11(
Matsui Jurina’s Point Of View)
I’m here sitting alone at my bed. My knees are on my chest, hugging it tightly while I let my tears to fall down on my bare skin. I tried to hide all my tears but it really does hurt so much. My decision is tough and painful, I know it is the best for us not to have another chance. I hate you for trapping me in this isolated world. It is your fault to trap us together. Why can’t we be happy? I miss the old us. Our laughs, our love, our happiness, our relationship.
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Flashback – WMatsui’s first date)
“Hai hai. Stop giggling now.” Rena grabbed my hand and gestured me to sit down next to her on the grass. I’m happy to be with her right now. So happy to have her in my life. I smiled at her and giggle for the last time. She lay her body on the grass and gaze at the sky that has a lot of twinkling stars. I sat on her stomach and stare at her.
“Everynight I want you to look up to the sky and see all those bright stars. Each one represents how much i’m in love with you.” Rena turn her gaze at me and gave me the most beautiful smile I had ever seen.
My body heated up, I think all the blood inside me went to my cheeks. God, why do Rena have to be so sweet? Her words penetrated on my heart. She’s the person who give me happiness and the person who complete my entire life. Rena did change my life, and I hope she’s not like that person who broke my whole-self.
“I love you. I love you. I love you Rena Matsui!!!” I shouted out loud, not caring if the people around glance at us. I need to notify to people how much I love this girl, Matsui Rena. If only I can say those lovely words every seconds, why not right?
My perfect Rena chuckled, she place her hands on my cheeks and caressed it. “I love you too.” I inch my face to Rena and kiss her lips, giving her all my love on my kiss. “Jurina Matsui… th-thank you for being my sanctuary.”
We stare at each others eyes, sharing our love together. I started to giggle softly. “I’m going to die with your words. Please don’t drown me.” I smiled while my tongue is in between my teeth. Rena giggled along, she grab a hold of my hands and begin to brush her thumb on my knuckles. “Am I making you to love me more?” Rena winked. The blush on my cheeks double itself to Rena’s sweetness. After I nodded, Rena she hold my right hand up by sticking my one finger up and starts tickling me.
Us two were tickling one another, laughing together to our little moment. As I give up I nuzzled on Rena’s neck. “I… I’ll show you my… special talent.” I said while panting and giggling. Before I sat back up on top of her, I brushed the tip of my nose to Rena.
Rena gave me a look as if she doesn’t believe me but there is a hint of interest in her eyes. “Eehhh, Jurina-san has a special talent?” She raised an eyebrow at me and let out a soft giggle.
“Ah-huh. Your perfect girlfriend has her extraordinary talent.” I answered as I brush the strands of her hair in the forehead. “I’m watching.” She then said, flashing me a smile.
I faked cough and controlling myself not to laugh. I placed my two hands on my chest as if I’m a dog. “Arf! Arf! Arf!” I know this special talent of mine is really corny but I want Rena to see it. “Arf! Arf!” Rena starts to laugh.
“Haha! Is that you special talent?” She asked. I nodded like a dog and let out an ‘Arf, Arf’ sounds. “You are the most adorable puppy I had ever seen.” Rena then pinched my cheeks.
“Hmm.” Rena reached her arms on me and wrapped it on my neck, she then pull me towards her. “I love your special talent.” She whispered in my ears and tightly hugged me.
“Thank you for showing it to me, Jurina. I… l-love y-you.”
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End of Flashback)
How can I be so blind not to notice you are only pretending?
Remembering that blissful moment, I didn’t realize my tears began to flow until Yagami Kumi hugged me. I shed all the tears to her, hugging her tightly. To be honest, I wish she is Rena right now. Rena who will hold me so close to her body and all my pain will be over and done.
‘
If I could make everything right. I’d do it all tonight. I’ll hold you and your heart close to my arms and spend my whole life with you. Jurina… I love you.’
