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The Hello! Project Fanfics => H!P Fanfics => Crack-to-Go => Topic started by: goosefish on May 28, 2007, 01:10:06 PM
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OK, so I disappeared for a LONG while, neglecting the other fic that I started some time ago (and never finished ;)). I'm not sure if I ever plan to continue it... though I would LIKE to :P.
In any case, there seems to be A LOT to catch up on around here!
Anyway, this is just a little something that I wrote while painfully bored :sleepy: Thought I should post it before I either forget or change my mind XD
Inhuman
"Reina, it's okay."
It's not okay. It's never okay.
Eri's jerking sobs continue to echo in my eardrums.
Is it okay, when you've gone and recklessly crushed a foundation you tried so hard to build?
Is it okay, when that foundation was also built by somebody else? Somebody who trusted you to protect that foundation?
Is it okay, when that said person, obviously destroyed, tells you that "it's okay"?
It's not okay. It's never okay.
I'll never forget the day she handed me her heart.
Fragile.
Warm.
Pure.
It was meant to stay that way. I was meant to protect it.
But I couldn't.
Or...
Maybe I just didn't.
I tossed it onto a buzzing freeway. I let it get run over a million times by a million speeding cars.
Is that how you treat somebody's heart?
I gave her my heart too. At least I thought I did.
I never realised that I had only given her an almost perfect replica.
She didn't realise either.
And when she watched me give my real heart to Maki, she knew exactly what it was that I had given her.
Nothing.
I gave her nothing.
Because I thought I could give everything to her.
Because I thought I could be happy with her.
Because I thought I could keep my heart in a cage and stop it from finding it's real owner.
Maki.
Maki unlocked that cage. She gave my heart a home.
She kept it safe, kept it warm.
And at the same time...
She helped to kill Eri's heart. She helped me throw it onto that freeway.
But she doesn't know that.
At least I think she doesn't.
Because surely if she knew, she would throw mine onto that freeway too.
But maybe she isn't like that. Maybe she isn't like me.
There can't be anyone like me.
Me, who stole a heart and murdered it.
Me, who stole pure trust and twisted it for myself.
Me, who would steal anything at all, if asked by that one special person.
Me.
A monster.
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Well the style certainly grabbed my attention! I liked it. Style, spacing, story. Almost deserves a shizzam if it were the right context to give one
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Ah, sad...!! Heartbreaking Tanakame. Well, I'm glad you've reappeared goosefish! I liked how Tanaka knows exactly what she's done, none of that denial stuff.
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Thank goodness you're back! I missed you and your style of writing so much!! I liked how this was written. It was so simple but the emotions just jumped out at you. And you should continue your other fic. I LOVE that one!
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Wow, poor Eri and poor Reina to a degree. Welcome back! Write more dammit!
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Damn provoking, and damn good too. :)
You better continue the other fic too. :D
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Quite nice, and quite sad too.
I also just read through your other fic and it was really, really good. You're a very good writer: even if you don't continue that fic you should still keep writing.
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You live! O_O
Aww, angsty Tanakamei D: Despite the fact that Reiki was true here, I still felt sad that Reina sorta stomped all over Eri's heart, instead of manipulating it in a good way where no one's hurt :/
I hope to see updates in Sun, I miss the Reiki pairing <3
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Welcome back~ :luvuluvu: Like the one shot, it was short with angst but it's so fitting all the same.
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Oh, I was feeling like a new ficcie today! Nice to see you're back ^_^
Interesting style, me likes. Write more~
-Owaranai_sLaVe
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Ooooh. o.o Although this was really short, it has caught my attention. I liked your other fic a lot so when I saw this one I couldn't help but to pull it up. I
like LOVE your style. :3 <3
Reiki fan too. <3 Poor Eri. ;_; I have mixed feelings about this 'cause I'm a total Reiki and TanaKamei freak. :banghead: Either way, well written!
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Everyone, thankyou very much for the warm comments and welcome back! :wub: It's nice to know that you all liked this style of writing, as I wasn't really to sure on it myself :P
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>_>...o gosh...i'm late for commenting..>_>...anyways what i meant to say was *girly scream* I like...plz write more
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SO...... I'm back from the dead (for the second time :sweatdrop:). But don't get yourself too excited or fooled! I decided to use this thread for any random one-shots and ramblings that I might come up with. I'll probably disappear again after this until I come up with something else to write. So here it is, probably the most stupid thing I've ever written!
In the Mind of the Turtle
Pay attention to me.
Reina playfully hits Junjun on the arm for saying something funny that wasn't meant to be funny, but Junjun got it a little wrong so it ended up being funny, if that made any sense.
Pay attention to me.
She's still laughing at Junjun. Why? Why, oh why dost thou not chortle with I? I've gone insane. I feel like I'm about to explode into a million tiny pieces of sugar, or whatever it is humans explode into, when or if they explode.
Pay attention to me!
Great. She's telling Aichan what Junjun said. Now Aichan is laughing too, the nerve of her! Why don't you tell me? I'm here too! I want to be IN on it and laugh with you! I want to be IN!!
PLEASE pay attention to me?
Oh come on, this is like neglect! Like animal cruelty I say! I pay LOTS of attention to you! ALL THE TIME! Oh my gaaawd, Sayu is talking to me but I'm not listening because I want Reina to PAY ATTENTION TO ME. Help! What should I do?
A: Phone a friend
B: 50:50
C: Ask the audience
Sayu stops talking and says something about finding a washroom. Oh, I know! I'll pick A: Phone a friend.
*ring ring*
"Hello?"
"Hey, Sayu. I need your help on something."
"But I was with you less than a minute ago."
"Yes."
"And I'll be back in a few minutes."
"Yes."
"Eri... I need to use the bathroom."
"No you don't."
"What? Yes I do."
"It's in your head."
"Huh? Look, I just need to pee and I"ll be right back out."
"Nah, it's all your imagination."
"Um... have you been smoking something?"
"No."
"Then can you PLEASE wait until I come back?"
"OMG 5 SECONDS LEFT! THANKS FOR NOTHING SAYU! NOW I'M GONA LOSE THAT 10 MILLION YEN!"
"What? But I -- "
*beeeeeeeeeeep*
Pft. Great help Sayu was. I should've called Aichan instead because she probably doesn't need to use the bathroom. Oh, that reminds me: I wonder if Aichan has stopped laughing yet. Maybe then Reina will let me be IN on it and pay attention to me. I like it when she does that. Pay attention to me, I mean. I feel all giggly and silly and bubbly inside. Almost to the point where I feel like I'm going to explode into a million pieces of sugar, or whatever it is humans explode into, when or if they explode.
Whoah! WHOOOOAH! Déjà vu or what?! I get that a lot. Déjà vu, that is.
Oh my gaaawd. Why is Sayu talking to me again?? I thought she was in the bathroom. And if she wanted me to listen to her, then she would've helped me out with that 10 million yen question, rather than insisting that she needed to use the bathroom, when in reality it was all in her head! Geez! Talk about weird!
Oh my! Reina's walking in this direction!! Oh my god! She's looking at me now! She's opening her mouth! She's about to speak!!!
"Hi Eri."
"JKHDGOAIHNDVJIOSANSFJOOIAIJX,MZZOMGREINASLKDFPO3902LI,MXOI120381!!!!!!"
What I said to Reina just then has got to be the coolest thing I've ever said in my life! I beam at her as I feel little sugary particles evaporating from my skin while she woos me with her yankii charm.
Reina laughs and pats me on the head. More sugar particles begin floating up into the air.
*KABOOM!!!*
"OH MY GOD! ERI?! SHE EXPLODED!!!"
Silly Sayu. This is called heaven. I am now in heaven.
"REINA DO SOMETHING! Wait... is that sugar?"
Aha! So I was right! I'm so smart!
"Yeah. It happens all the time."
Sigh.
Oh Reina, how I love it when you pay attention to me.
THE END.
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^ That was so wickedly random! XD
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Omg epic awesomeness!
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Ah! You tricked me! BUT, I enjoyed it all the same. It was just so out there but I could totally see it actually happening. And please don't disappear! I'll miss you!
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That was so random, so good and so cute! But I guess that's what you get when you enter kamei's mind... :lol:
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lol that was so unexpected and all kinds of crazy XD It's pure gold! I mean sugar...it's pure sugar! :yep:
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HELLO again! I've been floating around reading a few fics here and there :lol:. I'll get around to commenting on them once I've finished posting this here... uh... bunch of words that I hesitate to call a "fic". But here you have it. *hides*
Unwholesome Bond
This is the fourth time Maki had cancelled our plans.
You put your all into spending time with that one person.
She said she would make it up to me, like she said she would the previous three times.
But that person doesn’t even bother giving you the time of day.
I waited and waited, but she never did.
Even when they continue to hurt you… you always run back to them…
It was always something along the lines of “I can’t get out of work”.
…Only to be thrown off to the sidelines in a never ending cycle of carelessness.
Why does it…
Why does it…
…hurt so much?
…hurt so much?
It wasn’t always like this. When we had a date, she was always there on time. If I had to work overtime, she would stay and wait for me. Had I done something differently, had I tried harder to hold on to her... would we ever have become this screwed up?
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Maki had cancelled their plans yet again, promising to make it up to the younger girl another time. Work was always the reason – no – the excuse used to try and explain why she wasn’t able to follow through.
Maki wanted it to somehow be justified that the reason was work. A fellow H!P girl was involved… that was reason enough that it was indeed work, not play.
“Miki, you know I had plans today,”
“Yeah… but you know you like my plans more…”
That was always Morning Musume’s former leader’s rebuttal. It didn’t matter what Maki had planned to do, nor with whom. Merely by fulfilling her request, Maki had proven that nothing was more important, and that was more than enough encouragement for Miki to continue her untamed ways.
Untamed ways which had Maki pinned against a living room wall. Untamed ways which had Maki gasping for breath. Untamed ways which had Maki writhing uncontrollably.
“Miki, not today,” Maki breathed, forcefully pushing Miki away from herself. Miki narrowed her eyes.
“What are you talking about?”
“I already told you. I had plans today.”
In one swift motion Miki had her former Gomattou member roughly pressed against the wall again.
“Don’t come back to me when that wannabe yankii tells you to piss off,” words laced with poison were hissed into Maki’s ear before the other body slinked away.
“You’re scared, aren’t you?” Maki turned the tables on Miki and watched as her shoulders visibly tensed up.
“Excuse me?” Miki replied through gritted teeth.
“You want to be with her, but you’re afraid that she’ll just throw you away.”
“Shut up.”
“That’s why you resort to putting your hands down any other girl’s pants you can.”
“Shut up!”
“You’re hurting, so you want everyone else to hurt as well.”
“I said shut up!!!”
By this time, Miki had turned to face Maki. The girls stood in silence, silently staring each other down.
“Miki, the three of us used to be like this,” Maki held up two crossed fingers in the air. “I know her almost as well as you do. Talk to her.”
“What would you know? You think just because you have someone now, it gives you the right to preach? How dare you tell me what to do when you’ve repeatedly come to me instead of her.”
“There won’t be another time like this. I’m going to her. For good.”
Miki gave Maki a confused look. She felt like she was losing somebody she had grown close to, even if recent events had somehow twisted that closeness. Why was she still treating her like she always had – a friend – after what Miki had done to her?
“You’re still Miki. Nothing’s going to change that.”
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“Reina-chan, here,” Maki said as she handed me a glass of water. I had been coughing pretty badly for the past few minutes. I hated being sick but I think I was coming down with something
“Thanks,” I rasped out gratefully and quickly downed the entire glass. Maki laughed as she took the glass from me, brushing my hand. I felt my face slightly colour. As corny as it sounds, every time she touches me I blush. Every single damn time!
“You know, I have some cough drops in my dressing room. I’ll bring them down to you. Be back in a minute!” Before I could reply Maki flew out the door. I breathed a sigh of relief. Well, I don’t know if it’s possible for someone in the midst of a coughing fit to breathe a sigh of relief, but I guess it was close enough.
The girl drove me insane. I wanted to be near her all the time, yet when I was I became incredibly nervous and shy. I just couldn’t figure her out.
“Got them!” Maki burst through the door, holding up a few packets of cough drops. I reached out my hand for them but she wagged a finger at me. “Nah-uh. I’ve got three flavours. Close your eyes and I’ll put one in your mouth. You have to guess what flavour it is!”
What the hell?! That’s got to be the most ridiculous proposition I’ve ever heard. I told her directly.
“That’s ridiculous!”
“Do it!” Maki said with narrowed eyes with that sexy vixen smirk of hers. That did it. I gulped and nodded my head, closing my eyes.
Next thing I knew wasn’t a cough drop being placed in to my mouth. It was another mouth being placed onto my mouth. I coloured about ten shades of red and pink and my eyes shot open to be greeted with Maki’s closed ones. Damn, she was beautiful! And damn, it was getting hot!
“Hey Reina, guess what I ju – WHY HELLO THERE?!” Risa’s voice bellowed as Maki and I tore apart and very obviously sat as far away from each other as possible. I’m not quite sure how many different shades of red and pink I was by now, but it sure as hell was a lot.
“Uh……………………. Hi?” I was at a loss for any form of communication at this point. I glanced at Maki. She was shifting around uncomfortably and looking very intently at her shoes.
“Um. I just. Well. Nice talking to you. Bye!” And with that Risa had slammed the door shut.
“So…” Maki said as she slid closer to me. I gulped.
“Uh. You’ll get sick. I mean – coughing – me – then you…uh… and then…” I trailed off as Maki put a hand mid-way up my thigh.
“Don’t care. Worth it.”
“I… moo…” I moo?! I FREAKING MOO?! Reina does NOT moo, where as a cow DOES. Was I a cow? NO, so why was I moo-ing?!
“You moo?” Maki tried not to laugh. I was close to having a nervous break down. She couldn’t help it any longer and burst out in hysterical laughter. It wasn’t long before I was laughing too. Damn contagious laughter! After some time we had calmed down and I felt like less of a nervous wreck.
“Reina-chan?”
“Hm?”
“Stay with me.”
"...ou listening to me?" Eri's voice makes its way into my thoughts. Woops... I tuned out...
“Sorry… I always call you every time this happens.”
“It’s okay. This is what friends are for, right?” Eri gave me a comforting squeeze on the shoulder.
“Some friend I am. When was the last time I was there for you?”
“Well… there was that time I tripped and skinned my knee.”
“That was three years ago. I gave you a band-aid and chewing gum and told you to get over it.”
“Haha. Yeah I guess, but it doesn’t mean that you haven’t been there for me.”
“Do you think she’ll call?”
“She always does.”
“Do you think she cares?”
“You ask me this every time. The answer is still yes.”
“But – “
“But nothing. We’ve had this conversation more than a million times. I know you two care about each other. No, I don’t know why she does things like this. Yes, she’s the world’s biggest idiot for standing you up again. Yes, you’re just as big an idiot for being so helplessly hung up over her. And finally no, I don’t think you should give up on her. You chose her so there’s gotta be something that I’m not seeing.”
This has got to be the most dysfunctional relationship to exist. When people hurt you, isn't your natural reaction to stay away from them? I get so angry everytime she bails out on me. Angry to the point of doing violent things to anything that crosses my path. Then why do I keep going back to her? Even after she does all those... things... Even though she seems eternally "busy with work"... Even when I reach out my hand in search of her and can never find her... The moment she calls asking to see me, I can't get over to her fast enough. I've given her everything possible... and she refuses to open up to me and tell me what's going on. No matter how hard I try, I just can't stay mad at her... as soon as I see her face, I just don't want to believe that it was her that made me feel that extremity of anger. I sigh. Why am I so hopelessly in love with her? But Eri's right. If I care about her so much, there must have been something there that's missing now... right?
“Eri?”
“Yeah?”
“Thanks.”
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This is not just a bunch of words, this is definitly a fic! And a good one, at that!
The Goto/Reina moments were sooo cute. It's a pity Goto doesn't want to spend time with Reina. I really hope that changes, though. I also hope Miki is going after the person she likes... :roll:
Keep it up, this is very good!
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Great work!! :yep: Loved every single one of them! keep up the great work! :D
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Yeyeyeyeyeyeyeyey new CHAPTER! I uved it thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou so much!
Reina and Maki having problems = bad
Eri and Reina being cool with each other = great
Miki and Maki= danger..... and hawtness suum might say
Miki finally going after youknowwho (if u dont then the answer is AYA)= yeyeyeyey
and finally the story = awesumesnessssssss
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Goosefish updated? GOOSEFISH UPDATED!!
-jumps for joy and hits the ceiling! BUT IS OKAY! Has a hardhat!-
I was D: when Reiki had their dysfunctional relationship and o_O with Miki and Maki doing things. I was like "What is this, L Word? XD?" It's nice to see Reina see Eri with her problems as well XD Glad to know she isn't hiding it.
I Roffled at the reminiscence. The "You moo?" thing got me falling over in laughter XDDDD.
Anywho, what's up IRL? Any reason why you come in and out rarely over here? We miss yooooou~! <3 Sun is collecting dust D:
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Sorry for the late reply! I posted that up RIGHT before I moved out of my old place, and when I moved in to my new place it didn't have internet until today :thumbdown:
Anywho! Seeing all this response makes me feel all warm and bubbly inside! :wub:
Grisours: Thanks for the encouragement! Hmm... well it is hinted that Maki wants to fix things... but we won't know unless I choose to continue this one-shot XD
shadowolf8: Thanks. Hopefully I can update more now that I MIGHT have a little bit more time ;)
sweeety: hehe, I don't believe we've met yet! So uh... Hi. You seem very excitable :lol: Thanks for reading!
Yuuyami: ah, tis Yuuyami! :wave: You and your hardhats! XD I think I seem to have a weird thing for Reiki and their dysfunctionality :sweatdrop: What's up IRL? Hm lemme think... I guess the past year I've just been super busy. I work all night most days of the week, and spend my rare day or two off catching up on sleep :bleed eyes: But hopefully I can write a little more now... or at least pop in more often. I've thought about Sun and its building layers of dust :sweatdrop: :sweatdrop: :sweatdrop: Maybe I can.. er... do something about that dust *coughs* :roll:
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oh....it was just a comment............ I thought you updated................it's ok.......I'l be fine... I'll just go to my happy place................... Yup happy place........................ *cries in the corner* :'(
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oh....it was just a comment............ I thought you updated................it's ok.......I'l be fine... I'll just go to my happy place................... Yup happy place........................ *cries in the corner* :'(
Uh.... you make it sound like every post I make is supposed to be a fanfic? :sweatdrop:
Anyway, this is something I threw together a week or two ago, and I just had time to go over it and fix it up. Narrator remains unknown, but see if you can guess who I'm referring to in the story! :P
You Were Too Late
I wanted to be the one who was always there for you, to support you unconditionally. For one reason or another, you never chose to lean on me… you never depended on me. I was hurt by that.
Maybe it was because of my cool, without-a-care personality that you found it hard to share things with me. I know deep down that you knew that personality was just a front for others… never for you. I couldn’t help it though. I was afraid of letting people in that close to me. I wanted you to know the real me… but you were the first person who I actually WANTED to know me. It sort of scared me that I wanted you to know all my insecurities… all my anxieties…
You were taken away from me by somebody else. I wouldn’t say that you were absolutely smitten by them… more that it was more a relationship of convenience for both of you… a convenience that you and I weren’t able to have. It was the worst feeling – to have lost to mere convenience.
