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here there are, chapter 9. enjoy it
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Chap 9
Atsuko POV
I know what I’m doing, ah exactly ‘going’ I do, this is not true. I mean I was married and over again my husband and I will soon be a parent, but I actually intend to meet my ex-boyfriend today. Of course i don’t intend to do strange things with it, we just met because he wanted to return some stuff left in his place. This is not cheating. Yes, i don’t need to feel afraid or uncomfortable on my husband, didn’t do anything wrong.
I know I’m not wrong but it is also not true. I feel bad to Kai because I see Yuu quietly but I certainly can’t say to him I would meet Yuu right? I mean, what kind of wife asked her husband for permission to see her ex-boyfriend?
Ah no, normally, a wife will not see her ex-boyfriend quietly behind him.
Yuu and I broke up because I have to get married with Kai. When we parted he was very angry at me. I distinctly remember the moment his expression. His face is usually quiet and rarely shows the mean reaction, that day he punched the glass table in front of him until shattered. For the first time since I’ve known him, I felt frightened at the sight.
Yuu is handsome and educated is the ideal figure of a man who always wanted to marry. At the time, when I saw his eyes full of anger at me, I know, he will never be able to forgive me. I know, it’s too late, I could never be with him.
For the first time, at the time, I learned to let go of something so I wanted.
“you want to go?”
I was standing in front of a long mirror in the living room and saw the reflection of myself in the mirror when Kai who was lying on the couch in front of the television and read newspapers take his eyes from the paper in his hand and looked at me.
Typically, before this, he never asked me anything. This is the first time he asked something like this to me. From the look in his eyes I knew he was serious adn want answers from me.
I swallowed. Why should it now. I don’t know if I could lie to him or not. How did he already know me long enough to know the signs when I lie.
But I tried to relax, I must not look suspicious.
“I have an appointment with my old friend,” I’m not entirely lie, Yuu also include old friend, right?
Kai who was lying on the couch and put his newspaper is now sitting on the table in front of him, “where? I’ll drive you.”
I hastily flick of my hands, trying not seem to panic, “no, we’ll just eat cake in the cafe just opened in front of the station next to the city. I’ll be back before dinner.”
Kai frowned but didn’t say anything. Somehow I felt he was considering to let me go or not.
“I promise I will only eat piece of cake to keep my sugar levels,” I said, forcing myself to smile, Kai still looked at me without saying anything, “and I take blood booster supplements the doctor just in case, okay? My friends will teased me if they see me will come delivered by you!” I laughed nervously.
Kai sighed, “well, don’t forget, pick the train at six o’clock to go home.”
I nodded, secretly relieved that managed to go without supervision and felt a little guilty for lying to him.
“well, I go first, okay?”
I hurriedly left our apartment before he changed his mind.
I turned once in the direction of our apartment building and sighed before stepping away from the building that has not been year it has become my home.
Actually, I feel strange. A month ago, I would not feel guilty at all when lying to Kai. I will not bother asking his permission to leave the house.
I think, a moth ago, Kai was not going to bother about where I’m going and what I would do outside the home. It’s was strange, because in a month’s time, we were both changed. It feels like we have ourselves back once while still friends.
I walked to the station while remembering what causes we both changed. I feel that lately I feel more comfortable around Kai. Perhaps now we can begin to make friends again like before.
Friends?
I chuckle with that term. Make friend with your husband is a thing that sound ridiculous.
When I was on the train, I looked at my watch. Time show at half two in the afternoon. Way to the next town take twenty minutes, I will arrive on time. I was relieved because Yuu didn’t like delay. He was always on time and he hopes that everyone around can be just in time to make an appointment to see him.
I still remember when I was delayed half an hour from the time an appointment because my professor who wishes to add our class hours. When it took all our dinner to apologize to him. I really love Yuu but at certain times he almost made me cry with violent attitude.
The first time I met Yuu was when my friend invited to gathering with young lawyers from a firm. That’s where I met him. He looks striking than the other with his dark brown hair and white skin. His face was very handsome and made me fall in love at first sight to him.
