statement and Minami could tell that though her voice sounded indifferent, Atsuko's face showed a hint of happiness at that.
"I don't see why I have to throw your things out. It makes my apartment look nicer." Minami explained and shrugged, it was true after all, there was also the fact that she couldn't bear to throw them out, so she kept it. Another few minutes of silence followed as Atsuko fiddled with her own fingers and Minami was just staring at her hands.
"I-" "I-" The two said at the same time and looked at each other and Atsuko burst into giggles and Minami smiled. Atsuko then gestured for Minami to go first while holding her hand over her mouth, trying to stifle the giggles.
"Um.. I don't know why it has taken me this long, okay wait. It took me this long because I was stubborn and I had a lot of pride. And I'm sorry. I really am. I should've thought more about you, I shouldn't have lashed out at you. And I'm really really sorry. There is no other way to put it, but I'm really sorry." Minami breathed out as she finished saying her piece and looked down at her hands. She felt vulnerable at this moment, admitting her flaws were not her favorite thing to do. But if it was to Atsuko, Minami felt, it was alright for the person she loves to know.
"I've missed you so much." Minami added quietly and there was silence that followed and Minami's heart raced even more as the seconds passed. A few moments before Minami felt familiar arms and scent wrapped around her and immediately, Minami hugged Atsuko back tightly, burying her head in the crook of Atsuko's neck and she breathed in the scent that she missed for so long.
"I've missed you too." Minami heard Atsuko whisper into her hair and Minami continued to nuzzle Atsuko's neck. Minami then scooted further back into the armchair, still not letting go of Atsuko, and pulled Atsuko down so that Atsuko was now sitting on her lap. Atsuko puled back from the hug and wrapped her arms around Minami's neck instead and smiled at Minami.
"I'm sorry too. I should've been more considerate, knowing how busy you are. I'm really sorry too." Atsuko apologized and though it was much lesser than what Minami said, Minami knew she meant it and smiled and hugged Atsuko close once more.
"I love you, Minami." Atsuko whispered to Minami and pulled back just enough to place a peck on Minami's lips before returning back to hugging Minami and nuzzling her hair.
"I love you too, Atsuko." Minami replied and hugged her tighter.
"Always?" Atsuko whispered and Minami pulled back and smiled widely at Atsuko.
"Always." Minami promised and kissed Atsuko once more, to seal the promise. Atsuko giggled and then hugged Minami once more. After a while of hugging, Minami felt a little uncomfortable.
"Can we move to the bed? It's much more comfortable to cuddle there." Minami suggested and Atsuko laughed, causing the crinkles that Minami loved to appear at the top of her nose.
"Hmmm, okay~ Will we be doing more though~?" Atsuko's voice dropped to a low whisper at the end and Minami gulped and nodded.
"Yay~ Let's go~" Atsuko cheered and quickly stood up and held Minami's hand and dragged her to Minami's room. Minami groaned, knowing it was going to be a
long night, just like old times. But Minami smiled when Atsuko pushed her against the bedroom door and leaned in once more, kissing her. This was what she love, spending time with Atsuko, being close to Atsuko, and Minami didn't want anything else.
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Very lame cheesy ending yes.
Just to update you guys ( if any of you even read this ); I have uhm 2/3 AtsuMina OS in the planning, one of them is a christmas fic, 1 KojiYuu fic, and another possible one of another ship but that might never be done ..
But anyway, I hope you enjoyed it ~~
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