If it had been convenient, would you have chosen me instead? Would I have been the one coming in to work with love bites on the side of my neck heavily concealed by makeup? Would I have been the one there for you anytime of day or night? Regardless… I am still there for you no matter what time of day it is.
But then you graduated, and just as it seemed like you were actually beginning to fall for her shortly after your graduation… she was involved in some sort of insane scandal. Was it really okay with you? When you came to me that night at some ungodly hour, I let you in without a word. You didn’t have to pretend with me. I had told you how I felt, and that I would still be here no matter what happened. You told me you were fine, that it didn’t really matter.
If it didn’t matter, then why had you come to me in the first place? If it didn’t matter, then why did you cry as the sun began to rise?
I’d told you numerous times that you could lean on me, but you didn’t. You refused to put pressure on me. Didn’t you get it? It pained me more when you didn’t depend on me, when you refused to open up to me. You continually put on a brave face and told me you were doing fine. It’s so strange how two people can know each other inside out like you and I, yet we still try to act tough and indifferent when ever things go astray.
Then one night, when you had come to me again… you let go. You let go of all your inhibitions… all your misconceptions of me… you had me. I couldn’t understand you. I couldn’t understand why you did it after you claimed that you were unable to see me in that kind of light. I wasn’t in any position to argue… no... I couldn’t argue… but I know that the person you were seeing when you looked into my eyes… it wasn’t me. You were searching for somebody else, somebody you had lost long ago. It left me scarred when I realised just how hard you had fallen for her.
I was still losing… even after all the effort I had put in to supporting you from the sidelines. I had been given nothing in return but an empty, physical act. It meant next to nothing to you, but it left me broken. Did you think that it would satisfy me? Did you think that in doing such a thing, you could get me to forget about you and your pain?
You were so afraid to turn around and look you problems in the eye, and I was the only one who had picked up on that. Did you want me to stop being concerned? You put on a ridiculous façade everyday, and it tore me up to watch you go through the motions as if you were the happiest person alive. I kept pestering you, hounding you, making sure you were okay. If I had stopped doing all that… who else would look out for you? Who else could read you that clearly?
I couldn’t understand you then, and I can’t understand you now.
Just as I was beginning to get over you, you came back in an attempt to turn it around. You had me again. And again, I couldn’t understand you. Was I supposed to be hung up on you forever without ever getting anything in return? I couldn’t be the “backup” forever. I had really started turning my attention on someone else, and I had really wanted to make it work. But that one night had screwed everything up. I couldn’t get you off of my mind.
Did you do it because you couldn’t stand the thought of me being infatuated with another girl? Was it jealousy? I don’t understand why you never wanted me until somebody else did. That was the most selfish thing you have ever done. Throwing me away, and waiting for somebody else to take me in before rushing in and rudely snatching me away from their hands.
I looked at your sleeping form, covered by a mess of sheets. I refused to let this happen again… it would be the absolute last time. I couldn’t bear hurting anymore, and what’s more, I couldn’t bear hurting her any longer. She had waited long enough, and learning from you, I wasn’t about to make her wait half a lifetime to give her what she needed and deserved. And likewise, she would give me what I needed and deserved. I was beginning to need her more and more, a sign that I was gradually forgetting about you.
She knew this, accepted this and told me that I could take all the time in the world because she trusted me. I had no intention of making her wait that long. I wanted to forget about you as fast as possible. That’s why I avoided you for so long, until I was certain that you didn’t mean anything beyond a friend to me.
She gave me everything, and naturally I gave everything back to her. Not because it was a mere mutual exchange, but because I wanted her to have everything within me. You watched from afar for a long, long time. Were you regretting choosing someone else over me? I know that eventually, you’ll find somebody for yourself, even if right now all you can do is watch and wallow in self pity. I can’t deny that you still hold a tiny, secluded place in my heart.
But I know one thing for certain – the person that I love; it's no longer you...
...it’s her.
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Tanakame
Maki/Reina
Miki/someone
Alot of parings XD
But I love your writing style and this fanfic. I love fan fics like this :D
Ohh, this is the first fan fic in a long time I have read.
I LOVE IT :heart:
I'm sorrry for my werid comment XD
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I'm thinking it's Aichan or Mako talking to Yossi (the "other woman" is Miki due to the mention of a scandal), and the "new love" is Risa (if it's Aichan) or Konkon (if it's Mako).
Then again it could be Reina talking to Maki (who's also pining for Miki), where the "new love" is Sayu or Eri (can't really decide which).
Wait, did you actually have someone picked out to be the narrator but you just chose to not mention her name? If so, please tell...who was it?
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YES! PLEASE TELL! I first thought it was YoMiki. But because of the scandal talk I had to change her to the one who originally broke the first heart?!? (If that makes sense). Then I thought who else is tight with Yoshi? Rika and Makoto. Makoto already graduated by the time of Miki's scandal and I thought maybe Rika (Makoto was in NZ so.....). Then I thought that Yoshi could be making up with Makoto in the end but its kinda impossible, so I thought maybe its set a bit in the future. Now It think maybe it was set in the past. Maybe it was a NOno Kago fic..... I thought the profile though fits Yoshi and Miki perfectly so I thought it had to be one of them. Or maybe even Nakazawa. OH MY GOD I THINK I'VE GOT IT! ITS NAKAZAWA AND MARI! AND THE NEW ONE SHE HAS COULD BE practically anyone, though its likely to be Kei, mainly because Ive seen many Kei Yuko fics and although it chills me to the core ppl seem to like it.....
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PEOPLE!!
Just dropped in to say that the narrator is Maki. :heart:
Kbai!
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Well, it makes sense... I'm thinking the other person is Yossie, the scandal girl is Miki, and I don't know who could be Maki's new love... Maybe Abe? Reina? Dunno.
Good story, though. Loved it!
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I meant to say Maki...:mon sweat:
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I meant to say Maki...:mon sweat:
;) Me too! :mon sweat:
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I did so totally know that :banana: It really does sound like Maki :D
Obviously she is talking about Yossy and Miki and I think the new love is AYA!!!! but it might be Reina seeing u do seem to like them ;)
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Heeeeeeeeeeey! :D
Narrator is Maki, and the person she is talking to is Yossi. The girl that Maki starts to fall for is really open to interpretation. (We all know I'm a huge Maki/Reina fan, so that's what I'll say. But ultimately, it's up to the reader).
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boy I was way off base! But you can't win them all! TY for the story! bye bye! Hope it continues though, it was really good!
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I got stuck in the middle of writing the next chapter for Sun, so I somehow became distracted and wrote out a continuation of Unwholesome Bond. Who knows? Maybe it'll be longer running than I originally intended it to be :roll:
Unwholesome Bond Part 2
Maki hummed softly as she put the plates into the sink. Sitting there, I wondered how many nicknames she’d been given. Maybe I should try them out? I looked at her as she walked back to me. She paused when she saw the look on my face and then continued her return.
“What’s on your mind?” she asked as she joined me on the couch.
“Goto-san,” I called her. She looked a little concerned. I hadn’t called her that in a long time so she thought there was something wrong. She looked at me expectantly.
“Gotsuan,” I tried. It felt a little weird. She watched me intently, waiting for me to say something else.
“Gocchin,” I said. That one was even weirder. How did people even come up with these names? I think she realised what I was doing and relaxed. Now she was waiting, eager to see what I would say next with an amused smile on her face. I pondered for a moment.
“Gomaki,” I almost didn’t say because I know she didn’t like that one. She scrunched up her nose at me in disapproval and laughed in my face.
“Gomaki Pengin?!”
I’m not sure if anyone had actually called her by that. She was snorting with laughter by now, the dork. But I really liked that dorkiness that only I was allowed to see. She moved a little closer to me and lay down with her head on my lap. The weight of her head felt nice.
“Which name do you think suits me best?” she asked.
“Hmm…none of them,” I replied thoughtfully.
“Not even one?” she asked, closing her eyes. I scratched her head lightly and thought for a little bit.
“Maki-chan,” I gave her my answer. She smiled, keeping her eyes closed. I smiled back, but she couldn’t see it.
“I like it when you call me that. Do it more often,” she told me drowsily, and turned to rest her head against my stomach. A special warmth that only Maki could create flowed through my entire body, and I realised that I really loved sharing these small moments with her.
*****
*beep*
“Hey, it’s me. Sorry I missed our date again… you know… things came up. Anyway, call me when you get the chance.”
*beep*
“Hey… um… I don’t know if you got my last message or not, but call me, ok?”
*beep*
“Reina-chan. You’re angry, right? I’m really sorry. I mean it.”
*beep*
“I need to talk to you…”
*beep*
“Please pick up your phone…”
*beep*
“Ok… I’m heading to your place right now. I’ll be there soon.”
*beep*
Reina sighed as she stared up at her ceiling in the dark. She bleakly wondered why she put up with this, when it only hurt her so much. She found herself thinking things like “I wish I had fallen for someone else” every time Maki pissed her off. Was it really alright to continue like this? The other woman had been hiding something from her, never once even hinting at what it might be. She apologised for causing Reina pain, yet she allowed the cycle to repeat itself several times. The younger girl wanted to forget all her agony, she wanted to abandon her feelings for the soloist…
But feelings that run so deep… they can’t simply be cast away as if nothing ever happened. It did happen. They happened. Their happiness happened. People can’t forget things like that so conveniently.
Reina let her tears fall freely from her tired, bloodshot eyes. The burning trails down her face couldn’t compare to the anguish she felt tightening around her chest. She squeezed her eyes shut, wanting so much for the aching to just vanish. But it didn’t. And as she heard Maki step in to her apartment with the spare key she had given her, Reina only felt the agony dragging her further down into a treacherous sea of torture.
*****
“I just wish that I could do something more for her!” I cry out in frustration.
“Kame-chan, you’ve been there for her from the very beginning of this mess. She’s not asking you for any more support than what you’ve already given her,” Risa replies, trying to calm me down. I frown at her. Reina and I had entered Morning Musume together with Sayu. If it hadn’t been for Reina pushing me so hard, constantly forcing me out of my shell, I wouldn’t be the person that I’m glad to be today. I had to do something to help her.
“I know that, but it’s just…”
“There’s nothing more you can do, right?” she said sympathetically. “Reina’s a strong girl. She’s a yankii, for crying out loud! She’ll make it through just fine,” Risa joked about Reina’s supposed badass character. Before I can say anything, Miki barges in to the room, looking distressed and a little worn out.
“Have you squirts seen Aya?” she barked. I swear, both Risa and I had large sweatdrops on the back of our heads.
“Nope,” I reply firmly. H!P Golden Rule Number 1: do not display weakness to Miki. Miki narrowed her eyes at me before abruptly slamming the door shut behind her. Just as I hear Risa breathe a sigh of relief, the door violently swings open again and hits the wall.
“Well you better call or mail me if you do see her!” and with that, Miki had stormed out again.
“Do you think she’s just desperate for… you know…?” Risa asks. I look at her plainly until she raises an eyebrow. Suddenly my face goes red with realisation.
“Gaki-san!”
“Well… this is Miki we’re talking about here… and Aya… just look at how they act when they’re together!” Risa justifies her speculation.
“Honestly, I’d rather not know,” I say, shuddering slightly at the thought.
“Well… would you still not want to know if it was about us?” Risa asks shyly as her cheeks become tinged with a light shade of pink. She closes any distance between us, and I shudder for a completely different and pleasant reason.
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awwwwwwwwwwwwwww so sweeeet! Poor Reina! Is she about to get dumped or something? It seems like they wont last much longer, unless Maki changes. And aww, how cute was the KameGaki! So sweeet! And I hope Miki finds Aya for 'that' or whatever else she needs her for! GJ once again!
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the eri/risa at the end caught me by surprise! it was extremely cute, though
miki searching for aya is funny, specially if you don't know the exact reasons :roll:
but reina/maki... I hope they figure it out... :-\
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MakiReina = :pen_cry:
Miki calling Risa and Eri "squirts" = :lol:
GakiKame = :shy1:
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awwwwwwwwwwwwwww so sweeeet! Poor Reina! Is she about to get dumped or something? It seems like they wont last much longer, unless Maki changes. And aww, how cute was the KameGaki! So sweeet! And I hope Miki finds Aya for 'that' or whatever else she needs her for! GJ once again!
Hehe, I love torturing my characters too much, don't I? 8) Thanks for reading! :oops: :heart:
the eri/risa at the end caught me by surprise! it was extremely cute, though
miki searching for aya is funny, specially if you don't know the exact reasons :roll:
but reina/maki... I hope they figure it out... :-\
Glad you liked the Miki searching for Aya part XD It was fun to write. *glomps Miki*
MakiReina = :pen_cry:
Miki calling Risa and Eri "squirts" = :lol:
GakiKame = :shy1:
Oh Maki and Reina, when will you ever learn to get over your complicated issues? :? We'll just have to wait and see, won't we? :yep:
And without further dilly-dallying... I bring part 3! So I sort of got stuck in to writing some Sun, then got distracted... AGAIN... and um... thus we have the 3rd part of what was meant to be a one-shot :sweatdrop:
Unwholesome Bond - Part 3
I close the door as quietly as possible behind me, even though I’m sure she’s still awake. Placing my bag on the living room coffee table, I take a moment to collect myself.
How many times have I done this to her already? How many times did it take for me to realise that in doing so, I was pushing her further and further away? How did this all begin in the first place?
Too many times.
Before the first time had even ended.
A moment of weakness, a seized opportunity by another, and a ridiculously stupid amount of lack of self-control.
No amount of reasoning or apologising would be able to take back what I’ve done. Not now, not next week, not in twenty years… not even in the next lifetime. If I could take back what I’ve done, I would. How lame and cliché does that sound? But it’s true, and I wish with all my heart that I had never done her any wrong in the first place. I drowned in an indescribable amount of guilt after the first time it happened. I continued to stare into her mournful eyes as she placed her hand on top of mine, telling me that it was alright. She said she forgave me, she kissed my cheek and held me close. Would she have said that if she had known what I had done? Would she still love me with her entire being? I didn’t deserve her then, and I certainly don’t deserve her now.
I wanted to tell her, but I was so scared. I didn’t want her to disappear from my life. The life that I had worked so hard to build for her. The life that I wanted to nurture and preserve with her. But I took that privilege away with that one night. The night that ruined it all. The night that repeated itself behind my eyes until I felt sick in the stomach.
A shuffling of steps. A sudden change in atmosphere.
“Where have you been?”
*****
She stood. She stared. She analysed what she saw before her eyes.
Takahashi Ai: Current Morning Musume leader.
Blank expression or not, her mind was always working, always thinking. Something was wrong. Today’s dynamics weren’t up to par. What was it this time?
Ai patrolled the dance studio and briefly checked the time. They had a whole twenty-four minutes before rehearsal would begin. Her nostrils slightly flared as she realised there was one missing member: non other than her best friend and sub-leader. She had articulated several times before that she wanted all members to be at the studio a full thirty minutes before rehearsal began. Just as Ai had reached for her cell phone, said sub-leader ran into the studio with ruffled hair and expression to match. Ai’s eyebrow twitched.
“Ai-chan, I’m SOOOO sorry!!!” a breathless Risa yelled, almost smashing her forehead on the ground in attempt to deepen her apology. Ai’s eyebrow twitched again, not because of Risa’s tardiness, but because the atmosphere seemed to become even stranger.
Ai patted Risa on the shoulder, causing the girl to violently convulse defensively.
“We’re going to have a word,” Ai plainly said to her sub-leader as she motioned to the far corner of the studio. Risa dropped her sports bag and followed Ai. Usually this meant that Ai had something important to say, as opposed to reprimanding her for being late. She leaned against the cool wall and turned her head to face Ai.
“Ai-chan, what’s on your mind?” Risa asked her friend. Ai took a moment to survey her group before turning back to Risa.
“Reina looks like she didn’t sleep at all last night. Eri looks almost as bad, just not as… I don’t know… not as emotionally drained…” Ai trailed off, once again turning to observe said members. The two were currently in deep discussion in another corner of the studio.
“Yeah… you know about Reina and Maki… they’re having issues again. Eri spent all night making sure Reina was alright. She’s really worried about her,” Risa summed up. Ai rubbed her temples and sighed. She felt Risa lay a gentle hand on her shoulder. “There’s nothing you can do this time, you know? Reina’s got to work this out for herself. You’ve gotta stop beating yourself up over things that aren’t your fault,” Risa tentatively assured Ai.
“But I’m the leader! I’m supposed to keep my group together!” Ai-chan said in exasperation. She hated not being able to help. It made her feel unworthy for her position. This position that she wasn’t ready to accept, let alone control with flare like the previous leaders had done before her. The position was forced upon her, and she was starting to buckle under the pressure.
“How do you think I feel? You refuse to let me help with the workload, always using up your personal time to finish things up,” Risa replied, just as frustrated. With one look at Ai’s face, Risa unconsciously softened her gaze.
“But you shouldn’t need to - ”
“Ai-chan, just let me help you.”
*****
BANG!
I jump in shock as my dressing room door bursts open and Miki stumbles in, panting and puffing as if she had just run a marathon. I turn back around to continue fixing my hair.
“Can you forgive me?”
I turn and face my best friend. What is she talking about now?
“For what?”
“I did something really bad to Maki.”
Miki was visibly shaken up and it looked like she hadn’t slept well. My instincts kicked in. The protective ones that made me feel older than Miki, even though I wasn’t. The weird ones that made me think I thought of her as more than my best friend. The even weirder ones that told me I wasn’t the only one that felt that way.
“What have you done this time?” I ask, putting on a condescending tone even though I’m genuinely concerned.
“I slept with her.”
You never were one to avoid telling the truth, were you?
My chest tightens. My eyes narrow. My lips purse together.
She takes it as a sign that I’m pissed off because of what she did to Maki. No wonder Maki and Reina have been a little odd lately. I should be pissed off about that, right? I should be angry that my best friend ruined something good that my other friend had going, right? Then why do I feel like I’ve just lost everything dear to me? It’s not like… it’s not like Miki and I have obligations to each other or anything… do we?
“I don’t know how it happened! I just… she was having a bad day… and… and… I went and screwed it all up, didn’t I?”
“Yeah.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Yeah.”
“Aya?”
“Yeah?”
“You’re crying.”
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Oh my! Poor Aya, Reina and Ai! :(
I do hope they set things straight in the end... I mean, Aya's crying, it's obvious now that she likes Miki... :yep:
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“I did something really bad to Maki.”
Miki was visibly shaken up and it looked like she hadn’t slept well. My instincts kicked in. The protective ones that made me feel older than Miki, even though I wasn’t. The weird ones that made me think I thought of her as more than my best friend. The even weirder ones that told me I wasn’t the only one that felt that way.
“What have you done this time?” I ask, putting on a condescending tone even though I’m genuinely concerned.
“I slept with her.”
:OMG: :OMG: :OMG:
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wow, 3 unhappy girls all in one chapter! :cry:
First off, Reina!!! poor baby! :gyaaah: I feel sooo bad for her, because she loves Maki but is sooo neglected. :k-sad:
Second, Ai-chan!! She is doing such a great job as leader. She can't really help too much with personal relationships. And Ai-chan, let Gaki help you! :mon pray2:
Third, Aya!!! Aww, she loves Miki but......somebody had to go and sleep with somebody else!