I was very happy when he came up and asked me to get acquainted. We then chatted and exchange phone numbers. Three days after the gathering that he sent me a text message to ask me out to dinner. Of course I was very happy!
We ate out a few times. Every time he would take me to a place of luxury and class and treated me like a princess. He doesn’t talk to much, but he listened to me carefully. In our fifth date, he asked me to be his official girlfriend. Of course I don’t have reasons to reject a man like him.
Handsome, rich, have confident and smart, although he little short, but it’s doesn’t matter. What I want from all man it’s in Yuu. I like winning lottery when it became his girlfriend. Many girl jealous of me, I guess I’ve become like Cinderella, managed to steal the heart of the prince.
I snapped out of my reverie when an announcement over the loudspeaker announced that the train will enter the station for a while longer. I was getting ready to go down.
My chest was pounding when I got off the train and walked out of the station. It has been almost half a year I have not met with Yuu, I don’t know what to put face like what is currently dealing with him later.
I took deep breath and prepare myself. I know since I gain weight containing eight kilograms. Suddenly, I wanted to turn away and go home.
I am now definitely look fat at all compared to the first. What if Yuu was so disgusted with me?
Suddenly I panicked but I tried to calm myself. I don’t need to worry. I tried to convince myself that I’m married and Yuu opinion of me doesn’t mean anything.
Place I promise to meet with Yuu just five minutes from the time the train station. In an instant I was in front of the cafe. A cafe terrace with French-style design. The place is quite popular to date.
I saw him.
It didn’t take long to find Yuu. He looks like sparkling among others.
He sat there while drinking a cup of coffee. Black coffee without cream and sugar. I know his habits. He looks very handsome with red polo shirt and faded gray jeans.
My breath as interrupted when he looked at me and waved briefly as a sign that I approached.
Shit.
I swore to myself.
Shit.
Shit.
Shit.
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“What will you order?”
I took the book list the menu while checking the list of menus available while Yuu uses his hands as a gesture to the waiter came to our table.
“can I help you? Asked the young waitress who is old enough and look neat.
“ah, I order beef pepper rice and peach tea.” I smiled at the waiter. Then I turned to Yuu, “you didn’t order food?”
Yuu shook his head.
“let me repeat your order, one beef pepper rice and one peach tea?”
I nodded.
The waiter smiled politely before then asked us to wait a bit before going to leave us.
“long time no see you,” I said, opening the conversation after the waiter was gone from our sight, “how are you?”
“I’m fine,” said Yuu with regular expression alone, he doesn’t look awkward or excited, “how are you?”
“I’m fine, as you see.” I laughed.
He looked at me with eyes seemed dark and cold. For a moment I was afraid that he would say something cynical and sharp, but then he surprised me with a smile.
“your stomach started grow.”
I blushed, I didn’t expect he would say something like that with a smile, “ah yes, has entered five month so it’s starting to look.”
“ah, sou dayo..”
I didn’t say anything else. My fingers are linked to one another and my eyes focused on my fingers it. Suddenly I wanted to go home. I guess come to see Yuu today is not wise.
I bit my lower lip, slowly looked up and stared at Yuu who seemed drinking a coffee.
“err, you say you want to restore my stuff?” I tried not to look panicked. The final thing I want now is Yuu know that I feel awkward nearby.
“ah, gomen,” Yuu said with a sigh, “I was setting up but instead left on my desk. I’ve got here when I realized.”
This time my turn to sigh. The way I came to this place and had to lie to my husband, without anything ?
I don’t think that Yuu would be so careless.
“what do you want to return the goods?” I asked, “if it’s only small thing is not important, just throw it..”
Yuu shook his head, “I can’t throw it away. You remember you lost earring that time ?
I nodded.
“I found it in my room,” he explained to me, his face didn’t show any expression, I can’t read what it currently in his mind, “ you really like that earring, right?”
Again I nodded.
“sorry, I’ll give it to you next time,” Yuu said quietly sipping his coffee.
I stared at him in disbelief.
‘next time’? This means that I have to see him again?
