41 - Love and Friendship
chihiro: nacchan if only.. if only i could stop myself from loving you..
chihiro: *brushes natsu's lips* i know this is wrong, i already promised her that i'll support her for you.. but- but just this once..
chihiro: *kisses natsu passionately*
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natsu's mind: *slowly gaining consciousness* chii-chan..? eh?
chihiro: natsu, i love you..
natsu: *slowly opens her eyes* chii-chan
chihiro: eh?! n-nacchan? you're awake? *panic* did- did you..
natsu: chii-chan- is this true? *touches her lips*
chihiro: *panic* u-uh- I'm sorry!! *runs away*
Natsu: w-wait! Chii-chan!!
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Chihiro ran away before she could answer. it was a mix of emotions that she felt. she really didn't knew natsu would be awake. she was shocked about what happened that the only thing that comes into her mind is to run away. And now that natsu already knew, she felt more scared..
chihiro: what will happen to us now?
chihiro: how can i face natsu now? and aoi, if she knew this our friendship will be ruined.. no!!! i don't want that!
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Meanwhile- Natsu was sitting still, also surprised on what she heard.. knowing that her best friend has a romantic feelings for her..
Natsu wanted to ask Chihiro, she really wanted to follow her when she ran away but her body can't move. She doesn't know why, maybe it is because of her sickness or she's really confuse on what she's gonna do.
Meanwhile- Madoka who was just standing beside the open door of the room, can't stop from crying. She already realized it all along, she already expected it. She just didn't expect that chihiro would confess knowing that aoi also likes natsu.. But what can she do about it?
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that whole night, natsu was spacing out.. she tried to call chihiro but chihiro doesn't answer her calls.. Natsu is so confused, she was thinking why she didn't even notice it. why didn't she thought that there is a chance that her best friend would like her.
Maybe it's because they are best friends so being so close is natural for them, that she's not aware of it.
Thinking of it, Natsu doesn't mind about the kiss.. but she doesn't know what to say either to Chihiro. She love her best friend but she doesn't know if she can go further beyond that.. she's not even sure if she can start a new now, she doesn't knew if she already healed from the past.
Last night, she dreamt of her again, she was trying to forget her but her dreams made her remember. Jiina.. her first love. The girl who never care about what she is and accepted her faults. Th girl who taught her what is love. The girl that made her world upside down.
She already decided to forget her but still, its her first love.. can she really forget her easily? last night she even mistook madoka for jiina.. And she is thinking why..
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The day after the next day..
Natsu and Madoka arrived at their classroom early.. Sakura already let her nee-chan go to school as she was feeling better. Although she ordered her neechan to drink all her medicine..
Aoi: ohayou, nattan and ma-chan *smile*
Madoka: *thin smile* ohayou ao-chan
Natsu: aoitan~!!! *hugs* why didn't you visited me when i was sick mou~ (⊃д⊂)
Aoi: uhm he-he, *cute smile* i'm sorry nattan but kaachan and i have to go somewhere
Natsu: really~? but anyway, i'm okay now hehe~
Aoi: that's good to hear then ^^
Natsu: so ~ did you bring a lot of food for me today? hehe~
Aoi: hehe its still early for lunch nattan~
Natsu: ah- uhm.. hehe.. chii-chan, where is chii-chan?
Aoi: ah, about her.. she was absent yesterday.. she didn't mailed me either.. i wonder what happened
madoka: *silently listening*
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After some time, before they class start Chihiro arrives.
Chihiro: Ohayou.. *weak voice*
Aoi: Ohayou Chiichan *smile*
Chihiro: aoi-chan.. *anxious*
Natsu: ah uhm... o-ohayou chiichan *shy smile*
Chihiro: *avoids eye contact with natsu* uhm.. i'll go to my seat now *walks towards madoka* Ohayou maachan..
Madoka: ohayou *thin smile*
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@lunch break
- Natsu was planning to talk to chii-chan, but chii-chan purposely avoids her.
Chihiro: uhm, i'll just gonna go to the director's office, sofu was calling me so..,
Aoi: eh?
madoka: ok, should we wait for you?
Chihiro: *thin smile* no need just eat without me
natsu: uhm- *stiff* *stares at chihiro*
*chihiro left*
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natsu: *sigh*
aoi: nattan? something wrong?
natsu: eh? *startled* ah- nothing, nothing- hehe *forcing to smile* ah- come on let's eat, i'm hungry
aoi: un..
madoka: *silent*
*awkward situation*
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@after class..
aoi: chii-chan, going home already?
natsu: uhm.. ne- chii-chan, let's go home toget-
chihiro: sorry guys, i have something to do at the student council office, gomen *small smile*
madoka's mind: *sigh*
aoi: hmm okay then..
natsu: then- i'll wait for you.. uhm- etou..
chihiro: eh? *panic* ah- no- no need- it will took long to finish the reports so you don't have to wait for me
natsu: eh? but-
chihiro: then i'll go on ahead. bye guys see you tommorrow..
natsu: chii-chan..
aoi: hm?
madoka: *looks down* *silent*
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natsu's mind: she's completely ignoring me.. *sigh* i don't want this.. i wanted to talk to her but to be honest i also don't know what i'll say when i face her.. ahhh-- mou.. *sigh*
aoi: nattan, let's go?
natsu: ah- gomen, it seems that ai-chan mailed me. she's calling me at the newspaper club.. gomen ao-tan, ma-chan just go ahead without me
aoi: but i thought you don't have club activities today.. *pout*
natsu: hehe gomen aoitan.. i'll treat you a cake next time okay *smile*
aoi: really?
natsu: un~ *hugs* *pats head*
natsu: aoitan, ma-chan, be careful on your way home okay? *smile*
aoi: hai~
madoka: okay.. *looks on the other way*
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- more than half an hour passed.. in the student council room chihiro was spacing out.. she was tired and just want to sleep as if there's no tomorrow.. trying to escape from the reality..
chihiro: *sigh* i should go home now.. it's getting late..