I hope everyone finds LOVE&PEACE at the end! :hee:
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Awwww so sad. Btw thanx for writing. It was great. I knew it! I knew she was cheating! I was assured at the whole mistake-that-I-shouldn't-have-made rant. And then I figured out who it was the second Miki said "I did something really bad". That was a dead giveaway. Even if you had left it at a cliffhanger I wouldve been like "OMG SHE SLEPT WITH MAKI!" and kinda ruined it for everyone else which is another reason I am thankfull for the awesome emo ending! It was perfect! So emotional and yet only said with a few words..... woow..... But now that it is obvious to Miki that Aya has those feelings for her, then maybe she could make a move and they could get together! YEY <3 GAM RABU!!!!!!!!!! So sweet how Aya loves Miki and has just realised. The way she thinks at that last bit though makes them sound like FWB (friends with benefits) or something, especially the whole " it’s not like Miki and I have obligations to each other or anything… do we?" thing. But rereading it makes it sound like they were a couple or something or like she thought that Miki would tell her if she was sleeping wif sum1 or something..... I dunno, I'm sleep derprived again today..... Didn't get my usual couch-nap after school (actualy its usually me passing out from exhaustion on the couch after school for like an hour or two) cause I had to go shopping and help carry stuff and walk a lot and stuff to get part-e-y supplies (stupid family, making me .........move and stuff :( ) so now Im sleepy and might wake up late tomozzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..... Anyway GJ keep it up thanx for the update! mwah!
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Maki/Reina, Ai/Risa, Miki/Aya those poor girls... :(
“What have you done this time?” I ask, putting on a condescending tone even though I’m genuinely concerned.
“I slept with her.”
You never were one to avoid telling the truth, were you?
My chest tightens. My eyes narrow. My lips purse together.
She takes it as a sign that I’m pissed off because of what she did to Maki. No wonder Maki and Reina have been a little odd lately. I should be pissed off about that, right? I should be angry that my best friend ruined something good that my other friend had going, right? Then why do I feel like I’ve just lost everything dear to me? It’s not like… it’s not like Miki and I have obligations to each other or anything… do we?
“I don’t know how it happened! I just… she was having a bad day… and… and… I went and screwed it all up, didn’t I?”
“Yeah.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Yeah.”
“Aya?”
“Yeah?”
“You’re crying.”
That's so sad. I could picture in my head Aya's reaction. And after that picture i just heard my heart break.
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omg 300 ish posts! PARTY! But yeah, my heart also broke. As I sit here crying I remember the visual I made up in my head of Aya and Miki...... It went something like
(Faraway shot of Miki, from Aya's seat, looking up)
Miki: I slept with Maki
(shot of Aya, VO of her thoughts as she looks down, sad, her eyes can't meet with Miki's for she wont be able to control herself)
Miki: “I don’t know how it happened! I just… she was having a bad day… and… and… I went and screwed it all up, didn’t I?”
(Zoomed in on Miki's upper body, showing all the body language of her hands as she tries to explain. She takes a few steps but stays virtually on the same spot because she goes back and forth..... She tries to look at anything but the person in front of her, afraid of what she might see in their eyes.Still taken from a lower angle, mainly to fit in her whole body)
“Yeah.”
( Slight pause before the 'yeah'. Closeup of the bottom part of Aya's face, not showing the eyes, just the mouth and its dead straight)
“I’m sorry.”
(Closeup of Miki, she is looking down, her head bent down, hair framing her face)
“Yeah.”
(The same shot, but the centre is now her cheek, the camera moved a few inches to the right. Youu can see her hair framing the right side and her cheek and about half her mouth.)
“Aya?”
(Closeup of Miki, this time she is looking at Aya-straight at the camera because it is positioned where she is supposed to be sitting, taken from her POV-, concern and sadness in her eyes.)
“Yeah?”
(The same shot, only closer and an inch or two to the left, not showing the left (her right) cheek and showing the lips mostly)
“You’re crying.”
(Upclose of Miki's lips as she says it, the background is black. Then it cuts to a picture of the complete bottom half of Aya's face, (showing a wet trail being slowly formed as we meet a tear on its decent on the left side of her face -from our POV the left, from her, its her right cheek- and we see it reach the slope of her cheek at a painfully slow pace and linger there) and slowly the camera moves up, showing her whole face... from the dimples which are curently invisible to the lone tear streaming its way down her right cheek -the one obstructed from our view by the clever camera shots- and the newborn tears shinning in the surface of her eyes)
FIN
AND CUT! Thank you, you have all been fantastic! I'll see you on the next set, we'll keep this one, see you guys.....
What did you think?
Notes: the backgroud gets blurier by the shot, when it reaches the whole "Yeah" thing with the closeups, the background is black and all you can see is part of their faces. especially Aya's, to create a feeling of lonelyness and pain etc. This takes place in Aya's dressing room, so she is sitting down on her makeup chair in front of the mirror that is why when we look at Miki, the camera is from a low angle. Miki is confused and scared so she tries to not look her in the eye because she is afraid of what she might find there (jealousy, hate etc she doesn't want to lose her) and that is why she rambles, coz she doesn't know how Aya is feeling or that she understood completely or that she is heartbroken because she loves her..... Anyway this was my interpretation of the scene, blame my stupid English teacher for giving me this homework and me practicing on you! XP
Actually I didnt cry, although I thought I would because my rent and bro is are cooking sum onions for a (horrible) dish that they will cook, I am sory zay, but it really is horrible, and I hope you dont get suckered into trying it :sweatdrop:
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this is getting interesting
at part 2 I thought Kame had a thing for reina (especially after reading Sun...poor kame...do something!),
but then you got me going O_O in surprise with that unexpected gakikame at the end
(lol I confess I had a glimpse of part 3 beforehand and thought it was gonna be takagaki)
She stood. She stared. She analysed what she saw before her eyes.
Takahashi Ai: Current Morning Musume leader.
Blank expression or not, her mind was always working, always thinking. Something was wrong. Today’s dynamics weren’t up to par. What was it this time?
Ai patrolled the dance studio and briefly checked the time. They had a whole twenty-four minutes before rehearsal would begin. Her nostrils slightly flared as she realised there was one missing member: non other than her best friend and sub-leader. She had articulated several times before that she wanted all members to be at the studio a full thirty minutes before rehearsal began. Just as Ai had reached for her cell phone, said sub-leader ran into the studio with ruffled hair and expression to match. Ai’s eyebrow twitched.
“Ai-chan, I’m SOOOO sorry!!!” a breathless Risa yelled, almost smashing her forehead on the ground in attempt to deepen her apology. Ai’s eyebrow twitched again, not because of Risa’s tardiness, but because the atmosphere seemed to become even stranger.
Ai patted Risa on the shoulder, causing the girl to violently convulse defensively.
I like the way you wrote this part and the miki and aya conversation, i can totally imagine this happening.
well surprise surprise...looking forward to see how you're gonna sort everybody out :lol:
btw that last gakikame part was kinda...hot :oops:
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@ sweeety
you should've added tears coming down ayaya's cheeks like at the last 'yeah' with just half of her face... :P
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lol, thats why the camera panned to the left, beecause thats where the tear streamed down her face, Ill add it though, thanx.
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I am in love with ur writing, please keep going at this pace... If this gets continued like it is then Sun can wait (as long as its not forgotten) ;)
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:w00t: at the amount of replies :wub:
sweeety: Your replies always make me smile! It's nice to see so much enthusiasm in one post. OMG so much detail went into your little scene analysation of the Aya/Miki part. It reminds me of English class and I had to do things similar to that too :sweatdrop: Oh btw, about the Maki cheating on Reina with Miki thing, I think it was made pretty clear in the first part that I wrote. Or pretty heavily hinted at, at least 8)
lollipopgirl: Sun eh. I'm still trying to get the flow back in to that one :( For now I'll keep working on this little story until something brilliant hits me over the head :banghead:
Next part will be up sometime tonight!! :P
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Part 4
“Where have you been?”
It was like a showdown in some corny western cowboy movie. The two idols intensely watched each other like hawks; one, with swollen and tired eyes, the other with eyes darkened with guilt and self-loathing.
“I was...” the older of the two found herself unable to even utter the truth.
Silence.
Reina crossed her arms and leaned against the doorframe, waiting for Maki to continue, waiting for some sort of excuse that was meant to be bought as “reason”. Maki struggled to find her voice, almost pleading Reina with her eyes to understand.
“I have to tolerate not being able to see someone I barely get to see in the first place,” Reina’s strained voice barely reached Maki’s ears. The soloist felt her guilt clench tighter and tighter in a forceful grip inside her chest.
“I’m sorry,” Maki whispered back, trying to get a hold of herself.
Silence.
Reina’s patience was wearing thin. She had all but given Maki her blood and guts, and what had she gotten in return?
Nothing.
“If I asked you to not be angry, you still will be, won’t you?” Maki desperately asked the younger, searching for some sort of sign – any sign – that things would be okay. She knew deep down with a heavy sinking feeling that they wouldn’t be after tonight.
“Just tell me where you were all those times!” Reina suddenly screamed, her hands balled and clenched into angry fists while her shoulders stood square and slightly trembled. The sudden outburst caused Maki to jump, her eyes widening in surprise and simultaneously, fear.
It hurt. It hurt that Reina was angry and yelling at her, though that was by her own doing. It hurt that she didn’t have it in her to say what she had been doing all those times when “work rang”. It hurt because she knew that the chances of her and Reina being as happy as they were in the beginning were very slim. It hurt because she was the one the caused this entire… failure… in their once fairytale relationship. She turned the anger on no one but herself.
“Trust me, you don’t want to hear it,” Maki replied through gritted teeth, the memory of the times with Miki flashed in her mind, making her feel sick.
“What do you expect me to do? Turn a blind eye? Pretend like we never had any problems and live happily ever after? Look at me! I have the best girlfriend in the entire world! She’s never done me wrong! No, Maki would never do that!” Reina sarcastically shot back. The poison laced in her words could have made the world’s deadliest snake tremble.
“I slept with Miki, okay?!” Maki yelled back at Reina, tears flowing from her eyes, unable to take her girlfriend’s verbal assault any longer. Her sobs echoed throughout Reina’s small apartment, making it seem cold and lonely.
Reina held an unreadable expression on her fatigued face. She stared at – no – through Maki and in to nothingness. Her mind went blank, her body felt numb, though she could hear a deafening pounding in her head. As Maki carefully edged closer, her brain jolted to life.
How dare she touch me after she touched Fujimoto.
The hand that Maki had tentatively reached out was violently struck away in rage.
“Don’t touch me.”
“Reina, I’m sorry. I know - ”
“Don’t talk to me.”
“But I never meant - ”
That was all Maki managed to get out before her jaw was greeted by Reina’s fist. The soloist stumbled back a step or two, rubbing her jaw with a look of none other than hurt in her eyes.
“I said, don’t talk to me.”
The rokkie stood unmoving, unfeeling and unforgiving.
The soloist turned to leave, glancing one last time at Reina before shutting the door behind her. She had lost everything important in her life, because she was stupid enough to let another have her way.
Reina had sunk to her knees the moment the door clicked in to its original place. Everything that she had been holding inside of her burst out in a furious manner, and she cried and wailed and bawled until her voice became hoarse. She couldn’t do this, it was too heavy to hold on her own. Despite her mental and physical exhaustion she hastily changed and before she realised it she was walking down the dark streets, dialing an all too familiar phone number.
“…mrmpgh… Reina-chan, it’s like three am...”
*****
When you like someone – I mean - really like someone, why are you so afraid to say anything to them? Why are you afraid of telling them the truth? Instead you just offer your support and act as normal as possible, while in the shadows you’re sleeping around with one of your friends.
Sometimes you don’t plan those kinds of things… they just sort of happen. Once it begins, it’s awfully hard to stop, even when you know that you’re hurting someone else.
Sometimes when you tell your closest friend what’s been going on, you wish you hadn’t. You wish you hadn’t let out your secret, you wish you never opened your mouth, because you sure as hell weren’t prepared for the reaction that you just got.
That’s what I found myself wishing as I watched tears fall uncontrollably from Aya’s eyes. She was crying and I couldn’t even move to comfort her. It wasn’t right… she wouldn’t be that upset over what I did… would she?
People say that I’m brash, arrogant, obnoxious. Whatever. In front of Aya, I lose all that. I always said what I felt, especially with her.
Then why was it so hard for me to say what was on my mind at that moment?
I forced myself to move forward, reaching out my arms to hug her. Before I could get any closer she took a step back.
Away from me.
She didn’t want to be near me.
She didn’t want me.
She told me to leave.
And it hurt.
As I turned away from her, I heard the distinct sound of glass shattering against a wall.
As I closed the door behind me, I heard the distinct sound of my own heart shattering against Aya.
*****
“…mrmpgh… Reina-chan, it’s like three am...”
“Eri,” Reina’s voice barely managed to whisper. The teenager had been exhausted beyond all means and was struggling to keep a grasp on some form of sanity.
“Reina? What’s wrong? What happened?” Eri’s voice panicked upon hearing the state Reina seemed to be in.
Within twenty minutes Reina had reached Eri’s apartment, having already left her own before making the phone call. Without a word she was let in and immediately sat down. Without another word she began her relentless battle with heartbreak while Eri offered all she could possibly give.
After several hours of tears, frustration, anger and anguish, Eri had managed to convince Reina to get a little bit of sleep. The two girls, closely bonded shared the bed. To say that Eri had it easy would be an understatement, as she forced herself to stay awake while the other slept. Every time Reina began crying in her sleep, Eri would wake up her so that she would stop seeing whatever bad things she was seeing in her dreams.
Eri wished she could take all the pain away from her friend, she wished that Reina didn’t have to go through so much hell.
But this was Reina’s battle.
All Eri could do now was watch from the sidelines.
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Uwaaah! That was too much for me.. :cry:
Actually I love it.. It's the kind of story I'd really appreciate. XD
Everyone went into chaos, misery, desperation, it's awesome! :twisted:
Aya/Miki part was the best! Miki finally realises Aya's feelings. :D
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That was saaaaaaaaad... :'(
Poor Reina and poor Aya...
Well, I'm wondering what Maki and Miki will do now. They really need to make things better! :yep:
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/me reads Part 4
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:gyaaah: :gyaaah: :gyaaah: :gyaaah: :gyaaah:
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awwww, so sad! :hip cry: :fainted: :farofflook: :pleeease: :tantrum: :sweat: :stunned: :imdead: :on_plug: :k-crazy: :k-sad: :mon cry: :mon zoom: :mon emo: :mon waterworks: :mon hanky: :mon surr: :mon nwei: :mon runcry: :mon santasad: :gmon tears: :pig cry: :cry:
Poor Reina, Maki, Miki, Aya and Eri. I hope they sort things out between them...........
I had a bad feeling Reina was gonna sleep with Eri, and it camre true! XD Jks, I thought she slept with her, because I didnt realise that part was Aya and Miki so I thought oh no this sounds like she slept with her friend or something..
From this chapter I've gathered that both girls feel very sorry for what they did, and know they were stupid. Maki is feeling guilty and remorsefull and it seems like she doesn't want her relationship with Reina to end and wants to keep fighting for her. I like that. But Miki seems like she didn't realise her feelings for Aya, even now. I think she will soon realise that she is in love with her and that she loves her back thats why she is reacting this way. But they are gonna have a very tough time getting together, what with Miki having just slept with someone and Aya feeling cheated on even though she isn't seeing Miki. But I think that maybe she thinks that Miki and Maki are together now. That she lost Miki forever. That would explain why she is acting like it's the end of the world. If only she had told her off her feelings earlier then maybe they would have been together and then Miki would not have slept with Maki. I drew this picture which was inspired by your story. That last thing in the Aya/Miki excerpt broke my heart. It made me feel and it gave me a bit of drawing inspiration. This is something like the picture that went into my head when I read that, and the reason this post took me so long to post (well, this and the game I am playing).
(http://i249.photobucket.com/albums/gg211/Charmy10/scan0005.jpg)
But now that I think about it, Aya may have lost Miki..... I wont go further into this rant because my post is already long enough. Lemme just say, awesome story, I luv it and I hope you continue it. It is very well written, I like the composition, context etc. of the story....(I really should stop procrastinating and just do my homework.....)
I know the picture is crap.....but I wanted to make it anyway..... It's supposed to be Mikis heart breaking, and I always imagined it made out of ice os glass..... so I drew a glass/ice heart being smashed into a few pieces.... not too many because then Ayaya might not be able to put it back together :( .....
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oMG.
totally making me cry... :cry:
everyone is having such a hard time... :cry:
i cant wait! :love:
i can totally relate to this mess,,, :angry:
haha.
keep up the osam woorkkk!
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Uwaaah! That was too much for me.. :cry:
Actually I love it.. It's the kind of story I'd really appreciate. XD
Everyone went into chaos, misery, desperation, it's awesome! :twisted:
Aya/Miki part was the best! Miki finally realises Aya's feelings. :D
That's me in a nutshell for you, I love writing angsty stuff :sweatdrop: And yeah, Miki was a little slow to realise what was going on in Aya's mind.
That was saaaaaaaaad... :'(
Poor Reina and poor Aya...
Well, I'm wondering what Maki and Miki will do now. They really need to make things better! :yep:
If only things were that easy. Too bad it's a lot harder to fix things when they become so broken :(
/me reads Part 4
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:gyaaah: :gyaaah: :gyaaah: :gyaaah: :gyaaah:
NoOOoOo! Don't make sad faces at me!! :cry:
awwww, so sad! :hip cry: :fainted: :farofflook: :pleeease: :tantrum: :sweat: :stunned: :imdead: :on_plug: :k-crazy: :k-sad: :mon cry: :mon zoom: :mon emo: :mon waterworks: :mon hanky: :mon surr: :mon nwei: :mon runcry: :mon santasad: :gmon tears: :pig cry: :cry:
Poor Reina, Maki, Miki, Aya and Eri. I hope they sort things out between them...........
I had a bad feeling Reina was gonna sleep with Eri, and it camre true! XD Jks, I thought she slept with her, because I didnt realise that part was Aya and Miki so I thought oh no this sounds like she slept with her friend or something..
From this chapter I've gathered that both girls feel very sorry for what they did, and know they were stupid. Maki is feeling guilty and remorsefull and it seems like she doesn't want her relationship with Reina to end and wants to keep fighting for her. I like that. But Miki seems like she didn't realise her feelings for Aya, even now. I think she will soon realise that she is in love with her and that she loves her back thats why she is reacting this way. But they are gonna have a very tough time getting together, what with Miki having just slept with someone and Aya feeling cheated on even though she isn't seeing Miki. But I think that maybe she thinks that Miki and Maki are together now. That she lost Miki forever. That would explain why she is acting like it's the end of the world. If only she had told her off her feelings earlier then maybe they would have been together and then Miki would not have slept with Maki. I drew this picture which was inspired by your story. That last thing in the Aya/Miki excerpt broke my heart. It made me feel and it gave me a bit of drawing inspiration. This is something like the picture that went into my head when I read that, and the reason this post took me so long to post (well, this and the game I am playing).
[pic]
But now that I think about it, Aya may have lost Miki..... I wont go further into this rant because my post is already long enough. Lemme just say, awesome story, I luv it and I hope you continue it. It is very well written, I like the composition, context etc. of the story....(I really should stop procrastinating and just do my homework.....)