Rena…
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Kumi and Mizuki dragged me outside the dorm after I calmed up. Going outside at this time is not on my plan. I just want to be alone and be all emotional in my room but these two jokers with me keeps nagging me to go outside. We are about to go straight when Kumi nudge me on my arms and pointed her chin into a particular person that I hold a grudge at. Matsui Rena.
I stare at her. She was looking for something and looks like she didn’t slept all night as she is wearing the same clothes from last night. Then it hits me. Rena was looking for the necklace. Don’t tell me she’s really searching for the necklace? Rena look so weak and tired, her expression is opposite. She is determined to find the necklace we gave each other on our very first date.
The bulge on my throat increased. I will not going to cry again. I clenched my shirt and went my way towards the school building. I heard Rena called my name but I started to run. Not wanting to hear her painful words again by telling me how much she loves me and how she isn’t going to give up on me.
‘
I won’t give up on you.’
Rena…
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After we had been dismissed by our teacher, I headed straight into our dorm and stayed in there until the sun disappear. Suddenly, a memory that haunts me til now starts to kill me again.
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Flashback – Three years ago)
The loud shout in the living room made me tremble as I become frightened to see my father and mother having a fight. My face become a mess when I start crying, seeing my mother looking so weak and hopeless, my heart broke into pieces. I had never seen my mama to be so hurt. I immediately drag my body to her and hug her tight. Protecting her to the monster.
“Mama. Mama.” I whimpered while shaking her long skirt. My mother hushed me, her tears are dropping on the top of my head. “Please… go to your room Jurina.” She ordered, pushing me away but that didn’t broke my grip on her skirt. I want myself to be with her no matter what.
“JURINA! DON’T GET INVOLVE!” The monster shouted, pulling me away from mama. I’m screaming to him that his grip are hurting me. “You had lost your mind! Go away from us!” I shouted at the top of my lungs, removing his strong hands from mine. “You love mama right?! You love mama! You love me too!”
The monster pushed me away, I slid at the floor. I crawl my way under the table, putting my hands on my ears to prevent from hearing those nasty and traumatic words. His vile words slaughtered me.
“For how long?! How long?! You bastard how long have you been doing this?!” I heard my mother asked him with so much depression in her tone. She then screamed. I can’t control myself not to look at the scene. The monster slapped my mother.
He pointed his index finger to my poor mother. “Don’t you dare call me a bastard!” The monster seize his hand to my mother. She is flailing her hand but he has been possessed by a demon s his strength are too powerful.
“OK. I’LL GIVE MY ANSWER! I’M SICK OF PRETENDING TO LOVE YOU FOR THE PAST ONE YEAR! YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW DISGUSTED I AM TO ACT THAT I LOVE YOU! YOU AND YOUR DAUGHTER ARE NOTHING TO ME!”
I was lost when I heard him blurt those words. I screamed all the pain inside me but those pain are extreme. There are so many words and emotions inside me that want to escape. Why does it have to be our family? Me and mama didn’t do anything to make papa loathe us. I saw my mother collapse on the floor, she was crying. The monster massacred my mother with all his words.
“I’M LEAVING YOU AND YOU!” The monster pointed to mama and me.
‘
I love you papa.’ I cried inside me. ‘
Why do you have to do this? Stop giving me a reason to hate you.’
He is the only hero I have even though he become a villain. I still love him. I ran up to him and started to beg.
“DON’T LEAVE US! PAPA DON’T LEAVE ME!” I looked up to him, tears rapidly flowing on my eyes. “YOU LOVE ME RIGHT? YOU LOVE MAMA RIGHT? PLEASE!!! STOP JOKING!!!” I’m shaking his hands, his expression are emotionless. He is not giving me any love on his expression. “PAPA I LOVE YOU!!!” I wrapped my arms on his waist but he shrugged me off, making me fell on the harsh cold floor.
“I regret giving my last name to you Jurina. I regret loving you.”