Suddenly my stomach churning, I was feeling bad about all of this.
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Lunch with Yuu initially stiff. I can’t be indifferent in front of Yuu. How was he so upset when we broke up one time. Although today he didn’t mention Kai and marriage at all, I still feel bad.
But after a while, the stiffness of us began to melt. I was relieved that Yuu was no longer angry with me. He is being mediocre to me. He didn’t try to seduce me or ask me to go back to him, or show signs as if he intends to return with me. Not that I expect it.. It’s just..
Yuu offered to drive me home but I refused. I still want to talk to Yuu but I don’t want Yuu meet with Kai. The last time they met was involved in fisticuffs between the two and I don’t want that to happen again.
I sat on the train alone after lunch with Yuu, again, my head filled with memories of the past are suddenly awakened after what happened today. If I had to choose, ah if I may choose, without hesitation, of course I would choose to marry Yuu. I mean, I love him and he has everything I want. Foster home with a guy like yuu, will definitely be better than the joint Kai. I mean, Kai is my best friend and I love him as a friend but I can’t possibly spend the rest of my life with someone who doesn’t love me, right?
I sighed. The return journey by train this time was very long.
Ever since I entered high school I hardly ever hear anything about Kai. Although our house was near but we are no longer adjacent ever met, he was no longer come to my house and I longer ever called him to ask him to play with me. We slowly grow older and getting away.
I still don’t remember what the reasons why we suddenly no longer speak, but when entering university I ever had met with Kai. He decided to get out of the house and live independently since leaving school and since then we have never met at all until five month ago. I don’t think our meeting that night able to change everything.
That day I was the middle of a fight with Yuu. I want forget my problems with drinking, but all of my close friend are busy. I also decided to go drinking alone.
In a state of half-drunk, when out of the bar, I collided with Kai.
Fate began toying us since that moment.
Kai couldn’t let me go home alone drunk, and I didn’t want to go home. After I forced him drunk, he took me to his apartment. There are accompanied me back to drink while listening to all my complaints about Yuu. Starting from there, I can’t remember anything else. I remember, the next morning I suffered extreme headaches and woke up in a naked and Kai in also naked.
I still remember clearly the expression on Kai’s face when he woke to the sound of screams.
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The trains finally arrived at the station where I had to go. With a sigh I rose from my seat. My back sore though I only sat for twenty minutes away. Actually there are many factors that make me feel tired today.
I walked out the train while was thinking about what I’m talking about with Yuu.
We didn’t talk much, I realized that as long as we sat together for a few hours before we didn’t tell each other a lot. We’re just going to eat our order without a lot of talk. Every now and then our eyes will meet and one of us will start a minor topic in few minute will end up just like that.
I feel comfortable when I was near Yuu, rightfully so, right? All because I love Yuu, right?
I shook my head vigorously to eliminate the thought out of my head as I stepped out of the station. Then my eyes glued to the figure of a young man who was standing, leaning on of the pillars of the light that is in front of the station. His hands were in his pockets, his gaze directed towards me. When he notice me, he pulled his hand from his pocket and waved it casually as if it were the most natural thing on earth.
I trotted up to him with an eyebrow interlocked.
“Kai?”
“yo..” he said casually.
“what?” I asked, watching him with a confused, our house is not too far from the station, I don’t see any reasons why Kai to effortlessly come to pick me up. Not that I don’t appreciate his efforts to pick me up, otherwise I actually think that what he did is pretty sweet. Although I feel little guilty, he even bother to pick me up after I lied to him to meet my ex-boyfriend.
I tried to shake off the feeling of guilt. I told myself that I should not feel guilty at him this will not hurt him. I’m sure he will not mind if he knew I went to see Yuu, I mean for what he felt objection?
“I think sometimes we could eat outside, right?” Kai said with grinning broadly.
I wrinkled my forehead while walking two step toward him, “not lately we’ve often eaten outside?”
“I know that delicious ramen shop around here,” he said with a grin as if still not listening to me.
I sighed, “ahh.. Well.. Well... Ramen for dinner huh? On which side stall?”
TBC
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