I know the picture is crap.....but I wanted to make it anyway..... It's supposed to be Mikis heart breaking, and I always imagined it made out of ice os glass..... so I drew a glass/ice heart being smashed into a few pieces.... not too many because then Ayaya might not be able to put it back together :( .....
I think Miki had figured out a LONG time ago just what kind of feelings she had for Aya, she was just too scared to admit it to herself. It's like Maki said in the first chapter, Miki was afraid so she tried to push those thoughts out of her mind by sleeping around with everyone but Aya.
Oooh, thats a cool drawing you have there. I like the idea that Miki's heart is made out of glass, it seems very fitting of her :)
oMG.
totally making me cry... :cry:
everyone is having such a hard time... :cry:
i cant wait! :love:
i can totally relate to this mess,,, :angry:
haha.
keep up the osam woorkkk!
Noticed that you joined recently, so welcome and thanks for reading!
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Part 5
After I left Reina’s apartment, I didn’t know what to do with myself. I was broken and there nothing anybody could do to fix it. I just wanted to die in hole somewhere.
Before I knew it, my feet were leading me to a former Gomattou member’s place. I allowed myself to follow my body, tears still rolling down my cheeks. I don’t know what time it was, and it probably wasn’t a good idea to be pounding loudly on a door at this hour, but I did it any way.
After a few hearty thumps the door smoothly swung open. Aya’s eyes were beyond red and swollen and she looked like a mess. For a moment she stared at me, her eyes darkly emitted turmoil and an intense anguish darkly. Without another word she swung the door closed. Why was she looking at me as if I had killed her dog?
I knocked on her door again, but this time not as loudly. After a few moments of no movement, the door opened.
“Why have you been crying?” Aya asked in a scornful voice. I was taken aback.
“I could ask you the same thing, Aya-chan.”
I wasn’t exactly in the mood for being on the receiving end of somebody’s anger. Neither of us spoke any further, and wordlessly, Aya let me into her apartment.
For a ridiculous amount of uncounted time, we sat in silence, save for the sounds of our crying.
“I hate her so much right now,” Aya finally spoke up. What? I was so caught up in my own mess that I had momentarily forgotten that Aya looked like she went through the same hell I just had. I do a retake and realise why she was in the state she was in. Miki must have told her.
“I know. I’m sorry,” I replied.
I was just as guilty as Miki, and if Aya wanted to be angry at me I wasn’t going to stop her. But she didn’t saying anything after that, and in the silence I felt like I was sinking lower and lower into the hole that I had let myself fall into. Feeling anxious I started to wring my fingers and straighten out my clothes. Anything to distract me from the situation at hand. I glanced at Aya to find that she was pretty much doing the same thing. The guilt in me stirred even more than before. How could I have done this to one of my closest friends?
“She’s only ever wanted you, you know?” I finally broke the prolonged silence.
“And Reina’s only ever wanted you, yet you threw away her trust like that,” Aya harshly replied, surprising me. I studied Aya carefully as she looked directly back into my eyes. What was she trying to tell me? She wants me to understand. After another second I realise what’s going on in her mind. I’m sorry Aya, I get it now. She wasn’t angry at me for betraying Reina. She was angry because Miki had chosen me to prey on, and I had allowed it.
“Believe me Aya, if I could take it back I would,” I tell her firmly. Aya sits there sternly. It was the truth. “You know I would.”
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Risa watched her best friend put all she had into her performance. Her voice carried out each note as if it was her last, drawing upon pure and raw emotion. Her body moved as if it was controlled by defined, elegant precision.
She was born for this.
Risa couldn’t take her eyes off her, even after the performance had ended. Their eyes connected for a split second before Ai hastily looked away, afraid that she might give away what was really going on in her mind. She didn’t want to burden Risa with her job, her duties. She wanted the younger to enjoy her time in the group as much as possible. She didn’t need to be bothered with such matters… both professional and personal.
She’s doing it again. She doesn’t want me to know what’s going on.
The two bizarre personalities were drawn to each other from the very beginning, and once joined, nothing could bring them apart. Well… almost nothing.
There was Eri.
However, that was somehow justified in Risa’s mind. She liked spending time with Eri in a very… private and physical manner. But it didn’t mean that she was head over heels for her. Risa even went so far as to point this out to Eri when they had begun their peculiar way of being “close friends.” Much to Risa’s relief, Eri revealed that she had been thinking the same thing.
With Ai, it was different. Risa wanted to be there for Ai in every way possible, but Ai simply refused to let her. She would say things like “Don’t worry! I can handle it on my own!”
It only made Risa worry more. She wanted to be close to her. She wanted to be with her. What was it that Ai was hiding from Risa? Why was she purposely distancing herself when they had been through hell and back together? Thinking this made her skin prick up in mild anger. She hated the feeling of being shut out, of being left in the cold.
“Are you mad at me?” Ai’s voice gently asked, snapping Risa out of her thoughts.
“Of course not,” Risa replied half-heartedly, knowing full well that Ai was more than capable of picking up on Risa’s emotions.
“I’m sorry,” Ai said quietly, placing a warm hand on top of Risa’s head. Ai knew that Risa was only trying to help. They had had this discussion numerous times before with it always ending in a stalemate. Risa hated it. She hated feeling this way without being able to do anything about it. She hated that only Ai-chan seemed to have the power to really piss her off, to frustrate her. Yet for reasons she couldn’t even begin to seize, she just couldn’t stay angry at the girl. It confused Risa beyond all means.
In one fluid movement, Risa had closed in and wrapped her arms around her friend, resting her head against hers. Ai was initially slightly surprised, but her body promptly moved out of its own natural instinct and reciprocated the gesture.
“Ai-chan… I just really miss you.”
“I know. Me too.”
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I thought Aya was going to be angrier at Maki, but I guess she's just upset at everything that happened. Miki and Maki need to fix things...
And Ai should trust Risa more, they should talk about their feelings. :yep:
Waiting for the next chapter!
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Maki going to Aya's room. A big no-no. I thought Aya would lash out at Maki, my thoughts were wrong. :sweatdrop:
So there's a wall between Ai and Risa huh? Ai shouldn't keep things to herself... :thumbdown:
I wonder what Reina, Eri and Miki are up to.. :?
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Geez, Maki's lucky that Aya's actually talking to her right now. :O
Wait a sec...Risa and Eri...they're
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friends "with benefits"??? :o
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Awwwwwwwwww so sad! I hope it at least has a happy ending. But I thought that Maki was going to Mikis place at the start. I was like "NOOOOOOOOO DO YOU WANT TO MAKE THINGS WORSE?" but thank god Aya answered crying, which sadly means that they didn't get together and that she wasn't answering Mikis door, but instead was deeply hurt and at home, still crying in that ungodly hour.....
I think those girls should do something about it though, Reina and Aya wont just cry for a while and then return to them, no! They will end things if they don't get a move on and fight for their loves. Miki has to win Aya and it's going to be extraordinarilly hard, especially since they weren't together to begin with and since she seemed to have given up as well. Cause that last bit one or two chapters ago implies that she will probably be in the same sit as they all are now, crushed and probably crying, that is if she isn't doing something crazy like sleeping with someone else, but right now especially, I hope she picks depression. Maybe a sad Yoshi showing up at Ayas door saying "What did you do to her?" will help her. It might make Aya think "Wow, was she really that affected?" or something. Something along the lines of
Y: Look I dont know what went on between you two but it has got to stop! Please go talk to her. She hasn't left her apartment in two weeks. She has been rotting away in her bed, crying day and night for the last two weeks. She hasn't gone further than the bathroom in god knows how long and the neighboors have been complaining about the noise, saying things like 'constant sobbing coming from the room next door'...... Aya, she really really loves you. If you can't forgive her, then maybe you don't deserve her. I for one would be proud to call her mine. So make your move........or don't it's your choice, but know this, if this keeps up, she will lose her job, or worse.... god I don't know what she'll do if you procrastinate any longer. She might even..... no, she wouldn't right? oh my god what am I saying, this is Miki we're talking about, she'd do anything for you! If only
A: What? If only she hadn't slept with her? If only she hadn't royally fucked up? If-
Y:If only you knew. Just go see her ok? see it for yourself. And if you don't get her than maybe I will.
He he I know I ruined it. Its probably not gonna happen but, it seems like a nice plot twist. I just can't stop thinking about it now..... Sory for rambling again..... I have got to stop doing that. Or maybe incorporate that bit into one of my stories.
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wow. maki went to aya! :sweatdrop:
yea..gaki-san and ai-chan should talk more, so they'd be able to sort out their feelings and stuff..
mahn..
cant wait to get more of this. :)
thanks!..ganbatte! :otomerika: :cow:
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Hello people! Time for replies to comments! :cow:
I thought Aya was going to be angrier at Maki, but I guess she's just upset at everything that happened. Miki and Maki need to fix things...
And Ai should trust Risa more, they should talk about their feelings. :yep:
Waiting for the next chapter!
Aya IS angry at Maki, but for some reason of another, she seems to be holding back some of it :?
Maki going to Aya's room. A big no-no. I thought Aya would lash out at Maki, my thoughts were wrong. :sweatdrop:
So there's a wall between Ai and Risa huh? Ai shouldn't keep things to herself... :thumbdown:
I wonder what Reina, Eri and Miki are up to.. :?
Yep, it's just my personal opinion, but Ai seems to hold back a lot of herself. It's like she's restraining parts of herself, with-holding things back from people. Or maybe I just analyse too much :sweatdrop:
Geez, Maki's lucky that Aya's actually talking to her right now. :O
Wait a sec...Risa and Eri...they're
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friends "with benefits"??? :o
One word: YES. :P
Awwwwwwwwww so sad! I hope it at least has a happy ending. But I thought that Maki was going to Mikis place at the start. I was like "NOOOOOOOOO DO YOU WANT TO MAKE THINGS WORSE?" but thank god Aya answered crying, which sadly means that they didn't get together and that she wasn't answering Mikis door, but instead was deeply hurt and at home, still crying in that ungodly hour.....
I think those girls should do something about it though, Reina and Aya wont just cry for a while and then return to them, no! They will end things if they don't get a move on and fight for their loves. Miki has to win Aya and it's going to be extraordinarilly hard, especially since they weren't together to begin with and since she seemed to have given up as well. Cause that last bit one or two chapters ago implies that she will probably be in the same sit as they all are now, crushed and probably crying, that is if she isn't doing something crazy like sleeping with someone else, but right now especially, I hope she picks depression. Maybe a sad Yoshi showing up at Ayas door saying "What did you do to her?" will help her. It might make Aya think "Wow, was she really that affected?" or something. Something along the lines of
Y: Look I dont know what went on between you two but it has got to stop! Please go talk to her. She hasn't left her apartment in two weeks. She has been rotting away in her bed, crying day and night for the last two weeks. She hasn't gone further than the bathroom in god knows how long and the neighboors have been complaining about the noise, saying things like 'constant sobbing coming from the room next door'...... Aya, she really really loves you. If you can't forgive her, then maybe you don't deserve her. I for one would be proud to call her mine. So make your move........or don't it's your choice, but know this, if this keeps up, she will lose her job, or worse.... god I don't know what she'll do if you procrastinate any longer. She might even..... no, she wouldn't right? oh my god what am I saying, this is Miki we're talking about, she'd do anything for you! If only
A: What? If only she hadn't slept with her? If only she hadn't royally fucked up? If-
Y:If only you knew. Just go see her ok? see it for yourself. And if you don't get her than maybe I will.
He he I know I ruined it. Its probably not gonna happen but, it seems like a nice plot twist. I just can't stop thinking about it now..... Sory for rambling again..... I have got to stop doing that. Or maybe incorporate that bit into one of my stories.
Hehe, that definately would have been interesting indeed in Maki had ended up running to Miki that night :?
wow. maki went to aya! :sweatdrop:
yea..gaki-san and ai-chan should talk more, so they'd be able to sort out their feelings and stuff..
mahn..
cant wait to get more of this. :)
thanks!..ganbatte! :otomerika: :cow:
Oh, Takagaki. I find myself getting more and more into this pairing recently :wub: Let's see how they handle themselves in future chapters, shall we? 8)
And with that, the next part follows this post! It's a little short, and just a little bit on the silly side :P Enjoy!
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Part 6
“Do you think she’ll be okay?”
“I don’t know. Maybe not for a while.”
Sayumi puffed out her cheeks in agitation. She didn’t like it when her friends were hurting. Eri was sitting opposite her at a staff table, both girls watching Reina robotically get a cup of water.
A robot. That’s what Reina had turned in to. She was moving like a robot, speaking like a robot, singing and dancing like a robot. Sayumi didn’t like robots very much, and it irked her more that Reina was behaving awfully similar to one.
“Hey, stop making that face now. Reina-chan needs us,” Eri said, noticing Sayumi’s furrowed brow. Sayumi quickly nodded and replaced her troubled expression with her trademark smile just as Reina returned to her seat.
“Reina-chan, wanna get something to eat with me and Eririn after this meeting?” Sayumi asked, using what she considered to be her non-refusable voice.
“No thank you,” Reina replied flatly, without even turning to face her fellow sixth gen. Sayumi pouted. She refused to believe that Reina had transformed in to a robot.
“But it’ll be fun!” Sayumi tried again. Her charm only succeeded in making Eri edge back slightly, afraid of the twinkles that sprouted out of nowhere on Sayumi’s teeth and in her eyes.
“No, it’s okay,” Reina replied with the exact same deadpan voice she had been using all day.
“But - ”
Sayumi was hushed when concert staff and crew filed into the room to begin their meeting. She scowled at their bad timing. She was trying to cheer her friend up here!
The meeting was long and boring, and not at all worth paying attention to. At least that’s what was running through Sayumi’s mind for the entire hour. When it had finally drawn to an end, she sighed in relief.
Most of the members hurriedly left, including Reina, much to Sayumi’s distress. Only herself, Eri, Risa and Ai had remained. Sayumi stared across the room. The leader and sub-leader were sitting very closely to each other, looking like they were having a deep and meaningful conversation.
“Come on, let’s give them some space,” Eri leaned in and whispered to Sayumi. She pulled on her friend’s arm and tugged her out of the room, waving goodbye to Risa and Ai.
The pair walked along the corridor, talking about anything and everything. Suddenly Sayumi stopped their conversation on werewolves.
“Don’t you think Ai-chan and Gaki-san were a bit close back there?” she asked Eri as they entered a small café.
“I’d say it’s about time,” Eri mindlessly replied, rolling her eyes. Eri was more than aware of Risa’s feelings for their Leader. The girl had even come and asked Eri for advice on her situation. Sayumi gawked at her best friend.
“But aren’t you jealous?” the Ichiban Kawaii questioned, sending Eri in to a small giggling fit.
“Jealous? Why would I be jealous?”
“Aren’t you and Gaki-san… you know…?”
“Oh THAT.”
“What do you mean ‘oh THAT’?”
“We’re not um… going out or anything…”
“But you do… stuff with her.”
“Yeah but that’s all it is. Just stuff.”
“But… but… Eririn!”
“What?!”
Their conversation had been getting increasingly louder and several heads had begun turning in their direction. Both girls turned bright red as they realised just what sort of topic that had been practically yelling about in the tame, road-side café.
“What is it?” Eri lowered her head, leaning in and whispered to Sayumi.
“Are you telling me that you two are just um… friends with... stuff?” Sayumi was even redder than before if possible. Eri immediately turned a similar colour.
“Uh… yeah… I guess so…”
The two sat in a comfortable silence for a minute or two until their orders arrived. Well, Eri was comfortable. Sayumi was slightly fidgety for reasons unknown to her best friend.
“Eri?”
“Yeah?”
“Does that mean I can um… ask you to go on a date with me?”
Eri choked on her iced coffee, some of the liquid managing to spill from her mouth. She hurriedly wiped at her chin with a napkin.
Both girls had once again immediately turned a shade of pink.
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Awwwwwwwwwwww...KameShige. :oops:
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Ah! Sayu sure is cute~! XD
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Reina acting like a robot surely is a bad thing. She became numb after all that happened :-\
It's good to see Ai and Risa close like that. I wanna know what they were talking about XD
Sayu asking Eri out was the cutest thing ever :D
Great chapter! :muffin:
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*chucks away the tissue box* yay...aside from the start that was the least depressing chapter in awhile (not that I mind..cause it's good reading even when I'm like this :cry:) :sweat: I'm still hoping that Maki will start fixing things soon! but anyways my mind is well distracted now~ Loved the chapter!!
Kameshige~ :nya: :nya: :nya:
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Awwwwwwwwwwww...KameShige. :oops:
That's what we all need to cheer us up when we're down! Kameshige!! :D
Ah! Sayu sure is cute~! XD
Hehe :lol: I'm sure behind the cuteness there's something else lurking around in there. After all, she's a little devil at heart!
Reina acting like a robot surely is a bad thing. She became numb after all that happened :-\
It's good to see Ai and Risa close like that. I wanna know what they were talking about XD
Sayu asking Eri out was the cutest thing ever :D
Great chapter! :muffin:
Thanks! I had fun writing that chapter as it was a little more on the light side as opposed to the rest of the chapters.
*chucks away the tissue box* yay...aside from the start that was the least depressing chapter in awhile (not that I mind..cause it's good reading even when I'm like this :cry:) :sweat: I'm still hoping that Maki will start fixing things soon! but anyways my mind is well distracted now~ Loved the chapter!!
Kameshige~ :nya: :nya: :nya:
Thankyouuu~ :wub: Next chapter coming up right after this. *throws tissue box back to Sukoshi*
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Part 7
“On stage, that was really… something, huh?” Ai meekly asked Risa, who she shared a dressing room with backstage.
The group had just wrapped up another energetic concert for the day and were cooling off before leaving the hall. Risa’s eyes fixated themselves on Ai’s back. The leader was swiftly changing into casual street wear, oblivious to the look on Risa’s face. During their performance of Love & Peace! HERO ga Yattekita, Risa had a dire moment of lack of self control. It was all fun and giggles until she made the dangerous mistake of letting her mind think about what she had forced it to stop thinking about all day. Risa immediately flushed at the thought. She was certain that only Ai had caught the look on her face during her instance of weakness. At least, that’s what she had hoped.
“Yeah… sorry about that,” Risa replied, preparing herself to be lectured yet again. Despite trying to keep her voice steady, it wavered, revealing her splay of emotions. At this Ai stopped fussing with her hair and instead turned her attention to Risa, watching her through the mirror.
“It’s okay. Just… you know…” Ai stared deeply at Risa, almost as if in a trance. Unknowingly, Risa began to propel forward.
They never once looked away from each other, and as Risa came to a halt perilously close behind Ai, their gaze only intensified. Risa could feel herself losing control again. She felt no need to stop it this time. She had been angry – at herself, at Ai-chan, at their situation – and just once, she wanted to feel like she had control over her own life, her own decisions. Risa placed her hands on the dressing table, trapping Ai between her arms. She saw Ai swallow what ever lump in her throat was there, and she found herself doing the same.
“No Ai-chan, I don’t know. Just what?” The sub-leader’s temptingly low voice almost purred into her leader’s ear.
“Gaki-san…”
“Stop pushing me away… you always do. You send me all these different signals and I’m never fast enough to catch one before you send out the next. But in the end… you just push me away,” Risa’s voice cracked, but the two girls’ eyes never broke away from each other, each showing as much raw, distinct emotion as the other.
