Ramblings of a goosefish (updated 29th july~!)

[JFC]

I was worried when I saw the title.

...

Couldn't continue after reaching the 6th line.

I'm pretty sure it's the first time I've left any fic chapter unfinished. Too bad, it had potential.

[zay05ohayou]

Cool, Reina and Gocchin! 
So this is like set after 3 years from now huh? I wonder who the other girl is. Eri? Risa? 

“If neither of you are willing to do anything, I won’t hesitate to take you for myself.”

Go and take her Gocchin! Go!
Whats with the smokes though? 

[lollipopgirl]

IEch amnsdeuwfncf23rqi*(qw BJH1 AHhhhhh!
Basically you made me all flabbergasted then... I usually hate smoking and thus I never understood why I found smoking Maki so hot and when you portray her like that it just makes me want to faint from her coolness even more

Reina, I don't care who the other girl is, she is unimportant right now, go for the Gocchin, pleeeease! I want a part 2 of this one
This just goes so well with Reina saying in that Chinese interview that Maki likes her a lot, glad to know this is what she meant

[goosefish]

This was hot! I can totally imagine Gocchin like that. I think she and Reina do have some kind of connection. But I wonder who this other girl is. I'm leaning towards Eri, Sayu or Ai-chan. Maybe not Sayu but the other two seem logical to me. I think Gocchin seems so damn hot!!! I think I'd pick her, fo sho!

Hehe, Maki being the sexy thing she is, I wouldn't be surprised if Reina suddenly decided to go for her despite her feelings for someone else.

GOTO!~ 
so who's the other girl
but hell yeahz! take her Maki.. 

The other girl... I don't know really  I like to think of the other girl as either Eri or Ai-chan, but it's really open to whoever takes your fancy.

I was worried when I saw the title.

...

Couldn't continue after reaching the 6th line.

I'm pretty sure it's the first time I've left any fic chapter unfinished. Too bad, it had potential.

Ooops, sorry JFC. Maybe the next one will be more to your liking 

Cool, Reina and Gocchin! 
So this is like set after 3 years from now huh? I wonder who the other girl is. Eri? Risa? 

“If neither of you are willing to do anything, I won’t hesitate to take you for myself.”

Go and take her Gocchin! Go!
Whats with the smokes though? 

I don't know. I guess the idea of the smokes was just something to work with... sortof as a setup for the story 

IEch amnsdeuwfncf23rqi*(qw BJH1 AHhhhhh!
Basically you made me all flabbergasted then... I usually hate smoking and thus I never understood why I found smoking Maki so hot and when you portray her like that it just makes me want to faint from her coolness even more

Reina, I don't care who the other girl is, she is unimportant right now, go for the Gocchin, pleeeease! I want a part 2 of this one
This just goes so well with Reina saying in that Chinese interview that Maki likes her a lot, glad to know this is what she meant

LOL! at your reaction!  There was an interview?! I haven't seen it, you don't happen to have a youtube link or something do you 
Btw, I know this is really REALLY delayed, but I was browsing the fanfic of the month nominations thread. Thanks for nominating my fic! Means a lot to me!  *sooooo slooooooooow*
Oh... and this is probably even SLOWER, but love your sig *mega slooooow* 

[goosefish]

Soooooooo, the world needs more Takagaki!   
HAVE SOME TAKAGAKI ANGST!
This is written from Risa's pov.




Unspoken: That Which Drives Us Apart

Look at me, not past me.
 
Hold my heart, not just my hand.
 
Speak to the person inside of me, not just who you see before your eyes.
 
If you can't do these things, then you're not with me... not completely.
 
Was there ever a time when you were here with your entire being?
 
Maybe for a little while in the beginning...
 
Maybe for a moment...
 
Maybe not at all...

Because maybe it was my imagination...
 
I wish over and over that I could just hack into your brain and find out what really goes on up there.
 
Then maybe, finally, I could find out what I'm doing wrong.
 
I could discover what it is about me that you don't like.
 
Because that's the reason, right?
 
There's something about me that makes you unable to open up to me, right?
 
If I could just change that part about me... If I could somehow make myself more likeable... more trustworthy...

Then the distance between us would disappear.
 
Distance...
 
It's something that's always been between us.
 
Even when we claimed that we could talk about anything and everything... And we could... We can... But its just...
 
