Chapter 7
Two weeks since that incident, and everything looks normal. Kumi even visit me to my apartment and gave me a chocolate as a thank you gift for comforting her while she’s in that state. Kumi’s blushing while Rena’s laughing while telling me of how silly Kumi looks like while Kanon explaining to her that the man that she’s with, is her cousin. She even said that Kanon make her apologize to her cousin, while Kumi is dying out of embarrassment. Good thing Kanon’s cousin is a gentleman and accept her apology. After that both Kumi and Kanon buy a house, and moved in together so Kumi won’t be jealous anymore. I felt happy for the couple, but deep inside my heart envy them. I envy how they handle their problem so easily, I envy of how they love each other so much that they can easily be jealous. But thanks to their love, they can also easily accept the ones mistake.
Now I remember all the years that I’m dating Sae, in those all years she really is a chick magnet. But I don’t blame them, Sae is good looking enough to attract both male and females, she also good in sport, good cook, smart, lovable and charming. She like a prince, everyday she threat me like a princess. But something still missing, even though a lot of people flirt with her, I never felt jealous. I never felt jealousy towards her, maybe I trust her too much, but that “jealous” thing she felt that to me. So one day I called Rena to asked her what’s bugging me. I asked her to come to a café near my work. After that I prepare myself for the our talk
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I came in 15 minutes early for our talk. But a couple of pedestrian grab my attention, they look like shopping together or something, I don’t know. But they looks really sweet, and when they passed by near the café, I finally saw their face. It’s Mayu and Jurina holding hands while walking, Jurina carrying all the bag while Mayu clings on her smiling and laughing at their own talks, seems like they didn’t notice me, well that’s obvious since they didn’t enter the café, they just passed by. But I felt my chest hurt when I saw them smiling to each other like they have their own world. I started thinking why my chest hurt? Why I’m feel I want them to separated their hands and walk like a normal person. But my self-question broke when someone tap my shoulder to grab my attention
“Yuki, ahhh finally”
Rena said while sit beside me, I just looked at her still thinking about what I just saw
“Yuki, if you space out again, I’ll leave you”
Rena pouted while call the waiter and order her favorite melon bread and a café latte. I looked at her and give her a confuse face
“Huh?”
I looked at her, but she stare at me with a bored expression in her eyes
“Don’t give a huh? You’re the one who called me remember?”
Rena said while looking at me, I just smile to her and I didn’t waste anytime.
“Rena what is jealously? How does it felt like?”
I asked like a clueless child. She stare at me and give me a serious expression
“are you serious?”
Rena ask, while I just nodded
“didn’t you feel jealousy back then in highschool? When Mayu pretended to steal you’re boyfriend, also with Sae doesn’t you feel jealous when other girls flirt with her?
Rena asked, while I scratch my head and looked down
“Well, about highschool I felt more hurt or betrayed by Mayu, while Sae I don’t know?”
I said, while Rena look at me with “are you serious look of hers” good thing the waiter came in and delivered Rena’s order, Rena then grab her drink and have a little sip on it, after that she look at me
“do you love Sae?”
Rena asked, I just nodded my head as an approval
“Rena what does jealousy felt like?”
I asked hoping she can give me one, she just sign and massage her forehead
“well jealousy is a hard word for me, yes I felt jealous before when Airin talk to her co-worker or Airin didn’t called me or something like that? I felt heavy and my chest hurt when someone grab her attention and she doesn’t look at me. But everybody have they owns interpretation to it. Jealousy maybe other word for possessiveness for someone, like you only want them to look at you, see you, and care for you. But like I said everybody have they owns interpretation to it. So I think it’s normal for us to feel jealous for someone we love”
Rena said, I just smile for her wise word and look down
“Y-Yeah you’re right”
I said, she then grab my hand and hold it tight.
“Yuki?”
Rena called my name so I look at her. I just stare at her then she just give me a sad smile
“Yuki if you didn’t felt any jealousy toward Sae maybe you trust her so much or you doesn’t really love her. You two are going out for years, and to think you haven’t even felt just a little bit jealousy towards her is weird, I said weird since Sae is a popular in college and attract more people”
she said and munch her melon bread, while I just think about what she said
“I-I like Sae, but….”
I said while looking myself in the café wall mirror
“But?”
Rena asked, I close my eyes take a deep breath
“I don’t know?”
I said and, Rena just look at me and bit her lower lip
“Yuki” she said and make me look at her
“Hmm…?”
“Yuki, if you don’t have feelings with Sae I think you should break up with her. As you’re bestfriend I advice you to end this up. You will just hurt her more if you stay with her, and also the longer you stay with her the bigger the guilt that you will be feelings afterwards.
Rena said and take her last bite on her bread, I’m just thinking all my memories of Sae. Our first date, our first kiss and many more but the same time I’m also thinking of Mayu with Jurina. It hurt me, I’m I using Sae all this time? If is then I’m a bitch? She doesn’t deserve me she deserve better. I felt heavy thinking of that. I felt my world slowly crushing. If I love Sae then why I’m always dreaming about Mayu, why she suddenly come to my mind. I felt Rena hands touching my face and using her thumb to whipped away my tears, wait I’m crying now? I asked myself and look at Rena.
“Yuki”
she said and hugged me. Then suddenly I can’t control my myself anymore, I cried in her shoulder and let my emotion burst from the sudden realization
“I- I’m so cr-cruel”
I said while Rena comfort me, she tapping my back and whisper to
“Yuki if you don’t love her, just break up with her so you don’t cause her and yourself much more pain”
I myself cried and cried while nodded with Rena. I know this gonna hurt Sae and me but I need to do this. I can’t lie to Sae anymore…….
………………………….TBC
Thank’s minna for reading this and for all the comments
hehehe I didn’t know Yuki’s POV is much harder than Mayu for me to write
ahhh….
anyway hope you like it
oh yeah @ kurogumi is it that weird when I write a Mayuki in the other section?? hehehe well it's my my little sister/puppy mayuyuXlyukirinlover13 fault she gave me a headstart ehh
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