“Gaki-san…”
“Don’t do it anymore, okay?” Risa’s voice was filled with a loneliness that Ai had never heard before., almost desperate in fact. She felt something within her stir, as if there was a part of her that was being awakened. Ai momentarily broke the gaze, finally turning around to face her friend. She watched Risa for a moment before bringing her arms up. Ai pulled the girl in until Risa’s head was resting comfortably against her shoulder, arms protectively wrapped around the younger girl’s shoulders.
“I’m not pushing you away now,” Ai softly said into Risa’s ear. At this she relaxed, returning her friend’s embrace. After a moments silence Ai spoke up again. “But it’ll take time.”
The younger only nodded. She could finally feel the barriers being brought down. It was happening very slowly, but as long as it was happening at all… she could wait.
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Reina clutched a pillow tightly to her chest, the sounds of the television blaring in her dark apartment. She couldn’t hear the sounds though. All she could hear was the voice of Maki in her head. Their final, angry moments together refused to stop repeating themselves in her mind. She wanted it to stop. She really, really did. But it didn’t. It wouldn’t.
The teenager continued to wallow in self-grief; she continued to spiral further and further into a dark place in which she had never been before. She wished with all her heart that she could hate Maki. That she could really, truly hate her. But she just couldn’t. She couldn’t do it. Emotions don’t work that simply.
As the night wore on, Reina’s resolve wore thin. She didn’t know what she wanted anymore. She wanted more than anything to have Maki by her side again, yet she at the same time she wanted to damn the soloist to eternal hell. Reina couldn’t understand which was more important to her. She only knew that either way, she would continue to hurt inside.
Just as sleep was five seconds away from claiming her, Reina’s cell phone vibrated, indicating incoming mail. Her eyes snapped open as she reached for her phone, hesitantly flipping it open. Upon opening the message and seeing who the sender was, her plight heightened the pain within herself and Reina began to weep all over again. She let the phone drop to the floor. The screen continued to glow brightly in the dark, illuminating the text for a few seconds before switching to power-saving mode.
I’m sorry. I love you.
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The Ai/Gaki moment was so sweet :wub:
I'm still sad about Reina though, at least Maki's still trying to apologize :-\
keep it up!
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Awwwwwwwwwww...Aichan DOES wub Risa! :wub:
Poor Reina...:cry:
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Reinana :cry: hope things get better, I don't want her to be like a robot (as Sayu says)
Talking about Sayu hahaha She and Eri are hilarious...
The pair walked along the corridor, talking about anything and everything. Suddenly Sayumi stopped their conversation on werewolves.
:rofl: :rofl: this part got me XD But yeah... KameShigue is cute :wub:
The Ai/Gaki part was really sweet, I'm glad that Ai-chan decided to be honest about her feelings...
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wahhy! takagaki finallY!! ehehe.
Reina! a robot?!...NOOOOO!...i think she should stop being stubborn and just accept that she really really really loves maki no matter what.. i mean. she doesnt truly hate maki, she's just escaping. she's got some pride with her.alot of them. :banghead: thats why she cant just tell her self that she wanted maki so much right now...hahaha.. poor girl.
sayu and eri are funny..LOL @ sayu suddenly asking bout that... eri should accept//haha...its for her own good..or maybe she just needs a bit more pushing.. :shakeit:
and a thumbs up for maki... woooooooooo!!!
thanks for those new chapters...hehehe.
ganbatte ne! :muffin:
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Yay! Ai/Risa!! :w00t: finally they're getting somewhere!
If Reina can forgive and forget.. must be hard.. :(
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Heeey an update! Awesome! I loved the Sayu Eri bit, it was so cute. I had a feeling it was gonna end something like that.. I knew Sayu and Eri kinda liked each other and now with Eri single~er Sayu had a huge oportunity and I am glad she snatched it. I hope Ai opens her heart up to Risa and lets her love her and that they get together. I like their chemistry. I loved the bit in Ai's changing room, how Risa was trying to find a way to tell Ai she wanted her and she wanted to get serious about them. It was very sweet and all and I kinda feel sory for Risa because it seems that they are gonna take it at a snails pace and that means she'll have to wait a long time for her to open up. But I have a feeling that she will stick around and when it happens wowwww. I think Risa wont let her down and she will do anything in her power to get her to open up to her. I hope that Reina finds it in her heart to forgive Maki before she does something stupid. Not Maki, Reina. Maki should've learnt her lesson by now, and if not than she doesn't deserve to be forgiven. I have a feeling that they'll make up by the end of the story though. I think that she will try and try and Reina will give in, cry a little more and then they will get together. No mention of GAM though and that is always bad. Why no GAM? GAM bad? NOOO!
I like how you worked out their relationship, it seems like the usual GAMfic except it's messed up with the timeline. Like for example in this fic Miki has sex with Maki in the start instead of one of them getting jealous and cheating on the other.....waaaaaaait what am I saying, this is how a YoMiki fic works. Lol, I like it anyway. I like the angst in that couple, they are always interesting. I hate how Miki was oblivious to Aya's feelings and ended up hurting her. I hate how Aya blames Miki for it all and herself for a bit of it too. I think it might be deeper than it seems. It seems like Miki was rejected by Aya or something and slept with Maki for revenge or to feel loved and not useless or something. That's what Miki's POV made me think. But Aya's one makes you feel like Miki is just a bitch who doesn't care and prey'd on Maki for just sex yet Miki's POV makes you feel like she is in love with Aya. This is so complex. On the one hand they love each other. On the other hand they have this "we shouldn't be together" air, like they confessed and agreed not to take things further...... But then there's this other hand that tells me they haven't started anything yet........I'm confused. From Aya's POV when Miki told her it seems like she has feelings but doesn't know if Miki loves her too. Then MIki's POV on the same chapter tells us she loves Aya back, but doesn't know if she loves her. Aya pushes Miki away and Miki thinks it's because she is repulsed maybe, while Aya is doing it because she is hurt right? But then what about that thing she told Maki? Was it all bull? Was she just saying that Miki prey'd on her so she doesn't admit her feelings for Miki? Because she is afraid or something? Because she thinks that Miki doesn't love her in that way? Anyway great chapter. Can't wait for chapter 8+
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Aww the Takagaki was love! They are one of my favorite pairings!
But :( Reina and Maki! But at least Maki's trying to make up right? RIGHT!? :cry:
Can't wait for next part! :inlove:
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Part 8
I’m pretty sure that I’ve permanently turned this shade of pink ever since Sayu had asked me to go on a date. I can’t live my life this colour! What will my parents think? What will Sayu think?!
“Eririn~ what should we eat for lunch?” Sayu cutely asked me and I couldn’t help but smile widely in return.
“Anything you want,” I replied goofily. God, she made me powerless, and she was only asking me a question! I couldn’t even look at her anymore without blushing and feeling all gushy inside. I’ve turned into a big sap!
“Eririn~ stop staring at me like that! You’re embarrassing me!”
“Uh. Right.”
I didn’t even realise that I had just been ogling Sayu in a very strange manner, no doubt with a very strange expression on my face.
This is ridiculous. It feels like I’m in another world. Spending time with Sayu is so much different from spending time with say… Gaki-san. Now there’s something. I blushed again, but for a different reason to why I’ve been blushing all day. I would have to start thinking about that soon. I wanted to be with Sayu… so I would have to stop uh… seeing Gaki-san. I felt my spirits sink a little. I liked spending time with Gaki-san… I didn’t have to worry about looking or sounding stupid… and then there was always times when we would do… stuff. But wait… if I was going to start something with Sayu, doesn’t that mean that Sayu and I would also be doing stuff? I flush very red at this thought and try not to look at the girl. I mean… what if she thinks that I’m –
“Let’s go in here!”
My thoughts are interrupted by Sayu dragging me in to a secluded, dark, and very small alleyway. I hadn’t even noticed we’d come in this direction.
“Sayu, why are we - ”
I’m interrupted by Sayu pressing her body tightly against me. I hear myself gasp, and before I know it, Sayu’s lips are glued to mine.
I blush harder than I have all day.
*****
I should be angry at the girl, yet here she was in my apartment at the dead of night. Why was she here? Why had I let her in? To be honest, I don’t have any answers. I don’t understand what’s what anymore. I feel like I’ve just lost one of the most important people to me, by no fault of said girl’s own nature. It made matters worse the Maki was involved.
Had it been somebody else, I might not have been as angry. She knows how I feel towards Miki. She knows that I’ve been waiting for as long as I remember for something that might not even happen. Regardless, she took it away from me. She took her away from me. Even when she had found her own happiness… she let it happen.
My hands tightened into clenched fists, grabbing handfuls of the cushion I was furiously clutching.
“Maki, why’d you do it? Why’d you let her?” I asked, refusing to look at her. My voice let on more of my misery than I had wanted it to. I heard her sigh shakily.
“I don’t know.”
That was it? She doesn’t know? How can she not know? She was being unfair, and she knows it.
“You have some nerve. Showing up here after all this mess and then telling me that ‘you don’t know’,” I hiss back trough gritted teeth. I turn my head to face her.
“What do you expect me to say? I’m sorry? I stuffed up? Forgive me and let’s get on with our lives? We both know that wouldn’t work.”
“It’s better than ‘I don’t know’!”
“At least you can still work things out with Miki! You’re just pissed off that you didn’t do something about it sooner! Don’t take things like that out on me, Aya,” Maki bites back just as hard and at her words I’m shocked in to silence. Maki tones it down a little. “Look… me and Reina… I really fucked up. But you and Miki… there was nothing between you two when her and I happened. There’s nothing for you to be so mad about…”
Why was she making perfect sense now?
”Maki…”
“Just talk to her, okay?”
”But - ”
“You’ll be fine.”
“. . .”
“Aya - ”
“Just go away.”
*****
It’s hot.
That was the first thought that came to Risa’s mind as she opened her eyes to the very early morning light peeping in through the cracks of the poorly drawn curtains.
And I can’t move?!
That was the second thought that came to Risa’s mind as she realised that there was something weighing her down, greatly restricting her movement.
The young girl took a moment to think about her predicament. She was curled up on her side, facing a bedroom wall. She thought a little harder. The weight was only on certain parts of her body. She felt slight movement behind her. The leg that was on her thigh shifted slightly, and the arm that was on her hip slithered forward and wrapped around the front of her stomach.
Risa felt the butterflies in her chest flutter rapidly. She didn’t dare move.
Eventually, she found it in her to slightly turn her head back to look at the sleeping form that had been invading her personal space. Her breath immediately caught as she found her self staring at the peacefully sleeping face of her Leader at such close proximity.
I could get used to this.
Risa warmly smiled to herself as she settled back down, being careful not to wake the older girl. She closed her eyes, trying to fall asleep, albeit failing miserably. Her mind was now racing full of thoughts, all of which revolved around Ai-chan.
Pretty much nothing had amounted after their little moment backstage in the dressing room. Ai had continued to be as distant as always.
Yet here she was now, limbs wrapped around Risa like vines entwined around a tree. Risa dared herself another glance at Ai-chan, and upon laying eyes on her, she immediately felt a warm jolt run through her body. Risa hastily turned her head back around. Ai-chan was sleeping and she was still making her feel all bubbly.
Ai shifted in her slumber again, this time moving even closer to Risa, pressing her body against the girl’s back. Risa’s heart skipped several beats.
It was in this fashion that the two slept for the next hour until their alarm begin it’s shrilly early morning cry. To be more accurate… Ai slept, while Risa stayed awake during the whole process in a mixture of pleasure and sheer torture. And when the alarm finally sounded, she sighed in disappointment as Ai-chan peeled herself away and began her morning routine without a word.
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Well I loved Kame's thought process :hiakhiakhiak: ... i loved even more that Sayumi was the aggressor in that pairing :mon thumb: didnt realy expect it but makes mucho sense.
Loved Maki's tough love with Aya because she needed to hear that step 1 in fixing AyaxMiki YAY :muffin:
And of course loved the takagaki moment as you can tell from my name hehe im a fan :shy1:
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But Kame-chan, you look so cute in that color! :wub: Damn Maki! How come you can solve everyone else's problems but your own!? :sweatdrop: But Takagaki was absolute :wub: Love doki doki Gaki!
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OMGASS, SAYU MADE THE FIRST MOVE!!! :wriggly:
I guess I can see Maki's point. Considering that Aya and Miki weren't involved at the time of the incident like Maki was with Reina, they should still be able to be around each other at least on a "best friend" level (that is, after all, what they are, first and foremost). And right now, Miki could probably use her best friend more than she could use a GF. :yep:
Awwwwwwwwwwwww...Aichan slept over? :oops: The fact that she was latching onto Risa could be a sign that her feelings really do run deeper than she's been able to acknowledge so far. And hey, it's a start. :D
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awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww such a cute chapter!
Firstly (because its how it started) the Turtle Rabbit moment! Sooo cute! Funny how Kame was having those naughty thoughts and feeling guilty for it and Sayu picked up on that or had her own naughty thoughts and ended up making Eri blush some more if you catch my drift! lol
Then the saaaaaaaaad bit! Maki and Aya. I thought it wasn't that bit anymore and maybe it was Maki at Reina's place. Then as I read on I thought Miki at Aya's place. Then I realised Maki was at Aya's still helping her out a bit. Poor MIki.... at least Aya had a motivational speaker. And she didn't really do anything wrong. I mean, sure she slept with Maki but from her POV that shouldn't affect Aya at all.
She must think her friend hates her because she is gay or something. She probably thinks Aya hates her for what she did, but little does she know that Aya is angry at who she did it with ;)
I think they will get together by the end. Afterall they are the biggest drama queens in stories but they are always together when they are supposed to be. I guess what I am trying to say is I am being optimistic about this (shocker, I know) and hoping that they can get back together. Because at that point they weren't going out so she didn't cheat, she didn't do anything to Aya so she should totally be forgiven.
I hope Miki goes to see her after Maki leaves and does soemthing totally romantic and Aya forgives her and they have the rabu rabu (in other words PERV CHAPTER WOOOHOO! lolXDjks)
And the last bit! Awww~oh! So sweet. It's so heartwarming to know that Ai thinks of Risa even in her sleep and she wants to be with her. I think there is something holding her back from being with her like fear, and she just holds back to protect Risa from something. It seems like she really wants her and is just trying to protect her or something.
It was so sweet that Ai was holding her like a baby holds its favourite possession while she slept. I got this mental image that was sooo sweet!~
I was actually gonna write something like it. It reminds me of one or two of my dreams except they're with diferent people. lol
Great job once more, I loved it and hope everyone gets together and that you post again soon!
Btw, I also feel sorry for Reina, it seems like while all of this is hapenning she is all alone and no one is helping her recover or consider forgiving maki. But is Maki sorry for what happened? I mean if she does get a second chance (if that is what she wants) will she be faithfull? Will she stand by Reina and come home to her? Or is she just sorry like "Im sorry I did it but I dont wanna be with you anymore" sorry? I wanna know if Reina forgives her, will she do everything in her power to keep her? Will she fight for her? Or will she start the same thing again?
I hope they all get together.. Looking forward to that and the perv chapters *feeds perv cookies* (why must I always do that? XD Oh well, the perv section has been neglected lately and lets face it, it's not like theres a lot of reading material there.....)
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wow reading this chapter was like being on a roller coaster. XD+ :wub:--> :cry:--> :inlove:
lol I love Eri's brain...it's so cute! I was totally all smiles throughout that whole part! Sayu +1 million points ! :heart:
after that I had a hard time transitioning to the next section...took a couple of sentences before my smile disappeared but good thing there's a sign of hope! oh oh and the ending! I have to really hand it to you, Kameshige are irresistible but you make AiGaki sooo adorable! :shy1:
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Sorry about the long delay! :mon whimper: Been busy with work and settling things for moving out.
On to replies to comments!
Well I loved Kame's thought process :hiakhiakhiak: ... i loved even more that Sayumi was the aggressor in that pairing :mon thumb: didnt realy expect it but makes mucho sense.
Loved Maki's tough love with Aya because she needed to hear that step 1 in fixing AyaxMiki YAY :muffin:
And of course loved the takagaki moment as you can tell from my name hehe im a fan :shy1:
Hehe, I always have fun writing Kame-chan's thoughts. I can just imagine all the random stuff that floats around in her brain! XD Speaking of Takagaki... I'm starting to love the pair more and more :wub:
But Kame-chan, you look so cute in that color! :wub: Damn Maki! How come you can solve everyone else's problems but your own!? :sweatdrop: But Takagaki was absolute :wub: Love doki doki Gaki!
It just seems like a Maki thing to do... well angsty Maki anyways... or maybe that's just how I see her, hehe :sweatdrop:
OMGASS, SAYU MADE THE FIRST MOVE!!! :wriggly:
I guess I can see Maki's point. Considering that Aya and Miki weren't involved at the time of the incident like Maki was with Reina, they should still be able to be around each other at least on a "best friend" level (that is, after all, what they are, first and foremost). And right now, Miki could probably use her best friend more than she could use a GF. :yep:
Awwwwwwwwwwwww...Aichan slept over? :oops: The fact that she was latching onto Risa could be a sign that her feelings really do run deeper than she's been able to acknowledge so far. And hey, it's a start. :D
OMGASS indeed! Nice job on pointing out that Miki could do with a friend more than anything right now :) I think before she can overcome anything else, she needs support to help her through.
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww such a cute chapter!
Firstly (because its how it started) the Turtle Rabbit moment! Sooo cute! Funny how Kame was having those naughty thoughts and feeling guilty for it and Sayu picked up on that or had her own naughty thoughts and ended up making Eri blush some more if you catch my drift! lol
Then the saaaaaaaaad bit! Maki and Aya. I thought it wasn't that bit anymore and maybe it was Maki at Reina's place. Then as I read on I thought Miki at Aya's place. Then I realised Maki was at Aya's still helping her out a bit. Poor MIki.... at least Aya had a motivational speaker. And she didn't really do anything wrong. I mean, sure she slept with Maki but from her POV that shouldn't affect Aya at all.
She must think her friend hates her because she is gay or something. She probably thinks Aya hates her for what she did, but little does she know that Aya is angry at who she did it with ;)
I think they will get together by the end. Afterall they are the biggest drama queens in stories but they are always together when they are supposed to be. I guess what I am trying to say is I am being optimistic about this (shocker, I know) and hoping that they can get back together. Because at that point they weren't going out so she didn't cheat, she didn't do anything to Aya so she should totally be forgiven.
I hope Miki goes to see her after Maki leaves and does soemthing totally romantic and Aya forgives her and they have the rabu rabu (in other words PERV CHAPTER WOOOHOO! lolXDjks)
And the last bit! Awww~oh! So sweet. It's so heartwarming to know that Ai thinks of Risa even in her sleep and she wants to be with her. I think there is something holding her back from being with her like fear, and she just holds back to protect Risa from something. It seems like she really wants her and is just trying to protect her or something.
It was so sweet that Ai was holding her like a baby holds its favourite possession while she slept. I got this mental image that was sooo sweet!~
I was actually gonna write something like it. It reminds me of one or two of my dreams except they're with diferent people. lol
Great job once more, I loved it and hope everyone gets together and that you post again soon!