Is it real? Are you really letting me in? Are you not just leaving me in the guestroom? I don't think I've ever been allowed to see the master bedroom, let alone been allowed into it...
 
Not even once...
 
Is there a single soul in existence that knows you inside out? Somebody that you've told all your secrets to? All you insecurities? All your thoughts?
 
I can't imagine that anyone has the right to any of that...
 
I can't...
 
Because I know that person isn't me right now...
 
I know that if such a person did exist... if you allowed such a person to see you in your most vulnerable state...
 
Then I would lose my purpose.
 
I would lose my will to keep trying so hard for something that I can barely keep a grasp on as it is.
 
I would lose everything that I ever tried to salvage for us.
 
For us...
 
Have you ever done anything for us?
 
Have you so much as considered where I stand in all of this?
 
I want you to look at me when you speak.
 
I want you to hold my heart while you hold my hand.
 
I want you to speak to me when you speak to the shell of the person standing before you.
 
For us...
 
Ai-chan, have you ever looked at me?

[ringo-hime]

wow TakaGaki angst. 
i love this.
u do knw ur supposed to reveal wats inside Ais mind 
if u are. cnt wait for Ais POV. 

[Yuuyami]

Woo!

The world needs moar Takagaki indeed~

-reads- :B

Yaaay~

Good ol' Takagaki angst xDDDD Or would it be bad for them? And is it bad for us to think it's good? O____O;; xD We're cruel.

Anywho~ Onto le story~! -pounce-  :3

I feel so bad for poor ol' Gaki-san. Here they are, almost seven years since their debut and she still doesn't have much of an inkling of how Ai-chan's head works. And if she doesn't know how it works, then she can't blame her for acting the way she is towards her and thus, Gaki-san could only blame herself as the cause of their distant relationship D:

I can't wait til you write Aichan's view. Thanks to being around Essy-chan as her football, I know enough about Aichan's mindset to know what direction you're going to write for her point of view, and I really look forward to seeing how you're going to portray her "This is my burden and mine alone" character xD~!

GO GUUCHAN~ GO GUUCHAN~ 

-pokes your hardhat- Use it well~ 

[lil_hamz]

I second that! There is never enough Takagaki and so please write more, more I say X D Though I love this pairing, I still like reading about them in angsty situations. I'm evil I know : P

[JFC]

Ooops, sorry JFC. Maybe the next one will be more to your liking

No need to apologize. It's not like a writer can please 100% of their readers 100% of the time. There's no way that you could have known that I'm absolutely repulsed/disgusted whenever anyone tries to make smoking appear sexy (especially considering that we all know that it's not).


Unspoken: That Which Drives Us Apart

[tru_harmony]

Hold my heart, not just my hand.
 

this line really speaks to me...

thanks for the awesomeness... i loved Gaki's POV ... i hope you give us at least a glimpse of Ai's...

[Sukoshi]

I like the happy little world TakaGaki were in a few stories back but this was some good angst!

Is there a single soul in existence that knows you inside out? Somebody that you've told all your secrets to? All you insecurities? All your thoughts?
 
....
 
I know that if such a person did exist... if you allowed such a person to see you in your most vulnerable state...
 
Then I would lose my purpose.

ah I like this part the best...I feel that one of the charms of TakaGaki is Gaki's suppose to know Ai chan the most even if it's not everything...I can't imagine someone else taking on this role at all...

[takagakifan]

  aww gaki... this was so sweet and sad I really hope you also do Ai's pov

[lollipopgirl]

LOL! at your reaction!  There was an interview?! I haven't seen it, you don't happen to have a youtube link or something do you 
Btw, I know this is really REALLY delayed, but I was browsing the fanfic of the month nominations thread. Thanks for nominating my fic! Means a lot to me!  *sooooo slooooooooow*
Oh... and this is probably even SLOWER, but love your sig *mega slooooow* 

The interview was in Chinese and lovely Essy translated it here: http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=15581.msg491705#msg491705
No thank you for blessing us with your stories Althoguh, I didn't get a chance to vote for you fic after nominating coz I wasn't on for the three days that voting was open
And yes, mentioning the sig is even slower but thanks anyway, although you did just break their pureness with poor Gaki in Unspoken: That Which Drives Us Apart

I can relate to how Gaki feels there, she can't give Ai more than she already does and yet it seems like its still not enough
Of course she will wait and wait and wait till Ailets her in completely, but how long can one person wait and will it be too late anyway

[goosefish]

HI AGAIN!

