i have to say i'm exactly like those wotas myself, maybe coz of the surrounding i grew up with and the culture problem. when i first saw those pics and vids i was thinking of tearing miya photos too, but i used my hard-earn money for them so i didnt. im not that retarded. but right now i have nth to say for miya, more like my heart wont let me speak. like i said im a wota, im obsess over her, i feel like i have a relationship with her, she was like someone i worshipped! but now everything is like breaking apart, she broke our relationship, i dont want to believe in any1 anymore. i completely understand how those wotas feel, its like they got betray or cheated by the one they love the most. i dun blame them for tearing up buono cds and all that becoz to them miya belong to them alone, not one guy, so when they c that they lose there mind like me, cant think straight. we all know that is not healthy mentally but we cant help it, the opposite of love is hate. so when they cant love miya anymore they change to hate.
for me two years ago i left my country for studies. so i kinda opened up my mind a bit and stop thinking of negative stuff and learn that idols r human too. right now i just need some more time to swallow everything and sign on the we support miya campaign later, right now i dun really know wat im feeling towards miya, angry, hatred, cheated?! however on top of all that when i think about miya being fired outta h!p and i might never c her again, i cant bared it, i rather she have a bf, at least i will still c her. i watched her grow since she join h!p so y should i let this boy matter destroy miya's everything!
i already lost maki, i remember when maki first left h!p that was too much for me, even tho i was thinking more healthy i fall straight back to my old self, i couldnt concentrate at sch, i cut off all my communication to my friends for a month, thinking of ways to hurt myself. my mind was totally f**ked up, all i wanted to do was stay in my room and then miya was like this rebound girl to me then i was feeling better until maki came back, i was 100% back to my normal self. ive been thru that craziness once thats enuff for me. im not going thru that for another girl anymore! i need to learn the fact she does not belong to me, but to herself, i just have to deal with it!