Btw, I also feel sorry for Reina, it seems like while all of this is hapenning she is all alone and no one is helping her recover or consider forgiving maki. But is Maki sorry for what happened? I mean if she does get a second chance (if that is what she wants) will she be faithfull? Will she stand by Reina and come home to her? Or is she just sorry like "Im sorry I did it but I dont wanna be with you anymore" sorry? I wanna know if Reina forgives her, will she do everything in her power to keep her? Will she fight for her? Or will she start the same thing again?
I hope they all get together.. Looking forward to that and the perv chapters *feeds perv cookies* (why must I always do that? XD Oh well, the perv section has been neglected lately and lets face it, it's not like theres a lot of reading material there.....)
Don't forget that Reina has Eri to lean on here. Even if Eri is off doing stuff with Sayu, she's always been there when Reina needed her.
wow reading this chapter was like being on a roller coaster. XD+ :wub:--> :cry:--> :inlove:
lol I love Eri's brain...it's so cute! I was totally all smiles throughout that whole part! Sayu +1 million points ! :heart:
after that I had a hard time transitioning to the next section...took a couple of sentences before my smile disappeared but good thing there's a sign of hope! oh oh and the ending! I have to really hand it to you, Kameshige are irresistible but you make AiGaki sooo adorable! :shy1:
Yay for loving Eri's brain! XD :lol: I think I just have too much fun with what I think she thinks :P
Thanks for reading again everyone! Next part coming right up!
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Part 9
I never thought that I would be waking up like this… limbs sprawled all over you… latching onto you like a koala does to a tree. It surprised me, to say the least. I didn’t think I was capable of doing something like that while basically unconscious. When the alarm clock went off, I went into a silent panic, fearing having to face you. As I wordlessly moved away and headed to the bathroom, I heard you sigh. It was a sigh of defeat. I wish you hadn’t. It made me desperately want to turn around and throw my arms around you. But I didn’t. I didn’t even greet you… I didn’t even look at you… because I was scared of what I would see.
I don’t know if I’m ready for this. Aren’t I supposed to be the leader? The one that keeps her group in perfect harmony? The one that gets close enough, but not so close as to become too involved? I didn’t know anymore. I want to be close to you. I want to give everything I have to you. You had made it clear on several occasions that that was exactly what you wanted from me.
Then why am I so afraid? What am I afraid of?
I groan in frustration as I slowly turn the shower off. When I finally emerged from the bathroom, I looked up to find you wistfully sitting on the edge of the bed, lost in thought.
Are you thinking about me?
“Morning,” I tried carefully. You snap out of your little world and focus your eyes on me.
“Morning.”
“You should get ready… we have to leave soon,” I said, duty taking over me. I mentally smack myself. Why do I always end up saying things like that?
“Um… yeah, ok.”
You begin heading towards the bathroom, picking up your towel along the way. All I can do is silently observe, the internal battle within me raging viciously. Suddenly you come to a halt. As you turn around I quickly look away, embarrassed about the thought of being caught red handed watching you.
“Do you always have to do that?” you ask me, your voice showing annoyance. I blink. I honestly don’t know what you’re talking about.
“Do what?”
“You always put work before our friendship… before our relationship… before us,” you say quietly, avoiding looking directly at me. The world spins before my eyes. That’s not what I was doing! I was thinking about you the entire time! I just don’t know how to say it…
“Gaki-san…” I begin, trying to come up with something. No further words seemed to want to sprout from my mouth. You looked at me critically a moment longer, the hurt in your eyes evident. Eventually, you turned on your heel and loudly close the bathroom door behind you.
I don’t know what to do.
But I realise now…
I don’t know how to be with you.
*****
“How are you holding up?”
“I hate her.”
“We both know that’s not true.”
“Who’s side are you on?”
Eri sighed at the sudden defensiveness as she gently laid a hand on Reina’s forearm.
“You know that’s not how I meant it.
The young yankii leaned back, momentarily closing her eyes.
“I know. I’m sorry,” she apoligised, reopening her eyes.
“It’s okay. Just you know… don’t go around getting all yankii on our management… or Miki for that matter,” Eri said, recalling how Miki had viciously twisted her arm backwards in an angry rampage. Miki sure seemed to be around a lot for someone who had resigned Morning Musume in the fashion that she had. It didn’t help that she seemed to be in a bad mood recently, taking it out on anything and anyone in her path. Eri shuddered involuntarily again at the thought.
Reina opened her mouth to reply when she head a door being thrown open nearby. The teenager almost shrugged it off until she heard a very familiar voice.
“…seen Reina, have you? …uhuh… ok thanks!”
She tensed as she heard footsteps approaching her change room. Eri gave her a nervous glance, which Reina returned, holding her breath. Reina prayed with all her might that the owner of the voice wouldn’t come looking for her here. She could feel her insides already churning in protest.
“Eri, what should I do?” Reina asked in a small voice, her vulnerability present in the way her words trembled.
“Maybe…” Eri thought for a moment. “Reina-chan… maybe this is what you really need… both of you.”
No sooner had the words left her mouth, the door violently swung open, causing the girls to jump at the ruckus. Eri had a flash of déjà vu where Miki had been the perpetrator. However this time, one very worn looking, very tired sounding Goto Maki stood in the doorway, leaning on it for support.
“Kame-chan, Sayu wants you.”
Eri blushed at the several innuendoes. Reina, despite her situation, raised an eyebrow at the shy girl.
“I’ll explain later! Anyway… uh… I’ll go see Sayu now. I’ll call you later!”
And with that, Eri had rushed out. Reina’s features were overcome by instant panic, as well as an impending rush of anger. She didn’t want to deal with this, as much as she needed to. She didn’t want to face the girl that stole her heart then broke it. She just wanted to forget about it all, forget all her pain.
Reina was just about ready to run out of the room, when Maki spoke up.
“Just give me a few minutes. Please…” Maki begged, sounding on the verge of a serious breakdown.
The younger idol didn’t want to listen. She was sure that if she did… as infuriated as she was, she would certainly find some way to forgive the soloist. Her chest yanked in different directions, stifling any words that tried to formulate inside her mouth.
“I – I think you should leave,” Reina whispered, unable to meet Maki’s eyes.
“Please Reina, just listen!”
The younger girl could only stare back in response. The rage that had been rapidly increasing until a moment ago seemed to deteriorate at the mere sound of Maki’s voice.
“Reina-chan… you don’t deserve this…”
*****
The Leader of the pack unsmilingly stood tall, her stance was one that demanded complete silence and attention. She calmly made sure to look every single member in the eye, holding their gaze for a second or two communicating hidden messages such as “Try not to injure yourself during rehearsal again” and “I hope to see you performing at top notch this time.” However when her eyes fell upon her second in command, her mind malfunctioned, immediately shutting itself down and going into extreme meltdown. After another second her brain rebooted itself, and the first thought it directed at said Sub Leader was “God, you’re so beautiful!”
Ai struggled to keep her facial expression neutral, despite the immediate rush of colour she felt covering her cheeks. The other members awaited their next orders. Risa coughed and tore her eyes away from her beloved leader.
It had been several weeks since Risa had woken up that morning with Ai’s various body parts draped over her. And since then, it had occurred almost every time they had shared the same bed. It became a cycle that never progressed, both never saying a word to each other upon waking up… both wanting more yet unable to vocalise the desire. By now, both girls urgently wanted to make progress but just ended up becoming awkward when it got anywhere near to making headway.
“Uh… well if that’s all Ai-chan has to say, I think we can start warming up. Right, Ai-chan?”
“What? Um – uh – yeah. Warm up!” Ai made a hasty, yet shoddy recovery.
The girls murmurs began as they broke off into private groups to begin stretching for dance rehearsal. Risa took hold of Ai’s sleeve, pulling her along until they were as far away from the other members as possible.
“You have to stop doing that!”
“What?!”
“Spacing out when you’re supposed to be leading us!”
“I can’t help it…”
“Why not?”
“Um…”
Ai quickly averted her gaze, finding hard to admit the truth. Risa shuffled closer to Ai, curiously peering at her pink tinted cheeks and suddenly realizing what exactly was bothering her Leader. She knew it wasn’t very nice, but she felt an urge to tease the older girl a little.
“Am I too… distracting…?” Risa’s lowered voice beside Ai’s ear made the girl shiver involuntarily. When Risa firmly placed a hand on her waist, giving it a suggestive squeeze, Ai all but jumped out of her skin.
“Gaki-san!” Ai hissed as quietly as she could manage in her state of distress/sensory overload. She was sure that all the flirting that Risa had been subjecting her to would drive her insane… in a very hormonal sense. And they hadn’t even kissed yet. Kiss?
Ai’s eyes immediately focused on Risa’s lips, the gloss shining in the studio light. She watched as they slowly moved closer… But who was doing the moving, herself or Risa? She didn’t care because they sure as hell weren’t getting farther away and that’s all she cared about at that moment.
“Ahem.”
Risa’s lips had become stationary. Ai frowned at this. With difficulty Ai removed her concentrated stare on her best friend’s lips to peer over her shoulder instead. Eri stood with a sly grin thrown across her features.
“As much as you two might enjoy publicly having mental sex with each other, I suggest you save it for later when you can skip the mental part.” Ai and Risa turned deep shades of crimson at the sheer thought of it. “Because Koharu just asked me whether or not you can catch ‘being a lesbian’, as she so kindly put it.” The two girls jaws dropped and hit the floor in an unflattering manner. With that, Eri returned to the other side of the room to continue stretching with Sayu.
“That was… interesting…” Ai finally breathed out, breaking the minute long silence. Risa continued not saying a word as they began their warm ups. Finally, she found it in her to blurt out what was on her mind.
“Hey Ai-chan?”
“Yeah?”
“Maybe we can try that later…”
“Try what?”
“You know…”
“…?”
“Skipping the mental part.”
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YAY your back :cow:
poor Reina n maki I have a feeling this is headed towards a break up :mon cute: but once again loved the takagaki :heart: :heart: :heart: so YAY to the sexual tension :cow: and the suggestion for them to "skip the mental part" :mon lovelaff: .... oh and um koharu's comment on whether or not you can catch being a lesbian priceless :wahaha:
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I don’t know what to do.
But I realise now…
I don’t know how to be with you.
:cry:
Goto Maki stood in the doorway, leaning on it for support.
“Kame-chan, Sayu wants you.”
Eri blushed at the several innuendoes. Reina, despite her situation, raised an eyebrow at the shy girl.
“I’ll explain later! Anyway… uh… I’ll go see Sayu now. I’ll call you later!”
INNUENDOES FTW! :rockon:
It had been several weeks since Risa had woken up that morning with Ai’s various body parts draped over her. And since then, it had occurred almost every time they had shared the same bed. It became a cycle that never progressed, both never saying a word to each other upon waking up… both wanting more yet unable to vocalise the desire. By now, both girls urgently wanted to make progress but just ended up becoming awkward when it got anywhere near to making headway.
:frustrated:
“You have to stop doing that!”
“What?!”
“Spacing out when you’re supposed to be leading us!”
“I can’t help it…”
“Why not?”
“Um…”
BECAUSE SHE RABURABU'S YOU, YOU TWIT!
:mon blowhorn:
“As much as you two might enjoy publicly having mental sex with each other, I suggest you save it for later when you can skip the mental part.” Ai and Risa turned deep shades of crimson at the sheer thought of it.
Hot dayum. :twisted:
“Because Koharu just asked me whether or not you can catch ‘being a lesbian’, as she so kindly put it.” The two girls jaws dropped and hit the floor in an unflattering manner.
Eri = :mon psst:
Aichan/Risa = :shock: :shock:
JFC = :wahaha:
“Hey Ai-chan?”
“Yeah?”
“Maybe we can try that later…”
“Try what?”
“You know…”
“…?”
“Skipping the mental part.”
It's about time one of them took the first step. :yep:
FOOOK YEAH!!! :drool: :hump: :cow:
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I've just read through everything. Why did I not see this fic before???
Reading it made me really upset at parts. Poor Reina, I feel so sorry for her. Even though Maki was a bitch for doing the dirty on her, I hope they get back together.
Eri and Risa being friends with 'extra's' was funny, but I'm glad that they've gone after the people they want to be with. I'm loving the tension between Ai and Risa too. I can't get enough of TakaGaki at the minute.
Thank you
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Ai/Risa= :shocked: :drool:
Eri/Sayumi= :shy2: :glasses:
Reina/Maki= :frustrated: :'( :mon waterworks:
nuff said
P.S. Love your story
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Damn it, Ai-chan! You need to man up and take your girl! XD But Reina and Maki..... :cry: At least it seems like they're making progress. Maki knows what she's doing to Reina is ruining her(Reina) as a person. Now Reina just needs to let her in. I hope they make it through this. if they do, I kinda expect some hot makeup sex. :mon misch: YESSSS! Gaki-san's being pervy! They're gonna do it!!!! XD at Eri's mental sex comment. And poor Koharu thinks you can catch lesbianism!!!! :on lol:
edit: You get my 250th post! 8)
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I just need to say.... I love this fic!! :cow: :cow:
There are good pairings but your TakaGaki is the most!! Seriously, :heart: :heart: . Gaki being perv is hot. :shocked:
I almost died laughing at Eri's comment haha
I'll be waiting :wriggly:
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awwwwwwww sweet chapter! I almost cried and rofled in one chapter, that is a great accomplishment!! awww takagaki is so sweet~!
I love how poor Ai realised she wants Risa and that the only thing keeping her back is the fact that she doesn't know how to be with her... poor Ai, if only she knew Risa knows a thing or two about that.
Eri and Sayu are cute! Poor Eri is the one with experience yet she is the shy one XD Sooo sweet!
Maki is finally gonna get to talk to Reina but it looks like she wont be asking her back, she will be telling her to move on with her own life... that would suck! I want them to get together, they should! Even though Maki doesn't deserve to be with her (although I think she does) she should be with her for Reina's sake! I mean, Reina was great to her, and never did wrong, so she should get to be with her because she loves her and Maki can make her hapy, and think she deserves to be happy.
And Aya and Miki <3 At least they sort of know they have feelings for each other now. I hope they can mend their relationship and be together. I really do. I hope that they get to be together because they really should. They deserve to be happy and technically they weren't dating in the first pplace, Aya should have just told her she had feelings for her before making her feel like a monster because she thought that Aya hated her for what she did to Maki when she was hurt that she had sexx with Maki and not her......
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YAY~
<3
lol at eri's MENTAL SEX.. :lol: XD XD
ohh.. gaki-san an ai-chan skipping the mental part..XD
and i cnt wait for reina and maki... :(
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Ooooook... so it looks like I've evolved into an even BIGGER Takagaki fan since this fic has more parts involving them than Reina/Maki :roll:
Part 10
“I had lots of fun.”
“Yeah, me too.”
“So um, I guess I’ll see you around…”
The young girl sniffed, beginning to get emotional as the strings on her heart tugged.
“You idiot!”
“What?!”
“It’s not like we’ll never see each other again or anything! Save getting emotional for that horny rabbit you managed to snag for yourself!”
“Hey! Just because she likes to do stuff… a lot…”
Risa and Eri glared at each other for half a second before bursting out in heart-warming laughter. The two had avoided discussing their involvement with each other for way too long, and had finally decided to talk it over, drawing that particular chapter of their lives to a close.
“So… how are you and Ai-chan going?” Eri slyly asked, knowing full well that Ai-chan was a little bit of a late bloomer. Risa’s cheeks turned a faint pink shade.
“Well… it’s going along nicely,” Risa replied methodically. She wasn’t really sure what part of her and Ai’s strangely innocent relationship was going along “nicely”, but she had become so… fluffed up by Ai-chan that absolutely everything about it seemed “nice”.
“Okay Gaki-san, wipe that drool off your chin because it’s a little too gross,” Eri smirked at her friend getting lost in her thoughts concerning a certain leader.
“I miss her,” Risa stated blankly. Eri snorted.
“You’re so whipped!”
“So are you!!”
Koharu had chosen this moment to appear out of nowhere, curiously watching her seniors before inserting herself in to the conversation.
“What does whipped mean?”
*****
“Aya, I know that – that I really screwed up. I know that Reina didn’t deserve that. I know it’s my entire fault. But… but…”
But I’m in love with you! Miki’s mind screamed.
She had come to Aya’s apartment in the hopes of clearing everything up. She had been feeling like dirt for a very long time, and had finally decided to do something about it. Aya stood unmoving, showing no emotion towards anything that she had just heard coming out of Miki’s mouth.
“Aya…”
“Do you know why I was so pissed off? Do you know why it upset me so much?”
“Because I hurt someone else in the process…?” Miki tried. She wasn’t so sure about anything anymore. She didn’t understand Aya’s reactions that day… she couldn’t grasp why Aya seemed so hurt.
“Baka.”
“Sorry.”
Miki looked down at her feet. She felt like a little kid getting scolded.
“Do you know how much I love you?”
“But I don’t deserve it.”
“Listen to me – I love you.”
Realisation dawned on Miki’s eyes. She felt a million emotions at once. Anger, because Aya deserved so much more. Happiness, because Aya felt exactly how Miki felt. Fear, because she didn’t know what would happen after this. She came to one final conclusion, finally finding her voice.
“But I can’t be trusted,” Miki barely whispered.
The two girls that shared a uniquely robust bond stared each other down for what seemed like eternity, neither willing to show emotion or thought to the other.
“You can learn to be trustworthy... you were halfway there until recently…” Aya quietly said, breaking the stillness in the air.
“But Aya-chan…” Miki pleaded. She wasn’t really sure what she was pleading about… Miki just couldn’t wrap her head around Aya being so calm and rational through out the entire conversation.
“And… I could learn to trust you…”
*****
“Whatever happens, I’ll still be your best friend!”
“Really?”
“Yep!”
“Do you mean it?”
“Of course I mean it, silly!”
Ai snapped out of her flashback, remembering when she had to call off a day out with Risa because her mother suddenly decided that they needed some “family time” together. That was when they had only been apart of Morning Musume for a mere five months. She remembered how angry and upset Risa had been. They didn’t talk to each other for an entire week. When it all finally blew over, Risa had told her those words.
“I’ll still be your best friend!”
Ai smiled to herself. How could she have been so afraid of losing her best friend when Risa had made that promise with her entire heart? How could she have forgotten about it?
She gazed down at the peacefully sleeping form that lay in her bed. Risa had been exhausted from their intense dance rehearsal, promptly falling asleep upon returning to Ai’s apartment. As the Leader watched Risa, she was filled with warmth. She reached over to brush all the stray hair away from Risa’s face, smiling at how Risa’s brow slightly furrowed at the contact.
Eventually Risa stirred and awoke from her sleep.
“Hey there, sleepy head.”
“Mmph?... Sorry for falling asleep!” Risa immediately became alert due to realizing her situation. Ai could only smile in return at the younger girl’s immediate panic.
“It’s okay. You looked cute when you were sleeping,” Ai said, the words slipping out before she could stop them. Both girls blushed. Ai, gathering her courage moved from her chair and sat closely beside Risa on the bed. Risa couldn’t help but smile fondly at Ai’s impulsive newly found bravery and immediately snuggled her head onto the older girl’s lap.
“You know… you don’t have to wait until you’re asleep to do things like this…” Risa gently told Ai, gazing encouragingly into the Leader’s eyes. The young woman said nothing… to be more accurate, she wasn’t sure how to respond, a troubled look appearing on her features. After a moment Risa sat up and wrapped her arms around Ai’s waist.