I'm very sorry for pulling yet another disappearing act  But it's ski season here and the slopes called to me! I couldn't resist!

*coughs*

Moving on to comments!!

wow TakaGaki angst. 
i love this.
u do knw ur supposed to reveal wats inside Ais mind 
if u are. cnt wait for Ais POV. 

Hehe, the inside of Ai's mind? *brain malfunctions* That's gona be one hell of a challange 

Woo!

The world needs moar Takagaki indeed~

-reads- :B

Yaaay~

Good ol' Takagaki angst xDDDD Or would it be bad for them? And is it bad for us to think it's good? O____O;; xD We're cruel.

Anywho~ Onto le story~! -pounce-  :3

I feel so bad for poor ol' Gaki-san. Here they are, almost seven years since their debut and she still doesn't have much of an inkling of how Ai-chan's head works. And if she doesn't know how it works, then she can't blame her for acting the way she is towards her and thus, Gaki-san could only blame herself as the cause of their distant relationship D:

I can't wait til you write Aichan's view. Thanks to being around Essy-chan as her football, I know enough about Aichan's mindset to know what direction you're going to write for her point of view, and I really look forward to seeing how you're going to portray her "This is my burden and mine alone" character xD~!

GO GUUCHAN~ GO GUUCHAN~ 

-pokes your hardhat- Use it well~ 

*hardhat shatters while trying to write Ai's POV*  Lol, getting into Ai-chan's mind is like.... TOO HARD!! I've tried a few times... but I think it will take a little more time before I'm happy with it, if at all 

I second that! There is never enough Takagaki and so please write more, more I say X D Though I love this pairing, I still like reading about them in angsty situations. I'm evil I know : P

If you're evil, then so am I! I'm sure a fair amount of people love a bit of angst every now and then 

Ooops, sorry JFC. Maybe the next one will be more to your liking

No need to apologize. It's not like a writer can please 100% of their readers 100% of the time. There's no way that you could have known that I'm absolutely repulsed/disgusted whenever anyone tries to make smoking appear sexy (especially considering that we all know that it's not).


Unspoken: That Which Drives Us Apart

Lols. Here, have tissues *throws tissues*

Hold my heart, not just my hand.
 

this line really speaks to me...

thanks for the awesomeness... i loved Gaki's POV ... i hope you give us at least a glimpse of Ai's...

No, thankyou for reading 

aww gaki... this was so sweet and sad I really hope you also do Ai's pov

Seems like everyone is demanding Ai's POV, hehe. I'll see what I can do about it, if it doesn't kill me first 

LOL! at your reaction!  There was an interview?! I haven't seen it, you don't happen to have a youtube link or something do you 
Btw, I know this is really REALLY delayed, but I was browsing the fanfic of the month nominations thread. Thanks for nominating my fic! Means a lot to me!  *sooooo slooooooooow*
Oh... and this is probably even SLOWER, but love your sig *mega slooooow* 

The interview was in Chinese and lovely Essy translated it here: http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=15581.msg491705#msg491705
No thank you for blessing us with your stories Althoguh, I didn't get a chance to vote for you fic after nominating coz I wasn't on for the three days that voting was open
And yes, mentioning the sig is even slower but thanks anyway, although you did just break their pureness with poor Gaki in Unspoken: That Which Drives Us Apart

I can relate to how Gaki feels there, she can't give Ai more than she already does and yet it seems like its still not enough
Of course she will wait and wait and wait till Ailets her in completely, but how long can one person wait and will it be too late anyway

Thanks for the link. Gota love Reina/Maki 
Heh, Takagaki angst, when will you ever leave us satisfied? I think many people can relate to the feeling of being shut out by the person that they care for.



Thanks to everyone again for reading *hugs* I'll be posting something shortly!

[goosefish]

At That Age  Part II


What am I doing?!

The voice inside of Saki’s head continued screeching at her, bringing an unsettling pounding to her head. Reina seemed to have the small girl tightly on her leash… everything the wonky-eyed girl did or said, Saki instantaneously reacted to.

When Reina directed her flirtatious actions at her, Saki could hear alarm bells ringing all around. She would be rendered defenseless, speechless, and ridiculously enchanted by the yankii’s undeniable charm.

