A/N please enjoy this very short fic... I once had on my mind and apparently once forgotten and once remembered, at least read it once..
yeah once. I love once
gahd. I seemed like a drunk person talking there.
@Ashura and Saku: if ever you two happened to pass by in this thread. It's not yet the fic, okaaay/ It's not yet worthy of my YukoRena
enjoy. PLEASE.
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Smile For Me I saw her at the cafeteria by the corner reading a book alone, she seemed enjoying the paperback , smiling page after page. Her tranquil dimpled-smile ironically made my heart flutter at that wee hour.
The next day, I decided to visit the same cafeteria, I saw her again, alone reading the same book still wearing her smile. I sat at the table beside her to have a good view of her. She seemed so into it, not minding anything around her. I stayed to watch her… minutes have passed, minutes turned hours… I observed her keenly, she was reading with a tensed-face that time, while reaching for her coffee until she carelessly spilled herself. I was about to offer my help to her but I decided not to. Her adverse reaction was priceless not showing any sign guilt at all. She seemed happy.
The next day, I saw her again, but she was not alone that time. She was with some model-like tall girl. Her smile was different. I could even feel her affection towards the girl beside her. Is she your girlfriend? I couldn’t help but let out a frown as I recognize this little crush I was having towards the stranger started to grow bigger day by day. That day, I heard her laugh for the first time. Some unique melody that has echoed on my mind... I wanted to hear it more, but it was too late already. She went ahead with her company. I stayed for no reason. I just felt all my energy was exhausted seeing her with someone else.
“What’s your name?” my thoughts wandered mindlessly searching for her identity.
I was about to go when I noticed the name written on her paper cup of coffee…”must be you…aren’t you….?”
Yuko~The next day, I saw her again; I was hoping I wouldn’t see her with someone else again. I was right. She was alone living her usual day by day. That time she brought a lot of colourful pencils and markers and started scribbling on a certain notebook smiling at her masterpiece, sipping her coffee. “Should I approach her?” I asked myself but I just simply can’t. She’ll think I’m weird.
But am I not?
That day wasn’t a fine one. She was about to go when it started to pour. She seemed not having some protection from the rain. With her book at hand she stood in front of me just outside the glass window separating us. I saw her smile. I was wrong. She was not bothered at all by the rain instead she lifted her hand catching the poor crystals falling from the heavens.
Even those crystals deserved her appreciation. “Pure heart~” Few minutes after, she must have decided to go even the rain hasn’t worn off yet. I saw her hid the book under her shirt as she shielded her head with her body-bag walking briskly until she vanished from my eyes.
The next day, I came a little earlier. As expected she wasn’t there yet on her favourite spot. I intentionally took her seat and hoped she might approach me and have a chance to know her more. Time came, she hasn’t arrived yet. I waited for another hour. No Yuko arrived. The seat seemed so familiar as if I was the one who always use it. I couldn’t help but form a curl on my lips as I brushed the table in front of me. Few minutes after I surrendered in defeat losing all my hopes seeing her. I missed her already. As cliché it may seem, it started to rain once again. “Did you bring your umbrella now?” I chuckled as I imagined her in front of me playing with the rain.
The next day, I did the same. I hoped. I wished. I prayed. Little by little failure started to sink in, as minutes of waiting turned into hours. I already let my hopes down when suddenly a panting Yuko showed up. Dumbfounded with her sudden appearance I stood up beside the table as she started to take her steps towards me. She sat on her spot. Her face was blank. “What’s wrong?” She seemed lost with her thoughts staring at the flat wooden table as she didn’t even notice me. No tears fell but my heart shouts for me to console her. But who am I to her?
No one.
“Who am I?” I asked myself.
I didn’t know the answer either.
“Why….why can’t I remember my name?” my head started to ache as I tried my hardest for an answer. I stumbled down as I pressed my hands on my head harder searching for a clue when tears started to run down to my cheeks.
I heard her yelp.
Yuko sobbing at the table….
“Yuko, what’s wrong?”
I lifted my hand, reaching for her as she broke down in tears even more. Shattering my heart into pieces every second. I went closer. She slowly lifted her head as she probably noticed me already. Her eyes were swollen. My heart couldn’t contain the sadness I’m seeing through her eyes. She closed her eyes.
I reached for her, wanting to hold her even more.
But.
“Why?”I reached for her.
“Why can’t I….?”A sudden realization hit me.
“Am I……?”++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
That day was supposed to be a happy one but it turned out to be the most unwanted day for me to remember. I planned on confessing my feelings for her. Feelings I kept, buried deep inside my heart over years. Years of friendship I shared with her turned into something more than that.
“Yuko-chan, 1 minute I’m almost there~” She was almost arriving where we planned to meet when her car got hit by a wreck less driver.
I waited for her hoping her lateness was a prank. I called her phone a million times; she didn’t bother to answer any.
“Acchan….This is not funny anymore~” feeling a little irritated towards the expected company as I hugged myself from the freezing snowy day.