“Gaki-san…” Ai breathed, her head swimming with a sort of pleasant dizziness. Risa lay her head on Ai’s shoulder, comfortably leaning her body against Ai’s.
“Ai-chan, you remember, don’t you?”
“Remember what?”
Risa raised her head so that she could look Ai in the eyes. She peered curiously, wondering if Ai still remembered the first time they fought… the first time that Risa had declared herself to eternal “best-friendship” with her beloved Ai-chan.
“Whatever happens, I’ll still be your best friend.”
That was all the encouragement that Ai needed. She knew that she didn’t have to be afraid of showing her affection towards Risa. She wanted with her entire being to be connected in every possible sense to the younger, bubbly girl. A smile full of affection found its way to Ai’s lips, as her eyes glistened with relief. Risa immediately understood and she leaned forward.
As Risa gently claimed the moment, the feeling, that she had been waiting for, she felt her heart dance with indescribable ecstasy as Ai met her perfectly halfway, completing their first real moment of intimacy together.
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Ahhhhhhhh!!! Ai-chan finally gave in and accepted Gaki! :wub: :wub: :heart: :heart:
Oh, we don't mind all the extra TakaGaki at all, please write more :D XD :P
Love your fic goosefish! :muffin:
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Yay. Ai's overcoming her fear.
The more TakaGaki the better I say. I :heart: them two
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“I miss her,” Risa stated blankly. Eri snorted.
“You’re so whipped!”
“So are you!!”
Koharu had chosen this moment to appear out of nowhere, curiously watching her seniors before inserting herself in to the conversation.
“What does whipped mean?”
Oh poor Koharu. One way or the other she's going to be learning about all this. :lol:
Miki looked down at her feet. She felt like a little kid getting scolded.
“Do you know how much I love you?”
“But I don’t deserve it.”
“Listen to me – I love you.”
Realisation dawned on Miki’s eyes.
Well, if Miki didn't feel bad enough for what she did before, she will now. :cry:
She felt a million emotions at once. Anger, because Aya deserved so much more. Happiness, because Aya felt exactly how Miki felt. Fear, because she didn’t know what would happen after this. She came to one final conclusion, finally finding her voice.
“But I can’t be trusted,” Miki barely whispered.
Not having the trust of others is bad enough, but this is really sad because it shows that Miki doesn't trust herself. And it probably doesn't help Miki feel better that Aya says that she wants to be able to trust her. :cry:
TakaGaki...:wriggly:
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yay!
finally!
TakaGaki :cow:
i wnder wat happened to reina and maki.
cant wait~
ganbare~ O0
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Ah that chapter was just perfect!
It had goofy turtle talk..which I just love! and so much TakaGaki love :wub: :wub:
even the Aya Miki part was :wub:
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awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey TAKAGAKI!!!!!!!!! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAM RABU RABURABURABURABURABURABURBAURBAURABURABU!!!!!!!!!
I LOOOOOOOVE YOU! TYTYTYTYTYTYTYTYTY FOR THIS GREAT CHAPTER AND TYTYTYTYTY FOR GETTING THEM TOGETHER AND ILL TYTYTYTYTY MORE IF YOU KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK.
lol, ill also tytytyttyty a lot if you make a perv of this ;) mwah! luv you goosbomb
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Oh dearest Gooseyfishy, who I love you soooo~! Not only do I get Reina/Maki love and angst with you, but now lots of sweet TakaGaki moments... Don't stop writing this pair puhlease~! As you have found out recently, they arevery addictive and we all need our fix... And yeah, Reina and Maki need to talk, don't forget them ;) :P
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Ooooook... so it looks like I've evolved into an even BIGGER Takagaki fan since this fic has more parts involving them than Reina/Maki
hehe of course how could anyone not be a takagaki fan :wub:
... moving on sooo I thought I had already read this but never commented so i go back and realize that i was suppose to remember to read this because i was way to tired before... but never did :banghead: Argh im so forgetfull sometimes...
but I love this :tama-laff: Miki and Ayaya getting together... the takagaki seems like all the couples are being resolved so... come on Reina x Maki reconciliation i really hope they don't break up
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Goosey dear, where are you... I'm having withdrawals :cry: :P :heart:
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Hello folks! :cow:
Sorry I haven't been around much lately. I'm currently on holiday in Singapore for roughyl two weeks 8)
Just wanted to say thankyou all for reading again, and all your comments are appreciated and keep me going! :oops: :wub: Right now I'm a little bit torn about what kind of direction I want to take Aya and Miki in... I think I can say the same about Reina and Maki. I guess I could use my spare time to think about that, hehe :sweatdrop: I'm starting to feel like I'm going around in circles with this fic, and it just doesn't seem to be leading anywhere in particular :banghead: Hehe, maybe this little holiday is just what I need to refresh myself and come up with some new ideas 8) Wish me luck! I strive on all the support you give me! :)
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HELLO! Hopefully everyone hasn't disappeared and given up on this thread yet! I've come bearing a one-shot (maybe two-shot?!). The pairing is one that I don't think I've seen around before... very unconventional pair. Honestly... I don't know what got into me when I wrote it, but since I couldn't shake the idea I decided to write and post it anyway :sweatdrop: Set during the making of Cinderella\Complex. Please don't hurt me!!! :roll:
At That Age
Reina watched over her juniors as they carefully ran through the choreography together, each girl helping the other. She couldn’t shake the feeling that Saki was stealing glances at her, and refused to dismiss the feeling until she caught the Berryz leader in the act.
The three girls paused, Maimi correcting one of Yuuka’s movements, and Saki ever so slightly turned her head in Reina’s direction. Upon realizing that said yankii was staring directly at her, she hastily turned back.
Reina smirked. She knew something odd had been going on with the small girl ever since Saki had walked in on her and Ai-chan in quite an intimate position. Well, Saki was at that age. She was old enough to know certain things about the grown up world… but maybe not old enough to have experienced them… yet.
Reina smiled mischievously upon realizing what kind of fun she could potentially have with the younger girl. She intensely observed the girls as Saki took a step forward to demonstrate a few precise steps. As Reina studied the scene before her, she became hypnotized by the sensual swing of Saki’s hips. God, the girl could move, and it appeared that the teen in question was well aware of this. Each time Saki glanced over her shoulder and caught Reina’s eye, she was practically begging her sempai for something… and Reina knew the perfect way to test the waters.
The wonky-eyed teen smoothly stalked up to Ai-chan. The Momusu leader had her back to Reina as she was also watching the younger girls rehearse. Waiting until Saki dared another peek, she held her gaze and slowly slung her arm over Ai’s shoulder from behind. Placing her mouth dangerously close to Ai’s ear, she muttered something that was inaudible to those around the two girls.
Saki watched as Ai’s lips curled into a shy smile and her cheeks became tinged with pink. Reina continued to hold Saki’s gaze, and as she snaked her other hand around Ai’s waist, she swore she could almost see a small bead of sweat slide down the Captain’s cheek. Saki flushed, and in an attempt to tear her eyes away from what she believed was a walking, flirting temptation, she succeeded only in awkwardly turning her feet away.
Reina brought her lips in to graze Ai-chan’s cheek in a painfully teasing manner, causing the older girl to shudder in her arms. Saki ever so slightly licked her lips and Reina smirked in that obnoxious, cocky way of hers, feeling satisfied that she had just won her silent and somewhat unfair battle with the innocent Captain.
Saki’s definitely at that age.
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Why is that when ReinAi pops up, I can't resist commenting? I'm glad I looked in here! :D
Oh, I noticed the Captain/Reina interplay too. Did anyone see the Maimi/Ai too? *cough* XD
Definitely looking forward to the part 2. There has to be a part 2. XD
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Omgsh! I love it! The way Reina teased Captain was :wub: I wonder, does Ai know that Reina was teasing Captain? or were they both somewhat victims? :D Glad to see an update from you goosefish! Maybe you'll add some Maimi-chan in the possible part 2? :w00t:
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yes, there definitely has to have part two.. XD
naughty Reina.. :rofl:
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Reina's such a tease! XD We need to find out what she was telling Ai-chan!
I realized I didn't comment on part 10. So I will. Man, Gaki is whipped! And I guess Sayu and Eri are quite........active. XD Poor Koha, she may be getting more info than she bargined for! Aww, GAM! :( and :D Hope they become happy too! First kiss! So cute! :inlove:
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Loved the one-shot!
Yeah, different pairing, but very well written. I would love to see a part 2 of this (and it would be awesome if Maimi's included) :grin:
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lol playful Reina is so ebil..trying to further corrupt the youngling's brain XD Poor Saki but lucky Ai chan...maybe once Ai chan finds out what Reina's up to...she'll also join in on the teasing..that would make for an awesome part 2 :lol:
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Corrupting younglings is major fun. :yep: :lol:
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Estrea: coz ReinAi is absolutely irresistable?? Then again... so is Takagaki... :wub: Maimi/Ai?? *thinks hard* The only thing I can come up with that looked remotely Maimi/Ai would probably be the Haromoni perf... or it could just be my wild imagination running away with me since that was probably non-existen in the real world XD
O..........kay..... it seems that everyone has just gone and demanded a Part 2 involving Maimi... :sweatdrop: Hmm... I'm thinking about how I could pull that off, but nothing has come to mind yet :banghead: Honestly, I really only had this as a one-shot, but if something comes to mind for a second part, I'll be sure to write and post it!! :roll:
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So.... I have returned with another one-shot. Here y'all go! 8)
Menthol
“Reina!”
You scold me when I accidentally spilt my drink. I guess all that time helping out at your mother’s izakaya really did something to your waitress instincts.
“Sorry!”
We hastily wipe at the liquid until it disappeared, tossing the used napkins onto an empty plate. Smirking, you lean in closer to me, your fingers gently grazing my cheek as you spoke.
“You’re a little clumsy tonight, aren’t you?”
Your breath hit me like a speeding train, immediately trapping me and intoxicating all my senses. It’s exactly the same as it’s been since you picked up smoking; Seven Star Menthol Lights.
Every time I was near enough, that’s all I could smell. That same brand of cigarettes. I can’t count the number of times I wanted to taste it on your lips, almost losing control, almost leaning in to kiss you. Maybe you’ve noticed, because you’re being one hell of a flirt tonight.
“Only because I’m distracted by you,” I manage to wheeze back, testing the waters for your reaction. You smirk and reach out a hand to straighten out my top, your hand lingering near my collarbone a moment longer than necessary.
You order our next round of drinks and as we wait for our next dish to be served, you light up another cigarette. I couldn’t take my eyes off of it, off of your hands. The grace you possessed evident in the way you held the white cylindrical addiction. You catch me staring and slide the box to me.
The only reason I ever smoked was to feel closer to you… to try and feel more connected to you… to try and stand anywhere near the same plane of existence as you… We were never really close before you left. That one night you found me… the one night when I really needed someone to help me pick up the pieces… you gave me a cigarette, set me straight and stuck by me ever since. I never questioned it... I merely accepted it… accepted your presence, unwilling to leave me alone.
It’s been three years since you joined Avex. You made it bigger than any of us still stuck in Hello!Project could ever dream. You were every where; billboards, radio, commercials, magazines. Goto Maki became a powerhouse singer that Japan couldn’t seem to get enough of. And despite all of that, despite how busy you always were… you never failed to make time for me.
Every time we met, we would become caught in a dangerously tangled web of flirtation, albeit one that would never actually amount to anything. You would lean in to whisper things into my ear, paralyzing me with the heat of your breath. Placing a hand firmly on my waist you would draw me in closer, as if I was too far away to hear you.
I open the box and pulled out a cigarette for myself. Just as I was about to reach for your lighter you swiftly pick it up and light it for me. Those eyes; now half lidded and gazing at me with a look that seemed to suggest that you would take me right at this very moment. As soon as you reach over to brush some stray locks away from my eyes I could feel the butterflies dance in the very pit of my stomach. Only you could make them dance in such a way that brought me higher than any drug.
I inhale deeply, letting my eyes completely close as I take in the smoke and keep it there. As I turn my head to face you, I open my eyes and gently exhale the smoke, shrouding you in its haze. You only continue peering at me as if you planned to do it for the rest of eternity.
“You still haven’t said anything to her, have you?” you question, head tilted back in a languid manner, eyes already accusing me of something I’d been to afraid to do for way too long.
“You know why I haven’t,” I reply, briefly wondering why you bothered to bring her up.
“Just because she has someone at the moment, it doesn’t mean that she isn’t thinking of a different person.”
And just like that I suddenly remembered who it was I really wanted. Yes, I was here with you. Yes, we seemed to be incredibly drawn to each other. But I’m not even sure what it is that I want so much from you… or why, for that matter. Is it possible to fall in love with somebody when you never fell out of love with somebody else?
“But…”
I trail off, losing sight of what I thought I wanted as I watched you knock back half of your beer. Your eyes meet mine and I don’t know who it is I want more; the girl who I think is the love of my life, or the woman who seems to understand me more than any other being on this planet?
You lean over to me, placing a warm hand on my cheek and drawing me closer until I can feel the world come to a halt, and all I can smell is the menthol smoke you’re exhaling against me.
“If neither of you are willing to do anything, I won’t hesitate to take you for myself.”
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This was hot! I can totally imagine Gocchin like that. I think she and Reina do have some kind of connection. But I wonder who this other girl is. I'm leaning towards Eri, Sayu or Ai-chan. Maybe not Sayu but the other two seem logical to me. I think Gocchin seems so damn hot!!! I think I'd pick her, fo sho! :grin:
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GOTO!~ :wub: :wub:
so who's the other girl XD
but hell yeahz! take her Maki.. XD
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I was worried when I saw the title.
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Couldn't continue after reaching the 6th line.
I'm pretty sure it's the first time I've left any fic chapter unfinished. Too bad, it had potential.
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Cool, Reina and Gocchin! :inlove:
So this is like set after 3 years from now huh? I wonder who the other girl is. Eri? Risa? :D
“If neither of you are willing to do anything, I won’t hesitate to take you for myself.”
Go and take her Gocchin! Go!
Whats with the smokes though? :(
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IEch amnsdeuwfncf23rqi*(qw BJH1 AHhhhhh!
Basically you made me all flabbergasted then... I usually hate smoking and thus I never understood why I found smoking Maki so hot and when you portray her like that it just makes me want to faint from her coolness even more :imdead:
Reina, I don't care who the other girl is, she is unimportant right now, go for the Gocchin, pleeeease! I want a part 2 of this one :P
:lol: This just goes so well with Reina saying in that Chinese interview that Maki likes her a lot, glad to know this is what she meant ;)
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This was hot! I can totally imagine Gocchin like that. I think she and Reina do have some kind of connection. But I wonder who this other girl is. I'm leaning towards Eri, Sayu or Ai-chan. Maybe not Sayu but the other two seem logical to me. I think Gocchin seems so damn hot!!! I think I'd pick her, fo sho! :grin:
Hehe, Maki being the sexy thing she is, I wouldn't be surprised if Reina suddenly decided to go for her despite her feelings for someone else.
GOTO!~ :wub: :wub:
so who's the other girl XD
but hell yeahz! take her Maki.. XD
The other girl... I don't know really :sweatdrop: I like to think of the other girl as either Eri or Ai-chan, but it's really open to whoever takes your fancy.
I was worried when I saw the title.
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Couldn't continue after reaching the 6th line.
I'm pretty sure it's the first time I've left any fic chapter unfinished. Too bad, it had potential.
Ooops, sorry JFC. Maybe the next one will be more to your liking :sweatdrop:
Cool, Reina and Gocchin! :inlove:
So this is like set after 3 years from now huh? I wonder who the other girl is. Eri? Risa? :D
“If neither of you are willing to do anything, I won’t hesitate to take you for myself.”
Go and take her Gocchin! Go!
Whats with the smokes though? :(
I don't know. I guess the idea of the smokes was just something to work with... sortof as a setup for the story ;)
IEch amnsdeuwfncf23rqi*(qw BJH1 AHhhhhh!
Basically you made me all flabbergasted then... I usually hate smoking and thus I never understood why I found smoking Maki so hot and when you portray her like that it just makes me want to faint from her coolness even more :imdead:
Reina, I don't care who the other girl is, she is unimportant right now, go for the Gocchin, pleeeease! I want a part 2 of this one :P
:lol: This just goes so well with Reina saying in that Chinese interview that Maki likes her a lot, glad to know this is what she meant ;)
LOL! at your reaction! XD There was an interview?! I haven't seen it, you don't happen to have a youtube link or something do you :roll:
Btw, I know this is really REALLY delayed, but I was browsing the fanfic of the month nominations thread. Thanks for nominating my fic! Means a lot to me! :oops: *sooooo slooooooooow*
Oh... and this is probably even SLOWER, but love your sig *mega slooooow* :sweatdrop:
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Soooooooo, the world needs more Takagaki! :wub:
HAVE SOME TAKAGAKI ANGST!
This is written from Risa's pov.
Unspoken: That Which Drives Us Apart
Look at me, not past me.
Hold my heart, not just my hand.
Speak to the person inside of me, not just who you see before your eyes.
If you can't do these things, then you're not with me... not completely.
Was there ever a time when you were here with your entire being?
Maybe for a little while in the beginning...
Maybe for a moment...
Maybe not at all...
Because maybe it was my imagination...
I wish over and over that I could just hack into your brain and find out what really goes on up there.
Then maybe, finally, I could find out what I'm doing wrong.
I could discover what it is about me that you don't like.
Because that's the reason, right?
There's something about me that makes you unable to open up to me, right?
If I could just change that part about me... If I could somehow make myself more likeable... more trustworthy...
Then the distance between us would disappear.
Distance...
It's something that's always been between us.
Even when we claimed that we could talk about anything and everything... And we could... We can... But its just...
Is it real? Are you really letting me in? Are you not just leaving me in the guestroom? I don't think I've ever been allowed to see the master bedroom, let alone been allowed into it...
Not even once...
Is there a single soul in existence that knows you inside out? Somebody that you've told all your secrets to? All you insecurities? All your thoughts?
I can't imagine that anyone has the right to any of that...
I can't...
Because I know that person isn't me right now...
I know that if such a person did exist... if you allowed such a person to see you in your most vulnerable state...
Then I would lose my purpose.
I would lose my will to keep trying so hard for something that I can barely keep a grasp on as it is.
I would lose everything that I ever tried to salvage for us.
For us...
Have you ever done anything for us?
Have you so much as considered where I stand in all of this?
I want you to look at me when you speak.
I want you to hold my heart while you hold my hand.
I want you to speak to me when you speak to the shell of the person standing before you.
For us...
Ai-chan, have you ever looked at me?
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wow TakaGaki angst. :)
i love this.
u do knw ur supposed to reveal wats inside Ais mind :wub: XD
if u are. cnt wait for Ais POV. :D
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Woo!
The world needs moar Takagaki indeed~
-reads- :B
Yaaay~
Good ol' Takagaki angst xDDDD Or would it be bad for them? And is it bad for us to think it's good? O____O;; xD We're cruel.
Anywho~ Onto le story~! -pounce- :3
I feel so bad for poor ol' Gaki-san. Here they are, almost seven years since their debut and she still doesn't have much of an inkling of how Ai-chan's head works. And if she doesn't know how it works, then she can't blame her for acting the way she is towards her and thus, Gaki-san could only blame herself as the cause of their distant relationship D:
I can't wait til you write Aichan's view. Thanks to being around Essy-chan as her football, I know enough about Aichan's mindset to know what direction you're going to write for her point of view, and I really look forward to seeing how you're going to portray her "This is my burden and mine alone" character xD~!