But she’s so… hot!

Saki violently shook her head, unable to believe that she had just thought that. But what the young teenager found even more unbelievable was that she would unconsciously tease Reina back.

Because she’s hot!

Saki let out an exasperated sigh of ultimate defeat. She wouldn’t even recall her actions until after she had done them, and by then it was already too late and Reina would more or less immediately retaliate, giving the Captain the most deadly almost-nosebleeds.

The shaken Captain practically ran through the halls now, trying her best not to think of the distraction that had been taunting her all day. Slowing her pace, Saki observed a random door before hastily pushing it open. The girls had been given a thirty minute break, and Saki intended to use every minute avoiding High-King’s self proclaimed Leader.

Shutting the door behind her, Saki turned around to witness what she would consider a sort of heavenly suicide.

You’ve got to be kidding me! Of all the doors I could have chosen!

Reina had her hands propped on either side of an armchair, leaning over from the waist down. Saki stared at her legs. She stared and stared and stared until she was certain that those almost-nosebleeds would become actual nosebleeds.

Unwillingly shifting her attention, she was even more shocked to find that Reina was bending over and muttering something to one very flustered Maimi, whose eyes were scrunched tightly shut. The young Captain felt something inside of her flare… but what was it? A burning desire to aggressively grab Reina and do something to her steadily built within the tiny teen. Though the girl wasn’t exactly sure what something was…

Saki struggled to make sense of the strange thoughts bubbling through her brain cells.

“Sa – Saki-chan!” Maimi squeeked upon opening her eyes to find Saki gaping at her. The C-ute girl abruptly rose, almost knocking Reina to the floor as she sped past Saki and flew out the door, slamming it not too quietly behind her.

Reina turned her attention to the shorter girl, smirking as the tips of Saki’s ears burned dark crimson.

“Saki-chan, otsukareina,” Reina purred as she stalked closer to Saki. The Captain swallowed hard as she found herself unable to keep her eyes from wandering up and down the length of her sempai’s legs.

Otsukareina indeed!

Saki mentally smacked herself again. By now Reina had managed to back her up against the door, one hand placed beside Saki’s head while the other pushed her hat upwards until it tumbled to the floor.

“You didn’t expect to tease me all day long without any… consequences… now did you?” Reina muttered softly, bringing her free hand to trace the contours of Saki’s ear, feeling the girl slightly tremble at her touch.

“I – bu – but – uh… you!” Saki found it difficult to make sense while Reina delicately traced her jaw with her fingernails; the warmth of her breath further clouding the younger’s thoughts. Reina smirked yet again, satisfied that the head of Berryz was reacting in such a way.

“You’re old enough to enjoy certain things now… let me help you with that… okay?” The yankii breathed her words out against her junior’s lips, and as soon as Saki nodded her head once, those lips became hers.

[tru_harmony]

  first in... comment later

woah...

The voice inside of Saki’s head continued screeching at her, bringing an unsettling pounding to her head. Reina seemed to have the small girl tightly on her leash… everything the wonky-eyed girl did or said, Saki instantaneously reacted to.

WOOF!

“You’re old enough to enjoy certain things now… let me help you with that… okay?” The yankii breathed her words out against her junior’s lips, and as soon as Saki nodded her head once, those lips became hers.

my nineteen year old eyes melted...

thanks for the awesomeness... i enjoyed myself there... keep at it!

[strawb3rrykream]

ARRRRG! How did I miss an update!?

Unspoken: That Which Drives Us Apart

AWWW! Damn, angst is soo delicious! I feel bad but I just can't get enough. AI-CHANNNNNN~ look at her....

At That Age Part II

OHOHOHO~ *does Mako-chan's laugh from Haromoni*
That was hotness! Captain, feeling all these new things.... Poor Maimi! Cracked me up so bad! But I consider both of them lucky!!! Cuz Reina got those legs........ I want me some Leader~

[Regent]

Oh Reina... preying on your kohai like that.  So naughty.

[JFC]

MOAR CORRUPTING THE YOUNGLINGS!

[Saikami]

Gahh~! I love your work so much

Saki and Reina, hmm... I'm okay with that Wicked hawt too 'course, I also went fangirl crazy over any Reinai moment, so that was a bonus!

Keep up the good work :3