A few minutes after, I felt my phone vibrated. I took out my phone as quickly as possible hoping it was her already. But she wasn’t. It was Mariko.
“Acchan……”My world crumbled. My knees started shaking along with my hand. No tears fell as I felt my body drained out of everything. My hopes, dreams, wishes, plans…. Everything, gone.
Day after day since that incident, I always make it to a point to visit the place we both loved hanging at, the cafeteria close to our workplace. Always taking her usual seat, I felt her presence with me. I couldn’t help but smile remembering each day I spent with her even the times when she spilled her coffee on her book and even the day when it started to rain hard and we both forgot to bring our umbrellas. I read the book she loved. Her favourite book she has read cover to cover a thousand times already despite my child-like distractions towards her.
“I miss you Acchan~….miss…miss…..you…. a..lot”
Page by page I started to write my feelings towards her. Hoping it would reach her. Could it?
Until the day came, Feeling nostalgic by a sudden call from Mariko.
“Yuko-chan~ come here….I have something to tell you”Even that day seemed has shared my tears as the heavy rain started to pour. Devastation engulfed around me. I ran and ran and ran mindlessly hoping it could ease the pain as I figured where my feet have brought me.
Cafeteria.
I went inside, not having any purpose…plans. I walked towards the wooden table she loved feeling a little crazy as if I’m still seeing her back, waiting for me from the door. “Acchan…I love you~”
I’m desperately in love.
I couldn’t take it any longer as I broke down in tears. I felt alone without her in my life. My meaningless actions would remain as it is if I won’t be able to hear her laughter anymore.
“Don’t do this to me~”A moment after, Thinking of losing all my sanity, “Yuko~” I heard her call my name.
“Acchan~ I love you”
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I opened my eyes and found myself inside a pitch-black room. Not having any idea at all, I saw something sparked. A little orb glowing in front of me as if beckoning me to come closer…. I walked closer, reached for it… Until…
“Acchan~”
I felt my body electrified as memories started to bombard me.
“Acchan~ where are you?”
“Acchan~ what are you doing?”
“Acchan~ stop reading that book heaven’s sake!”
“Acchan~ hmmm…. Nothing~”“Yuko!”
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“Yuko~ come fast!! Acchan!”I ran as fast as I could.
~flashback~“I’m afraid her chance of survival up to this time is almost at 10ths. I’m very sorry.” said the figure in scrubs.
~end~Acchan got into comatose since the accident happened. Day by day, before visiting her I always make it to a point where I’ll visit her favourite place. I’ve read her book just to storytell the whole stuff once again to her every day “as usual nee Acchan~?” I even left her colourful message cards page by page hoping she would be able to read it once again.
Beside me….
Few minutes after I arrived at her room, I found her still sleeping like a princess as always. The room was silent as I found myself alone with her.
“Acchan…..” I started crying, I felt so hopeless… helpless seeing her lie alone inside such frustrating white room. When I felt a hand patted my shoulder, I turned my head…
“Mari-chan…” I uttered. She shook head smiling at me. I was lost.
“Yuko…Acchan is…” Mariko wasn’t able to finish her statement as I heard a familiar voice.
“Yuko~”
“Am I dreaming?” I didn’t wanna turn my head. I didn’t want to face reality. Reality of realizing I was only dreaming I’m hearing her voice.
“Yuko, Acchan’s waiting for you” Mariko smiled at me almost at the verge of crying.
Being able to gather all my strength, I turned my head towards the sleeping figure. I saw her slowly opened her eyes. My feet didn’t seem wanting to walk any further. I was stoned on my feet seeing her move as tears started to form once again on my eyes. Seeing her weak smile on me was enough. Enough to believe, she didn’t leave me.
“Acchan!” was all I could utter as I surrendered my body hugging the vulnerable body.
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Months have passed and she has recovered. We’re almost back to our daily routines. But the feelings I once planned on telling her were decided left unspoken. I stayed beside her and chose to keep our friendship.
One day. She called me and said she wanted to meet me up at the usual. Not having any idea what’s up on that particular day, I opted to come for her.
I was just on time but she wasn’t there yet. I decided to take her seat. When suddenly my phone rang.
“Yuko-chan, 1 minute I’m almost there~”I felt chills as I heard her words. Almost panicking at my current situation, I noticed a figure walking closer towards me just outside the glass window.
It was Acchan wearing her favourite summer yellow dress.
The heavy feeling I was having was suddenly blown away as I stared at her standing just in front of me,
smiling at me.
When she suddenly took out her favourite book from her sling bag, and turned the pages. I flinched as I saw her rip a page of her book. Taking another object on her bag, I saw her took out a tape and taped the poor paper on the window.
“I love you Acchan <3 ……..TOO Yuko <3”++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
more AtsuYuu to come I guess
and yeah, MaYuki i guess
my feelings just like a scrambled egg...... messed up.