The person I love most left me.
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End of Flashback)
“WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!” I cried out. I let my knees to cover my chest while i placed my hands on my ears.
From that day onwards, I vowed to myself and to my mom to detest all the person like him. He sicken me!
Two person approached to me and wrapped their arms. Keeping me protected and safe. “Jurina…” The two whimpered. Stroking their arms at my back to calm me.
“WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE RENA?!”
Rena…
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The brightness of the room hurt my swollen eyes after I opened my eyes. I looked at the time, saying it is 9:32PM. I slept that long?! Last night was horrible though my memory is vague, the only thing I remember is when that awful flashback haunt me and screaming something about Rena. I messaged the throbbing pain in my head before going up to take a bath. After fixing myself, my body haul me to Rena’s dorm room for no apparent reason.
“Rena? She left twenty minutes ago.” Kojima Haruna stated. I give my thanks to her and left the room. “Ah, Jurina. I’m waiting for a good news!” Haruna winked at me before closing the door.
What Haruna said clearly answered my confuse mind. Is she saying she can’t wait to hear the good news on what will happen to me and Rena? I want to talk to Rena, is that why I went to her room and asked for her? I sighed in defeat. I guess I really have to get a proper conversation.
Opening the door of the rooftop, I saw Rena staring at the dark sky while playing something on her neck. I looked up to see a number of stars twinkling above. Setting my eyes again to Rena, the necklace caught me.
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Flashback – WMatsui’s first date)
“Hey arf, arf. Want to stroll at the mall?” Rena asked. I jerked up and glared at her. “Stop that.” I pouted while earning a cute giggle from my baby. She sat up on her elbow, “I’m sorry.”
“Hmp, lezzgo.” I stood up from her stomach and reached my hand to help her get up. Yet, she pulled my hand, making me fall down with her again. “Ehh, you’ll hurt yourself.” I said when she hit her back on the ground. She only smiled at me and stood up.
We clasped our hands together while roaming around the mall. Going in to different boutique shops and one thing that caught Rena’s eyes is a jewellery shop. She drag me inside the shop and looked at the different style of necklaces and rings. Rings. My body began to tingle by just imagining Rena putting in the ring on my finger and proposing her love towards me.
“Wah, lovely. Ne~ Jurina look at this.” Rena pointed at the necklace that has a rectangular base and has an big M at the front. “Can I see that one please?” Rena pointed again at the necklace to the saleswoman. The woman took the necklace out and gave it to Rena.
“We have an offer where you can engrave something at the back of the base.” The saleswoman said, looking at the necklace too.
“Really?” I asked. Before I could ask Rena to get one, she imeddiately asked the saleswoman to get her another necklace that has a same design.
So eager to know what words are written on the necklace, Rena finally opened the box. She carefully took the necklace out and showed the words.
‘
You are the only one for me – WMatsui’
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End of Flashback)
No matter how much I tried to let go off you, my heart still crave for your heart. I will try to erase all those horrible words you told me in the past and that memory who killed the old Matsui Jurina. I promise to be at your side, hold you tight, protect you, love you, give you everything and grow old with you. I don’t want to lose my feelings for you, you are the person I want. You are the only one for me Rena.
‘
I’ll hold you and your heart close to my arms and spend my whole life with you. Jurina… I love you.’
Rena…
“I LOVE YOU!”
A's Note: I don't know if I'll leave it that way or not but base on my Chapter Plot... secret xD. Sorry if this update isn't that much cute/sad cause I'm always getting distracted and I'm caught up on my dance rehearsals and all(TIRED!). I'm banned on staying up late now so I have only a little time on me. The last scene is just... lame for me. :]] as I said, I got distracted then the moment I tried to think on how to write the scene my mind goes blank.
Also sorry if there is any errors. Too scared to double check the chapter. :]]
Topic: Future Love - chapter 14-3 (Multipairing) 02/10/2011 (Read 62104 times)