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natsu: chii-chan, *smile* i thought you won't go home anymore.. hehe, *forcing to laugh*
chihiro: n-natsu?! *startled* w-what are you still doing here?
natsu: waiting for you..
chihiro: eh?! *stiff*
natsu: chii-chan, can we talk?
chihiro: uhm- i- i.. i remembered i still have something to do. gomen! *runs away*
natsu: h-hey! chii-chan! wait! *chased chihiro*
chihiro's mind: gomen natsu..
natsu: chii-chan wait! hey! chii-chan-! chihiro!!!
chihiro: *runs faster*
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for almost a week natsu was trying to talk with chihiro but she was really avoiding her.. during lunch and break time chihiro would excuse herself saying that she still have something to do. Natsu was always chasing after her but she somehow manages to avoid natsu.
Natsu also tried to call her at home but her mom always says that she's already asleep or not in the house..
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It was after their PE class, and chihiro has been asked by the Teacher to check on some equipment in the stock room.
Natsu, hoping that they can at least talk decided to follow chihiro secretly..
Chihiro: *checking on the equipment*
Natsu: *went inside and locked the room*
Natsu: chii-chan
Chihiro: *startled* eh?!! N- Natsu?! w-what are you doing here?
Natsu: please can we talk? you're always avoiding me.. *sad smile*
Chihiro: Natsu, please.. please don't ask anymore!
Natsu: But we can't stay like this chii-chan!
Chihiro: sorry.. *tries to run away but natsu grabbed her waist*
Natsu: Chihiro talk to me please..
Chihiro: . . . *trying not to cry*
Natsu: about that kiss.. what is-
Chihiro: please don't ask anymore! please forget that! please! *sniff*
Natsu: eh?! why?
Chihiro: please.. just forget it nattan..
Natsu: but i want to know- i don't want just to forget what happened! Chii-chan was it true? was-
Chihiro: stop! please.. that was nothing.
Natsu: eh? nothing? but-
Chihiro: i already told you natsu, it's nothing! *trying to resist natsu's grip and ran away*
Natsu: But i know it's not nothing! please tell me, are you-
Chihiro: you don't understand natsu! its complicated! b-best friends.. *tears falling* we're only best friends
Natsu: eh?! chii-chan it's-
Chihiro: I really love you but we're just best friends!
Natsu: *stiff* i-
Chihiro: *crying* i don't want to lose our friendship.. so please forget it, i'm begging you
Natsu: *hugs chihiro* Chiichan you are important to me and you know that-
Chihiro: *painful smile* please don't speak anymore nattan, please.. stop..don't make my heart to feel more pain. stop saying those things..
Natsu: but i don't want to hurt you chiichan. i really care for you! Chihiro, I- I.. I also don't want to lose you in my life.
Chihiro: please natsumi.. don't answer please.. not right now.. i don't want to hear your answer!
Natsu: but-
Chihiro: natsu.. until you've truly understand who you truly love please don't answer. natsumi, i also don't want to make it hard for you.. i'm still your best friend right? i know, there's still a pain in your heart.. *painful smile*
Chihiro: natsu.. i'm still your bestfriend, right? *tears falling*
Natsu: chii-chan.. *hugs* don't worry i'll think about what you have said.. i think that's the best thing i can do for now.. *kisses chihiro's forehead*
Meanwhile Madoka was supposed to help out chihiro but when she saw natsu she suddenly hide and unintendedly heard their whole conversation. her tears can't stop flowing..
Chihiro: *sniff* natsu thank you, but just this time please let me be for a while..
Natsu: but chii-chan you're crying, i don't want you to cry.. i don't want you to be sad and be hurt
Chihiro: i'm okay, please? i just wanted to cry..
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Natsu left out the room staring blankly that she didn't notice madoka hiding beside the room.
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outside the room, Madoka was crying.. she's completely at loss.. she was just crying until chihiro went out of the room after she have cried.
Chihiro: *noticed madoka when she went out* m-maa-chan *shocked*
Madoka: *tears keeps on falling*
Chihiro: wait! d-did you hear it all?!
Madoka: *runs*
Chihiro: w-wait maachan!! *grabs madoka's hand* h-have you heard us?
Madoka: you don't need to explain anything to me chiichan
Chihiro: but- You.. You also love her right?!
Madoka: i don't!
Chihiro: You like natsu, i can read it in your eyes. stop denying it maachan!
Madoka: what i feel is none of your business chiichan.
Chihiro: its my business maachan, we are friends right?
Madoka: *wiping tears* it's okay with me, whoever natsumi likes i don't care
chihiro: you will just throw just like that what you really feel?
Madoka: then what should i do? confess to her like you did? i don't want to see ao-chan be hurt because of me. i thought you don't also want that.
chihiro: i- of course i don't like to see both of you and aoitan to get hurt!
Madoka: then why did you confessed to her?!
Chihiro: .......
Madoka: i thought you don't want to hurt ao-chan. then why did you confess to natsumi?
Chihiro: why would you say that ma-chan? of course i treasure you and aochan i don't want you to be hurt that's why i didn't let natsu answer. What about you? why didn't you told aoi that you're engaged to natsu?!
aoitan is looking for chihiro and madoka. she was asked by their sensei as they were late.. when she heard madoka and chihiro's conversation..
Madoka: Aoi-chan *shocked*
chiichan: *turns her back to see aoi with a hurt expression*
aoi: i heard it all.. *about to cry* so you two are just pretending to support me.. and i thought you're my friends!! *rans away*
chiichan: w-wait! aoi-tan
aoi: liars!!