GO GUUCHAN~ GO GUUCHAN~ :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart:
-pokes your hardhat- Use it well~ :heart: :heart:
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I second that! There is never enough Takagaki and so please write more, more I say X D Though I love this pairing, I still like reading about them in angsty situations. I'm evil I know : P
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Ooops, sorry JFC. Maybe the next one will be more to your liking
No need to apologize. It's not like a writer can please 100% of their readers 100% of the time. There's no way that you could have known that I'm absolutely repulsed/disgusted whenever anyone tries to make smoking appear sexy (especially considering that we all know that it's not).
Unspoken: That Which Drives Us Apart
:mon waterworks:
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Hold my heart, not just my hand.
this line really speaks to me...
thanks for the awesomeness... i loved Gaki's POV ... i hope you give us at least a glimpse of Ai's...
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I like the happy little world TakaGaki were in a few stories back but this was some good angst!
Is there a single soul in existence that knows you inside out? Somebody that you've told all your secrets to? All you insecurities? All your thoughts?
....
I know that if such a person did exist... if you allowed such a person to see you in your most vulnerable state...
Then I would lose my purpose.
ah I like this part the best...I feel that one of the charms of TakaGaki is Gaki's suppose to know Ai chan the most even if it's not everything...I can't imagine someone else taking on this role at all...
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:'( aww gaki... this was so sweet and sad I really hope you also do Ai's pov
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LOL! at your reaction! XD There was an interview?! I haven't seen it, you don't happen to have a youtube link or something do you :roll:
Btw, I know this is really REALLY delayed, but I was browsing the fanfic of the month nominations thread. Thanks for nominating my fic! Means a lot to me! :oops: *sooooo slooooooooow*
Oh... and this is probably even SLOWER, but love your sig *mega slooooow* :sweatdrop:
The interview was in Chinese and lovely Essy translated it here: http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=15581.msg491705#msg491705
No thank you for blessing us with your stories :heart: Althoguh, I didn't get a chance to vote for you fic after nominating coz I wasn't on for the three days that voting was open :lol:
And yes, mentioning the sig is even slower but thanks anyway, although you did just break their pureness with poor Gaki in Unspoken: That Which Drives Us Apart
I can relate to how Gaki feels there, she can't give Ai more than she already does and yet it seems like its still not enough :cry:
Of course she will wait and wait and wait till Ailets her in completely, but how long can one person wait and will it be too late anyway :O :(
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HI AGAIN!
I'm very sorry for pulling yet another disappearing act :kneelbow: But it's ski season here and the slopes called to me! I couldn't resist!
*coughs*
Moving on to comments!!
wow TakaGaki angst. :)
i love this.
u do knw ur supposed to reveal wats inside Ais mind :wub: XD
if u are. cnt wait for Ais POV. :D
Hehe, the inside of Ai's mind? *brain malfunctions* That's gona be one hell of a challange :O
Woo!
The world needs moar Takagaki indeed~
-reads- :B
Yaaay~
Good ol' Takagaki angst xDDDD Or would it be bad for them? And is it bad for us to think it's good? O____O;; xD We're cruel.
Anywho~ Onto le story~! -pounce- :3
I feel so bad for poor ol' Gaki-san. Here they are, almost seven years since their debut and she still doesn't have much of an inkling of how Ai-chan's head works. And if she doesn't know how it works, then she can't blame her for acting the way she is towards her and thus, Gaki-san could only blame herself as the cause of their distant relationship D:
I can't wait til you write Aichan's view. Thanks to being around Essy-chan as her football, I know enough about Aichan's mindset to know what direction you're going to write for her point of view, and I really look forward to seeing how you're going to portray her "This is my burden and mine alone" character xD~!
GO GUUCHAN~ GO GUUCHAN~ :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart:
-pokes your hardhat- Use it well~ :heart: :heart:
*hardhat shatters while trying to write Ai's POV* :bleed eyes: Lol, getting into Ai-chan's mind is like.... TOO HARD!! I've tried a few times... but I think it will take a little more time before I'm happy with it, if at all ;)
I second that! There is never enough Takagaki and so please write more, more I say X D Though I love this pairing, I still like reading about them in angsty situations. I'm evil I know : P
If you're evil, then so am I! I'm sure a fair amount of people love a bit of angst every now and then 8)
Ooops, sorry JFC. Maybe the next one will be more to your liking
No need to apologize. It's not like a writer can please 100% of their readers 100% of the time. There's no way that you could have known that I'm absolutely repulsed/disgusted whenever anyone tries to make smoking appear sexy (especially considering that we all know that it's not).
Unspoken: That Which Drives Us Apart
:mon waterworks:
Lols. Here, have tissues *throws tissues*
Hold my heart, not just my hand.
this line really speaks to me...
thanks for the awesomeness... i loved Gaki's POV ... i hope you give us at least a glimpse of Ai's...
No, thankyou for reading :D
:'( aww gaki... this was so sweet and sad I really hope you also do Ai's pov
:sweatdrop: Seems like everyone is demanding Ai's POV, hehe. I'll see what I can do about it, if it doesn't kill me first :banghead:
LOL! at your reaction! XD There was an interview?! I haven't seen it, you don't happen to have a youtube link or something do you :roll:
Btw, I know this is really REALLY delayed, but I was browsing the fanfic of the month nominations thread. Thanks for nominating my fic! Means a lot to me! :oops: *sooooo slooooooooow*
Oh... and this is probably even SLOWER, but love your sig *mega slooooow* :sweatdrop:
The interview was in Chinese and lovely Essy translated it here: http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=15581.msg491705#msg491705
No thank you for blessing us with your stories :heart: Althoguh, I didn't get a chance to vote for you fic after nominating coz I wasn't on for the three days that voting was open :lol:
And yes, mentioning the sig is even slower but thanks anyway, although you did just break their pureness with poor Gaki in Unspoken: That Which Drives Us Apart
I can relate to how Gaki feels there, she can't give Ai more than she already does and yet it seems like its still not enough :cry:
Of course she will wait and wait and wait till Ailets her in completely, but how long can one person wait and will it be too late anyway :O :(
Thanks for the link. Gota love Reina/Maki :wub:
Heh, Takagaki angst, when will you ever leave us satisfied? I think many people can relate to the feeling of being shut out by the person that they care for.
Thanks to everyone again for reading *hugs* I'll be posting something shortly!
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At That Age Part II
What am I doing?!
The voice inside of Saki’s head continued screeching at her, bringing an unsettling pounding to her head. Reina seemed to have the small girl tightly on her leash… everything the wonky-eyed girl did or said, Saki instantaneously reacted to.
When Reina directed her flirtatious actions at her, Saki could hear alarm bells ringing all around. She would be rendered defenseless, speechless, and ridiculously enchanted by the yankii’s undeniable charm.
But she’s so… hot!
Saki violently shook her head, unable to believe that she had just thought that. But what the young teenager found even more unbelievable was that she would unconsciously tease Reina back.
Because she’s hot!
Saki let out an exasperated sigh of ultimate defeat. She wouldn’t even recall her actions until after she had done them, and by then it was already too late and Reina would more or less immediately retaliate, giving the Captain the most deadly almost-nosebleeds.
The shaken Captain practically ran through the halls now, trying her best not to think of the distraction that had been taunting her all day. Slowing her pace, Saki observed a random door before hastily pushing it open. The girls had been given a thirty minute break, and Saki intended to use every minute avoiding High-King’s self proclaimed Leader.
Shutting the door behind her, Saki turned around to witness what she would consider a sort of heavenly suicide.
You’ve got to be kidding me! Of all the doors I could have chosen!
Reina had her hands propped on either side of an armchair, leaning over from the waist down. Saki stared at her legs. She stared and stared and stared until she was certain that those almost-nosebleeds would become actual nosebleeds.
Unwillingly shifting her attention, she was even more shocked to find that Reina was bending over and muttering something to one very flustered Maimi, whose eyes were scrunched tightly shut. The young Captain felt something inside of her flare… but what was it? A burning desire to aggressively grab Reina and do something to her steadily built within the tiny teen. Though the girl wasn’t exactly sure what something was…
Saki struggled to make sense of the strange thoughts bubbling through her brain cells.
“Sa – Saki-chan!” Maimi squeeked upon opening her eyes to find Saki gaping at her. The C-ute girl abruptly rose, almost knocking Reina to the floor as she sped past Saki and flew out the door, slamming it not too quietly behind her.
Reina turned her attention to the shorter girl, smirking as the tips of Saki’s ears burned dark crimson.
“Saki-chan, otsukareina,” Reina purred as she stalked closer to Saki. The Captain swallowed hard as she found herself unable to keep her eyes from wandering up and down the length of her sempai’s legs.
Otsukareina indeed!
Saki mentally smacked herself again. By now Reina had managed to back her up against the door, one hand placed beside Saki’s head while the other pushed her hat upwards until it tumbled to the floor.
“You didn’t expect to tease me all day long without any… consequences… now did you?” Reina muttered softly, bringing her free hand to trace the contours of Saki’s ear, feeling the girl slightly tremble at her touch.
“I – bu – but – uh… you!” Saki found it difficult to make sense while Reina delicately traced her jaw with her fingernails; the warmth of her breath further clouding the younger’s thoughts. Reina smirked yet again, satisfied that the head of Berryz was reacting in such a way.
“You’re old enough to enjoy certain things now… let me help you with that… okay?” The yankii breathed her words out against her junior’s lips, and as soon as Saki nodded her head once, those lips became hers.
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:drool:
first in... comment later
woah...
The voice inside of Saki’s head continued screeching at her, bringing an unsettling pounding to her head. Reina seemed to have the small girl tightly on her leash… everything the wonky-eyed girl did or said, Saki instantaneously reacted to.
WOOF!
“You’re old enough to enjoy certain things now… let me help you with that… okay?” The yankii breathed her words out against her junior’s lips, and as soon as Saki nodded her head once, those lips became hers.
my nineteen year old eyes melted...
thanks for the awesomeness... i enjoyed myself there... keep at it!
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ARRRRG! How did I miss an update!?
Unspoken: That Which Drives Us Apart
AWWW! :cry: Damn, angst is soo delicious! I feel bad but I just can't get enough. AI-CHANNNNNN~ look at her.... :cry:
At That Age Part II
OHOHOHO~ *does Mako-chan's laugh from Haromoni*
That was hotness! Captain, feeling all these new things.... :grin: Poor Maimi! :lol: Cracked me up so bad! But I consider both of them lucky!!! Cuz Reina got those legs........ :drool: I want me some Leader~ :heart:
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Oh Reina... preying on your kohai like that. :pimp: So naughty.
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MOAR CORRUPTING THE YOUNGLINGS!
:wahaha:
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Gahh~! I love your work so much XD
Saki and Reina, hmm... I'm okay with that :yep: Wicked hawt too XD 'course, I also went fangirl crazy over any Reinai moment, so that was a bonus! :w00t:
Keep up the good work :3
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Holy shit, cousin, you commented! O_____O;
Anywho xDDD
Good to see you back Guuchan~
It's like a mini 3rd gen reunion~ <3333
Lovely to see you continue that Saki/Reina story, haha. The foreplay and the mischief of the story could make me smile for days on end~ <3
Hope to see you write more soon :3
-gives you another hardhat for the hell of it- xD
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Loved it! Stories about the High-King unit are really new and interesting, specially when they are like this :roll:
I'm curious... What was Reina saying to Maimi to make her so flustered? XD
Keep it up!
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I'm curious too, maybe she was seeing which one would crack first? :mon surr:
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:drool: first in... comment later
woah...
The voice inside of Saki’s head continued screeching at her, bringing an unsettling pounding to her head. Reina seemed to have the small girl tightly on her leash… everything the wonky-eyed girl did or said, Saki instantaneously reacted to.
WOOF!
“You’re old enough to enjoy certain things now… let me help you with that… okay?” The yankii breathed her words out against her junior’s lips, and as soon as Saki nodded her head once, those lips became hers.
my nineteen year old eyes melted...
thanks for the awesomeness... i enjoyed myself there... keep at it!
Hehe, glad you enjoyed it! :lol:
Oh Reina... preying on your kohai like that. :pimp: So naughty.
I loves the naughty! :drool: :wub:
MOAR CORRUPTING THE YOUNGLINGS!
:wahaha:
OKAY! Lols... maybe not for a while 8) I'll have to think about who else I can go around corrupting :D
Gahh~! I love your work so much XD
Saki and Reina, hmm... I'm okay with that :yep: Wicked hawt too XD 'course, I also went fangirl crazy over any Reinai moment, so that was a bonus! :w00t:
Keep up the good work :3
Whoah! WHOAAAH! Where have you been all my life?! XD Haven't seen you around these parts in like... FOREVER! Thanks for popping in and reading! :P
Holy shit, cousin, you commented! O_____O;
Anywho xDDD
Good to see you back Guuchan~
It's like a mini 3rd gen reunion~ <3333
Lovely to see you continue that Saki/Reina story, haha. The foreplay and the mischief of the story could make me smile for days on end~ <3
Hope to see you write more soon :3
-gives you another hardhat for the hell of it- xD
Yay! Yuuchan liked it! :D *puts on hardhat* :P
Btw... I've totally gota catch up with all your stuff... I'm sure that I'm WAY behind! :sweatdrop:
Loved it! Stories about the High-King unit are really new and interesting, specially when they are like this :roll:
I'm curious... What was Reina saying to Maimi to make her so flustered? XD
Keep it up!
Only Maimi shall ever know what Reina was saying to her!!! Must've been something... um... inappropriate for minors' ears? :oops:
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Unspoken: The Other Responds
For as long as I can remember, I was alone.
Even in a crowded room full of my closest family and friends… I was alone.
Is that strange?
Is it a little odd that I'm unable to completely open up to another person?
There isn't one single person who knows everything about me. There are people who know the beginning, somebody else knows the middle, and yet another person who knows the current.
When you start off with low self confidence...
When you're not really sure whether what you're doing is right or not...
When you think that no matter what you do or say, people simply won't understand...
…You fall faster and faster.
You clam up, put on a pretense that there's nothing bothering you, act like you've never even given a second thought to who you really are... when in reality it’s all you ever think about.
Then I met you and you changed it all. You made me want to change, to grow, to find myself.
And because of that… In the beginning I resented you…
I couldn't comprehend how you could always be so bubbly and optimistic.
I couldn't wrap my head around you wanting to be so near me, wanting to share everything with me.
I thought you were too young and naive to know what you were really doing.
To me, you were living in this happy little bubble that would never pop… I was jealous of that...
It was everything I wished I had… you were everything that I wanted to be…
Before I realised it, you were constantly glued to my side. To be honest - and I think I can admit this now – to be honest…
It scared me.
It scared me that you wanted to be close to me.
It scared me because nobody had ever acted that way towards me.
It scared me... because I didn't know how to deal with your complete trust in me.
I didn't get why you trusted this me... and I still don't...
I wish you could hear everything that's constantly on my mind...
I wish you knew it all...
Because then I wouldn't have to tell you...
I wouldn't have to fumble around, waiting for the right moment that never seemed to come, trying to find the words that would make everything alright.
I think sometimes you wish that too... you give me that troubled look and then quickly replace it with that winning smile of yours... pretending that it doesn't matter...
But it matters a lot… It matters the world to you…
…What we're thinking, what we're feeling...
It's what makes us work...
It's what brings us together...
But at the same time… more than that…
…It's what drives us apart.
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that was beautiful... i love it...
makes me wonder who the persona is... and the object of her reflections...
hmm... i got a couple of candidates in mind now...
i got all teary eyed with this
I wish you knew it all...
Because then I wouldn't have to tell you...
I wouldn't have to fumble around, waiting for the right moment that never seemed to come, trying to find the words that would make everything alright.
I think sometimes you wish that too... you give me that troubled look and then quickly replace it with that winning smile of yours... pretending that it doesn't matter...
But it matters a lot… It matters the world to you…
…What we're thinking, what we're feeling...
It's what makes us work...
It's what brings us together...
But at the same time… more than that…
…It's what drives us apart.
so many possibilities... there is one that i'm ambivalent about, though... hmmm
anyway... thanks for the awesomeness again... you never fail to deliver the goods... go! go! go!
EDIT: okay... i know for sure that i'm a total idiot... i totally don't remember titles... ... i had to check the previous page to check the title of the first part... anyway, it's still awesome...
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Where have I been? Well, that I don't even know much of LOL I'm always mad busy thanks to work, but I've always have been lurking around here, just not commenting :sweatdrop: But hey, I'm commenting now! XD
Anyway~
Wow, that was...wow. It's so sad, yet so true. After all, situations like that does happen in real life...which makes it seem more real. :cry: And with Ai's personality (because I'm pretty sure this is Ai's pov, if not...I feel like an idiot XD) it makes a lot of sense!
...Moar plz! :cow:
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Yaaaay, Aichan's view~ <3 Thanks, Guuchan xD
xD No worries, you got her down perfect :3 Her self-insecurities, her fears, her revelations, it's our favorite angsty leader all right xDDD
I especially like the last six sentences, particularly the last sentence because of its opposite effect in regards to the prior five. xD I love things like thaaaat <3333
So what, not going to update Sun that much? ;-;
Oh well, as long as you keep writing, we're all happy <33333
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That was great! So both girls have these feelings that they're keeping inside and it's hurting their relationship. Don't be afraid, Ai-chan. She loves you and you love her so take the plunge and talk to her. :(
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Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww...Aichan! :cry:
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A nice little character study, and it was well written. I had to go back and read the first part to compare them. It seems like the ball is in Ai-chan's court and this point, and what's more, she knows it. I hope something happens to give her that little extra push she needs. It never fails to interest me that can seemingly be so confident can be so insecure at the same time.
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YAY Ai-chan does still need Gaki! (not that I actually doubted that... but yeah)
That was so true and real, makes it even more sad and touching :cry:
Great writing there of course!
One day Ai, you will break... You have to, we all have to... but if you leave it too long, that one person you hope to be there to catch you as you fall, will be gone... Sometimes people search and search and search for this one thing they believe will make them complete and happy but the whole time, everything they have ever wanted is right in front of them, under appreciated but alot of the time, so innocently unaware. Don't look over the head of those in front of you, look into them and see what is waiting for you! :heart:
Noooow, my fave lil' fish with feathers, goosey, we have this problem you see... YOU keep writing this fabulous "one-shots" that are just dying to become more and thus, like your characters, we become incomplete without a continuation... This beautifully send glimpse into the Unspoken is one of those!
Sooo, if you love us as much as we love you (which is a lot btw!) would you please shower us with my of your greatness?! :heart: :wub:
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haha i just read all the whole thread~ :D
whoaomg its so <3 :heart: :heart:
you write takagaki really well you know :lol:
i really like your stories ..
they're really good :yep:
hope you update soon *nods*
more angsty takagaki~ >_>;
or happy takagaki :lol:
whichever you like~~
just ... write takagaki :heart:
cause you're so good at it :yep:
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I'll like to think of this as an Ai-chan OPV too. Sigh...TakaGaki...
We need new TakaGaki stuff especially with the musical. You are gonna have more fluffly/angsty fics on them right? Right? *looks at goosefish like a lil puppy*